lap and dye this Friday (19th)

[laustiredttc]

miscarried yesterday on my birthday. The world has just hit a new low for me. There needs to be a new word for depression

 

[wishinforbub]

miscarried yesterday on my birthday. The world has just hit a new low for me. There needs to be a new word for depression

Oh Lau, I can't put into words how much I'm feeling for you right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your hubby x We're all here for you and know that you will make it through this terrible time...cry your heart out hon

 

[HearMyPrayers]

miscarried yesterday on my birthday. The world has just hit a new low for me. There needs to be a new word for depression

Oh no Lau....I have no words for you right now just my heart broke for you literally

Please hang in there and like wish said cry all you want and as much as you want. We are all here for you.

they only positive thing from this is that you know whatever you were doing worked!! You got pregnant! just find your strenght deep down and hang in there girl

 

[laustiredttc]

Thank you ladies. its just horrible atm. i had THE WORST contraction like pains at 1am this morning that lasted for four hours. I ended up just taking a shi* load of painkillers then fell into an exhausted sleep. Pains still here today but not nearly as bad. Just have to keep moving forwards. Going to try again after one full cycle to give my body and mind a break. My silver lining is that i have an ivf referal in aug so if i dont conceive naturally by then its my backup. Got to hold onto that positive!

How are each of you ladies? What have you all been up to?

ps and thank you for all of your support, it means a hell of a lot to me

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Thank you ladies. its just horrible atm. i had THE WORST contraction like pains at 1am this morning that lasted for four hours. I ended up just taking a shi* load of painkillers then fell into an exhausted sleep. Pains still here today but not nearly as bad. Just have to keep moving forwards. Going to try again after one full cycle to give my body and mind a break. My silver lining is that i have an ivf referal in aug so if i dont conceive naturally by then its my backup. Got to hold onto that positive!

How are each of you ladies? What have you all been up to?

ps and thank you for all of your support, it means a hell of a lot to me

I'm so sorry its so painful your a strong woman! Sometimes when we get knocked down we just have to find the strength to get back up! Dont you worry sweetie its going to work out for all of us one way or another and when the time is right. I"m glad you are looking at the positive side with the IVF referral, thats what you need to do is see the positive in all the negative.

I'm good this is our second cycle without meds (I o on my own though) just no monitoring or trigger shots, so this is our second month no clinic visits none of that. I called told the head nurse we were taking a break and she told me "ok thats fine dont wait too long or else you will need a new referral and start over!" wow thanks your a positive peach aren't you!

Anyways, I'm not tracking temps, no ovuation kits, none of that I really just do not think about it at all, I'm almost....over it in a sense like so tired of investing every fiber of emotion and time and energy into this when in the end its always the same result, its like a bad joke every month. blah. So DH is actually more into it when we aren't being monitored which drives me crazy because its like now he has all this positive energy towards it but when we are going through all the clomid and all that crap he is hardly invested its weird! But thats where I'm at basically still stuck at square one lol.

 

[laustiredttc]

ah bless thank you huni, your words really comforted me hear

i think maybe because he thought that he had no control over things so alot of it was out of his hands he maybe took a step back but now its more down to you both maybe he feels like he can relax more. But this is a huge positive hun as there will be less stress for you both and you can enjoy things more. I would just go with the flow and see what happens. Thats what we did the month we got our Im keeping you in my prayers huni. We more than deserve our liccle miracles and one day we will receive them. I totally believe that with all my heart

 

[wishinforbub]

Hi Ladies

Lau, how you doing?

I was hoping to have some really great news. I was due to start Sunday or Monday, and come yesterday evening when I went to bed, still nothing. My cramps had been different this month, lasting longer but being more subtle, and as I have never, ever been late, I thought this was it.

No such luck - I was awake from 4am....went to the loo and had a little bit of spotting, but still nothing major. Got up this morning though and AF is back again.

I was really hoping the universe was saving good karma for me yesterday - it was the 7th anniversary of the night I had my drink spiked and was raped at a friend's joint birthday party at a bar in Clapham. Getting a BFP yesterday would have changed my view of March 18th forever....

Feeling very low right now...thanks for listening ladies, and sorry for TMI

 

[laustiredttc]

oh my goodness wish, my heart goes out to ya hun. No person should ever have to go through something like that. I hope you have alot of love and support around you huni. I'm sorry you didnt get your bfp, but i know that we all will eventually. and when you have your magical day, it will clear away the bad stuff and lay down a future of promise and wonderful things. Stay strong my dear and know that we are always here for you

 

[wishinforbub]

oh my goodness wish, my heart goes out to ya hun. No person should ever have to go through something like that. I hope you have alot of love and support around you huni. I'm sorry you didnt get your bfp, but i know that we all will eventually. and when you have your magical day, it will clear away the bad stuff and lay down a future of promise and wonderful things. Stay strong my dear and know that we are always here for you

Thanks Lau, I really appreciate your support - especially considering you've had such a horrible time of it yourself lately.

I know things will get better, for us all.....it's just so hard to see the forest for the trees at the moment. Thanks again for listening x

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Hi Ladies

Lau, how you doing?

I was hoping to have some really great news. I was due to start Sunday or Monday, and come yesterday evening when I went to bed, still nothing. My cramps had been different this month, lasting longer but being more subtle, and as I have never, ever been late, I thought this was it.

No such luck - I was awake from 4am....went to the loo and had a little bit of spotting, but still nothing major. Got up this morning though and AF is back again.

I was really hoping the universe was saving good karma for me yesterday - it was the 7th anniversary of the night I had my drink spiked and was raped at a friend's joint birthday party at a bar in Clapham. Getting a BFP yesterday would have changed my view of March 18th forever....

Feeling very low right now...thanks for listening ladies, and sorry for TMI

Wishing - no one should have to go through that at all I admire you strength and courage! I'm sorry to hear about AF coming but at the same time it seems like it was a double edge sword for you this month as well.

 

[laustiredttc]

Bit of rough times here ladies but like hear said we're strong and have courage. We can do this girls, i know we can.

Ps, i just passed interview and got a new job Really needed this. Just going to concentrate on that now and whatever happens, happens!

How you feeling wish, i know its hard times atm but it will improve huni. Time is the biggest healer of all. Stay strong sweetie

 

[HearMyPrayers]

Bit of rough times here ladies but like hear said we're strong and have courage. We can do this girls, i know we can.

Ps, i just passed interview and got a new job Really needed this. Just going to concentrate on that now and whatever happens, happens!

How you feeling wish, i know its hard times atm but it will improve huni. Time is the biggest healer of all. Stay strong sweetie

Lau - thats great news and just the thing you need to distract yourself from the woes of TTC and all that comes with it! congratulations!

Wish - how you holding up girl?

AFM - I allowed myself for A MINUTE to get SLIGHTLY excited the AF was 1 day late only for her to start to show her ugly unwanted face!
I dont know if I'm more mad at myself for slightly even being hopeful or mad because another cycle has come and gone with no success, probably a little of both! I've been researching and I might go to my family doctor and see if she can run a bunch of autoimmune blood screens on me and antisperm antibody to see if there is hindering or causing the "unexplained infertility". I dunno probably grasping at straws here but losing hope.

Anyways thats my little pity party!! I hope you ladies are doing well!!

 

[CCClomidQueen]

Having my lap next Thursday. please keep us posted to how you all do Friday. good luck everyone.

 

[laustiredttc]

Most of us if not all have alfready had it done clomidqueen so if you have any questions just fire away hun but dont be nervous its really an ok op. Good luck sweetie

Hear, i'm sorry the got you huni I would ask hem hun as my mum always says if you dont ask then you dont get. Go for it tbh, i think its a very relevant point to bring up and you have got me thinking, really its what i should be asking also. When will you go see your doc hun?

 

[sikis15]

OMG Ladies I have not been here for a while. I am sorry for that. I have missed so much. Lau Im sorry I was not here for you hon. I hope you feel better. It is great that you dont give up and keep on trying. Know that my heart and prayers go to you and I am sure that very soon you are gonna be holding your baby.
Wish I am so sory to hear this horrific story. No woman should go through such thing. I hope from now on you have only reasons to smile and celebrate.
Hear do not lose hope hon. You are a strong woman and god is testing you, just like he is testing all of us, but no matter what we should never give up. I know how difficult it is to see another failed month, but we sould never lose hope. It is going to happen for us, I know it.
Clomidqueen welcome on board. I wish you luck with the lap and know that we are here for you and will answre any questions you have.
AFM : It has been almost 4 years since we start trying to concive. Even though I never got PG naturally and I know I have more chances getting PG via IVF, I never stopped trying every month. I hope for a miracle. By the way I think I am going to do IVF this june, so ladies I will keep you posted.

 

[laustiredttc]

Hey sikis its lovely to hear from you again. I think i will be following you closely with the ivf, being referred in aug, of course still hoping for a natural bfp but are'nt we all.
You sound very positive right now which is good, hoping you get your bfp before june but were here for you always hun

 

[sikis15]

Hey sikis its lovely to hear from you again. I think i will be following you closely with the ivf, being referred in aug, of course still hoping for a natural bfp but are'nt we all.
You sound very positive right now which is good, hoping you get your bfp before june but were here for you always hun

Thanks Lau. I am trying to stay optimistic. I really hope that the first IVF will work and I fall PG with twins. I dont know why, may be because we have lost so much time trying to fall PG naturally, that two babies at the same time will get us back on track. I know that is silly but I am so ready. My husband has a sister and a brother who already have 5 years old and 2 years old sets of twins. Imagine how awsome would be if we had twins too.

 

[laustiredttc]

Ah bless, i know exactly how you feel hun, tbh i would wish the same. Well maybe fate will take a hand and gift you with twins. I truly hope so, will keep you in my prayers huni

 

[CCClomidQueen]

Thanks for the support and well wishes. I had my Lap on Thursday it wasn't so bad, just really sore, but much better today. So the doctor found scarring where I had my appendix out and my ovary stuck to bowel and surprisingly my left side opposite of appendix was worse, I had severe adhesions and hidden ovary! she was able to clean up everything 100% except the right ovary is still attached to bowel, but she seemed really happy with findings. I meet with her for my post op next week and can hardley wait since I was groggy when hearing the news.

 

[laustiredttc]

hey clomidqueen thats great news hun so now you have cleared the way for things to happen. Hope you get your soon