Long Term Trying To Conceive Vent Thread

[JJKCB]

Really Maxi (grocery store)? Moving the tampons into the same isle as the baby stuff right in front of the diapers instead of keeping them in the pharmacy area? Woooow, cruel is not even the word for it Way to punch bellow the belt.

I think all shopping centers are just stupidly designed without thought ... im a veggy and the specialist vegetarian section is in the middle of the butcher aisle... and im not joking its the middle so their is no way to it without walking through the meat aisles - what idiot designed that

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

I am worn out from work. My body is sooooooo tired from walking and I have no choice ; (......... What makes it worse if I don't have enough rest I have almost no chance to get pregnant with this low AMH. I have stared loosing desire for life . It is sad because I used to love life and to smile and laugh a lot. Now I look like an old grumpy woman.

 

[JJKCB]

my body hates me, long cycle this time (2 weeks passed my guesstimated Af day) then boom AF and now im sick as well (fluctuating wildly from hot flashes to freezing cold and aching everywhere + no sleep and another kidney infection) but I cant stop I have a party to organize for 8 children (and the adult help has just dropped out) and my university exams this week

 

[MItoDC]

My employer just sent out an announcement about a worklife seminar titled "The Benefits of Breastfeeding" which shows up in the subject line and just accosted me when I opened my inbox. It literally took the breath out of my lungs for a second. Really? REALLY?

 

[MItoDC]

Holy $h!t. Reading further (I'm a glutton for punishment apparently), it gives me info on how to sign up with the "Working Mothers Lactation Program." Pardon me while I go cry in the bathroom.

 

[MItoDC]

And just as I recover after deleting the initial message, they send it out again with a corrected date. I almost hit reply and chastised them for being so inconsiderate, but I don't want to out myself as the bitter, infertile, basketcase that I secretly have become.

 

[PyrusEK]

This month the PMDD symptoms showed up a full week and a half before AF is supposed to. I know I'll have to deal with this exhaustion, depression, nausea, cramping, and breast soreness for at least 4 more days, probably more since it usually doesn't stop until CD 3. I used to think these were pregnancy symptoms. Now I know better.

 

[madtowngirl]

This afternoon, I got a not-quite-positive-but-definitely-line-there opk, and I made it clear to my husband that I wanted to do the baby dance tonight. He got the hint, and agreed to do it.

I came home from my sewing group and he's playing video games with his friends. He made a deliberate choice to play games instead of being intimate with me during my fertile period.

I am so angry, I'm seeing red.

 

[1timemomma]

I think I've crossed over into the long term trying to conceive. We just got back a really bad sperm analysis back and we're feeling beyond devastated.

 

[Hope3]

I think I've crossed over into the long term trying to conceive. We just got back a really bad sperm analysis back and we're feeling beyond devastated.

 

[Hope3]

Sometimes I wish that ttc wasn't in my head ALL THE TIME!!!

Twice this week I've had students I teach ask if I've got children. I said no and both times they asked do I want them. Whenever I get asked this I try to make out that I'm non-committal and brush it off with a 'yes, one day' response. In reality though I want to scream 'of course I want kids more than anything'.

Then they announced on the tv that the athlete Jessica Ennis is pregnant. Good for her but I don't want to know!

More and more I'm feeling bitter and angry and I end up beating myself up for thinking that I could somehow cheat my biology and mother nature. I'm 43, haven't seen proper fertile CM for 18 months, have short periods which I'm sure isn't a good sign and my libido is at an all time low.

If it hasn't happened by the time I turn 44 I'm definitely giving up.

 

[madtowngirl]

It does suck - it feels like when you are ttc, your entire world revolves around ovulation, sex, and periods. I just want to be carefree again, like I was when I didn't even want kids.

Hugs to you both.

 

[wannabemummyb]

It does suck - it feels like when you are ttc, your entire world revolves around ovulation, sex, and periods. I just want to be carefree again, like I was when I didn't even want kids.

Hugs to you both.

Yep, i feel like this all the time sadly! Sometime i wish i'd not started trying, its caused such pain and heartache

 

[bathbabe]

CD 95... sigh. Iv never wanted my period so bad in my life. Especially after almost constant bleeding for the last year :'(

 

[Regalpeas]

Hugs to everyone. Hoping the days get easier...and all the moments lead us to bfp.

 

[Relaxedlevis]

[Rant]Dealing with MFI for almost 4 years. My wife and I have been "seeing what happens" for about 8 years now.

I've improved my lifestyle back to my athletic ways and lost all the weight I had put on since taking a desk job and doing shift work. Our journey has been confusing and frustrating.

We went to a Fertility Clinic after we were referred by our family doctor. This was not a nice experience at all and anyone going through any of this - respect. The doctors practically treat you as a test subject. My first SA came back about 20 mil per ML. They figured this was fine but not good and moved on to my wife. She endured test after test until she was confirmed alright. We then moved to do a Monash test. We waited after I did the test for the results and afterwards they determined I was the problem.

Since that day my life has turned into a lot of fixing. I started off at first in denial and sad. Today will be my last scheduled SA that I have to do so far. I think this is number 11. I've watched my results change and it has been very interesting. More blood test and I'm scheduled to go in again for a complete ultrasound after a scrotal ultrasound was inconclusive. They still can't figure out what is wrong with me. I'm hoping my results from this second test ordered by my Urologist will show that I'm doing better. I won't get my results until after I go for my ultrasound and the waiting is just so frustrating.

I find all this really kills the motivation to BD for my DW. I've gotten back positive results which is why the doctors are even more confused. Agh!

Thanks for letting me vent! [/RANT]

 

[PyrusEK]

DH started a new job last week. I'm happy for him because it's something he already loves and he got a nice raise, but he is now travelling during the week most of the time. It means that he wouldn't be able to go to MD appointments with me if I went through with seeing a fertility specialist, and on top of that we won't be able to even try many months because he won't be home during my fertile days.

I was supposed to see the FS yesterday, but I cancelled my appointment. I can't imagine trying to do this alone, and that's how it feels. I'm also scared now that if we do finally get our BFP, he won't be home enough to care for the baby.

I used to be extremely independent, and when he traveled before, it was a really nice setup because I got to pursue all my own interests without worry 4-5 days a week and be with him 2-3. Now it feels different, and I can't help but feel depressed about it even though we made the decision together.

 

[madtowngirl]

Went to my neighbor's baby shower today. The next-door neighbor who told me she was pregnant with twins via a FB announcement. Yea.

Anyway, I was fine, until the end. Her mother decided to loudly announce that not only am I childless, but the fact that I do not have children means I should be helping my neighbor take care of hers.

Needless to say, that was my cue to exit.

 

[Yammas]

That is the most insane thing Ive ever heard! Why should you help look after her babies that's what her family is for. I dont know why people think its ok to say stuff like that I hope your ok

 

[PyrusEK]

[Rant]Dealing with MFI for almost 4 years. My wife and I have been "seeing what happens" for about 8 years now.

I've improved my lifestyle back to my athletic ways and lost all the weight I had put on since taking a desk job and doing shift work. Our journey has been confusing and frustrating.

We went to a Fertility Clinic after we were referred by our family doctor. This was not a nice experience at all and anyone going through any of this - respect. The doctors practically treat you as a test subject. My first SA came back about 20 mil per ML. They figured this was fine but not good and moved on to my wife. She endured test after test until she was confirmed alright. We then moved to do a Monash test. We waited after I did the test for the results and afterwards they determined I was the problem.

Since that day my life has turned into a lot of fixing. I started off at first in denial and sad. Today will be my last scheduled SA that I have to do so far. I think this is number 11. I've watched my results change and it has been very interesting. More blood test and I'm scheduled to go in again for a complete ultrasound after a scrotal ultrasound was inconclusive. They still can't figure out what is wrong with me. I'm hoping my results from this second test ordered by my Urologist will show that I'm doing better. I won't get my results until after I go for my ultrasound and the waiting is just so frustrating.

I find all this really kills the motivation to BD for my DW. I've gotten back positive results which is why the doctors are even more confused. Agh!

Thanks for letting me vent! [/RANT]

I'm sorry you're going through that. It seems to give some hope that the results have been changing, so it's possibly just a matter of time. Good luck with the upcoming results!! I hope they're stellar.

LTTTC, especially with all the poking and prodding, can really kill the libido. It's hard to separate yourself from the TTC part when you want to just enjoy being with your partner. Sometimes I have to forcefully will myself to be in the moment with my DH. I try to remind myself that even if we weren't TTC, we'd still be enjoying practicing. I try to forget that there's any purpose other than connecting with him and having fun.

I hope you two get your BFP soon!!