Long Term Trying To Conceive Vent Thread

[Mikihob]

DH and I sent in a packet of papers so that we can withdraw money from our 401K. We got emails, diagnosis', cost breakdowns and the ONLY letter our insurance company will send regarding infertility. They won't accept ANY of it. They need bills. Well the clinic won't bill until the procedure is completed, but they won't perform it until it's completed and we need the money to be able to fly to Seattle for the three weeks to do it. ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME!!

I now plan on spending the afternoon crying and calling my insurance and spend another hour trying to get them to send something else. Now our hopes of being able to start our six months worth of meds has been dashed. Each day this journey gets longer and longer. Is there no light at the end of the tunnel??

 

[JJKCB]

four rants two angry, two sad:

Angry: sat at the infertility clinic and there is a giant poster saying
'unwanted pregnancy? call: *********** for your nearest termination center'
how f*cking insensitive can you be?

Angry: OH sperm has a short life span because he drink incomprehensible amounts of alcohol per week (hes not an alcoholic which is what makes it annoying, he has a good job, doesn't drink during the day and hes not a bad or aggressive drinker but every night he has to 'relax' with 4 to 8 cans of larger its just not healthy but he convinced himself all men do, not sure where he learned that but his brothers the same) hes cut down to only drinking 2 nights a week which according to the nurse should fix his problem but it could take up to 6 months to get his normal sperm back

sad: hoped I would get my fertility plan and clomid today but now they want to do another 3 months of the same tests to make absolutely sure im not ovulating even though they cant find any progesterone spike anywhere and I have the clinical symptoms of no ovulation, so now I have to have blood tests every day from day 18 till day 36 of my cycle I hate needle and my veins now collapse worse than a druggys because ive been poked so much

sad: looks like my hormone problems and damaged ovulation cycle is a result of the septicemia I had last November... stupid illness, made me sick, took my appendix, scarred me up and now took my ability to get pregnant naturally im also losing weight since and the worry as im already at the minimum weight but I dont diet I eat all the time

 

[Myshelsong]

Why is it every time I know I am about to ovulate me and DH end up fighting like children. I cant take this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[LoveCakes]

My friend who has 2 kids since we have been trying 2nd cycle each time telling me she knows how I feel

People who have had their children easily giving advice when they're the least qualified people

the baby themed bnb banner ads. Yes I know most people who use this site have kids but can we opt out or something? I can't imagine what it's like for those on the ttc after a loss forums

also a vent at myself! Why do I sometimes find myself in the pregnancy and baby forums, why it always makes me sad!

 

[madtowngirl]

I hate the feeling of knowing AF is coming. I hate that I waited so long to try. I hate that my doctor won't see me until a year after my mc.

I just hate everything today.

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

Why is it every time I know I am about to ovulate me and DH end up fighting like children. I cant take this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi, Myshelsong, for me this well known situation . We fight all the time and mainly when I o or I have just Od and I need to be calm and happy. I strongly believe that the stress has a lot to do with my fertrility issues.

 

[PyrusEK]

I have been TTC way too long to still symptom spot during the TWW. Unfortunately, that doesn't stop me from occasionally getting my hopes up only for them to crash and burn with the arrival of AF.

This past weekend I felt what I would have sworn was implantation. I have also been super exhausted. I was so excited thinking this might finally be the month. Now I'm starting to feel what is unmistakably PMS, and I know that b*tch AF will be here in two days.

The worst part is that a small part of me still has hope, which means it will just be that much worse when my period starts. Why do I do this to myself??

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

I have been TTC way too long to still symptom spot during the TWW. Unfortunately, that doesn't stop me from occasionally getting my hopes up only for them to crash and burn with the arrival of AF.

This past weekend I felt what I would have sworn was implantation. I have also been super exhausted. I was so excited thinking this might finally be the month. Now I'm starting to feel what is unmistakably PMS, and I know that b*tch AF will be here in two days.

The worst part is that a small part of me still has hope, which means it will just be that much worse when my period starts. Why do I do this to myself??

Our bodies joke with us that's why. Hormonal changes and big desire for a baby make us feel every month that maybe......but then the truth comes up and we are crushed. ...... I hate all of this.....

 

[JJKCB]

this: https://www.examiner.com/article/another-couple-found-guilty-of-murder-for-parenting-by-to-train-up-a-child

how dare these people be allowed children... these people are as bad as Hitler (or worse), torturing and killing small children and yet no one stops this because of 'free speech' and religion

 

[Briss]

this: https://www.examiner.com/article/another-couple-found-guilty-of-murder-for-parenting-by-to-train-up-a-child

how dare these people be allowed children... these people are as bad as Hitler (or worse), torturing and killing small children and yet no one stops this because of 'free speech' and religion

this is truly upsetting. I do not think this book is for parenting, it seems more like a guide for perverted people who enjoy torturing others. but how could such people be allowed to adopt children is beyond me.

 

[madtowngirl]

Teaching your children to fear you through painful means is nothing short of cruel. Yes, children need to recognize the parent as an authority figure, but there are so many ways to achieve that without this disgusting method.

 

[madtowngirl]

UUggggh it's open enrollment time for insurance, and I'm trying to decide between staying on hubby's insurance, which is good, or going on my company's, which is more expensive but might cover a little more for infertility treatments. That is, if I get a diagnosis other than "unexplained." I'm really torn, because my appointment isn't until January, which will be too late to change my mind.

Booooooooooooo.

 

[Sparkle_13]

AF the ultimate kick you when you're down... Bleeding, cramps, back pain and PMS just a friendly reminder that no you're definitely not pregnant

I used to think at least it was the start of a new cycle but now I don't even feel hopeful about that

 

[Mizzbizz]

I feel like crap! I'm tired of being awake at 1 in the morning crying to myself. I'm so fed up with my husband. I am 36 years old and have been married for 16 years. Last year after 14 years of trying off and on, I had a ectopic pregnancy and have been trying ever since every month. I have been charting monthly, taking vitamins, exercising, eating right, trying everything I can to do my part.I even had a spells cast for me. And every month right when it's my ovulation window my husband seems to have some problem or another excuse and let me add that this man has no job and has no reason for stress. I just want to SCREAM! Month after month we have sex every other day except when I'm ovulating, I just don't get it. He says he wants this very bad yet does this every month time after time. He has so many different reasons and excuses I just don't what else to do. I'm not getting any younger and I'm wondering when does wanting a baby become more of a priority than a marriage? I feel like leaving him and finding a better less lazy man, just get pregnant and go back to him. I do love him but i also love being a mom.I know I sound crazy but that's where I'm at with this. And it doesn't help I'm sleep deprived.lol

 

[Sparkle_13]

So sorry for what you're going through Mizzbizz

How frustrating that he is telling you one thing but showing you another with his actions my hubby does this too, not with ttc but with other things and it drives me mental. I can only imagine how hard it must be with something like ttc.

All the best xx

 

[Regalpeas]

@Madtowngirl that is very frustrating. I am amazed at how little information companies give about the plans preferred in regards to fertility treatment. Most often you have to do a lot of self research with little time to choose. I went through the same thing. I know it is a gamble. I say better to err on the side of caution (by getting insurance that cover). It may have better maternity benefits. Then when you get your bfp it may not be as much of a loss. Wishing you the best.

@Sparkle_13 hope you're feeling better. They don't call her a witch for nothing! She lives up to the name for sure!

@Mizzbizz my Dh is the same way. He'd go to fert appts, talk his talk but never take the vits, never exercise nor do any of the things that increase his sperm count. I have been very angry at him but remind myself that sometimes it's about the habits. They want the baby but they don't want to give up the reward of the habit. It's really deep. I've found perseverance through encouragement is the best way. Also, I send Dh articles and have the docs speak to him about male fertility issues. For some reason that has helped him to get better on board. If you're doing all these things just keep at it. I think in the end he will get right. Also, keep working on you too. My doc says unfortunately when the male is the problem the female still should work on herself bc the baby carries in the woman. Seems unfair but we still have more pull in ttc than the men even when dealing with male factor. Pray he wisens up.

 

[Sparkle_13]

Thank Regalpeas xx the funny thing about this thread is something might be driving me crazy for days but as soon as I let it out i already feel a bit better

 

[PyrusEK]

AF just reared her ugly head again. Now instead of being hopeful that I'm pregnant, I have to worry about why I have been feeling so sick and exhausted since the weekend.

A year and a half without even a hint of a BFP could make any TTC-er lose faith.

 

[Mizzbizz]

I agree. Thanks for your feedback it is nice to feel not so alone and get to complain "out loud"

 

[Regalpeas]

Me too ladies. Somedays I feel like such a brat but I don't care. I just have to speak my truth, scream and shout whatever. LTTC sucks balls!!!

Hang in there.