Hi Ladies!
I know I haven't been on in about a week. And this thread is so active that I don't think I can possibly find the time to catch up! I hope I'll be able to start catching up from this point on, and hopefully can figure out who's got their BFP and Pos OPKS! Congrats to all those who got their BFPS!
I haven't been on for two reasons. One, we're been really busy (work, wedding planning, etc.), and second is I've been feeling extra depressed as I found out another one of my cousins is pregnant, this time a close one, who's actually in my bridal party. Again my mom was the one who told me, but she thought I already knew, as my cousin told me in a text she sent me, but I never got the msg. Again my first reaction was to ball out crying! Why is the universe getting everyone else in my family pregnant except for me??? Its not that I'm not happy for her, it's just in my mind I'm supposed to be pregnant too. I should be the one who can tell her from experience what it's like. I congratulated her via text (I did try calling and she didnt answer) and I of course did not mention my crying feast as I think everyone would look at me like a huge baby or b***h or something. This has been sooooooooo hard. Me and OH had a good long talk about it since this is now the second time I've reacted like this, and he sees it's becoming too much for me to keep it all inside (as that's what I've been doing, not realizing he's noticed it the whole time I've been down since the m/c) He did say if I want us to REALLY start trying we can, as in his eyes we're just seeing if it happens. My response was I want to but I'm scared (which is no lie)I wanted to say YES, but I know that's not what he actually wants, he doesn't want anything to be "timed" or "scheduled", and I'm not exactly sure how we can really try with both of us involved in the planning part when I know he doesn't at all want to plan sex or have this "gotta make a baby" pressure on him while we're BDing.
And of course, I am now in my fertile period, and we only had the chance to BD once! We'll technically twice, as we BD'd again about 20 minutes later, which I know is a TTC no-no
We BDing in the evening on CD 20. It's now CD 22, and I have a feeling O will come tomorrow (don't have any tests to prove it, didn't do temps this month, just going by my 5-6 day pattern of fertile CM). I think if it comes today maybe we're ok, but if it's tomorrow it might be too late, as it is impossible to BD today as he's working when I'm at home, and I'm working this evening when he's at home, and by the time I get home he will be asleep and will have to get up in a couple of hours to go back to work. UGH!!! I have no hope this month. The only hope is if my body gives me an extra day and O's on Saturday so we can have a chance to BD on Friday.
I know when I conceived in January we BD'd on CD 17 and my CM dried up on CD 20 (I had O pains CD 19 and 20 that month), so that's the same amount of days as this cycle if I O tomorrow. I still feel like it might have just been pure luck and that chances are it wont happen again with such a long gap between BD and O!
was there all night. Suck a nervous wreck.
stays away for you!! xx i almost fell asleep at the soft play lol im sooo tired and only been up since 11 lol work should be fun but at least im only in 6-10!!
