I'm so annoyed at OH
, and I feel horrible for it. He had to go hurt his back yet again! ... like come on universe, he gets back in the mood for sex, and you go and make him strain his back before we have the chance to BD ... UGH!!! I'm so upset, I had to go cry in the bathroom
. Part of me thinks he's truthful in having hurt his back (since he manages to do it A LOT, even when I'm not around O time) and the other part feels like he's purposely doing it to avoid sex, since he admitted he did this twice when we first decided I was coming off the pill since he got scared. Even thou it was his idea in the first place - I was the one who took a few months to feel ready to stop taking it. And I don't want to talk about it with him either because then he may just freak out completely and then we'll never have sex at O time again!
I'm upset because I'm thinking going by my patterns that O is tomorrow, and if it is then that's yet another month of only BDing 3 days before O, and no closer. Just cuz I got pregnant in January with only Bding 3 days before doesn't mean I'm gonna be that lucky again. But then again I'm not sure if I actually O'd today since my cervix feels slightly less open then even earlier today, and it seems like my cm is starting to go creamy again. Also had the slightist tinge of pink in the cm earlier today too (O spotting?). But it could be wishful thinking, since O'ing today would be the best thing right now, to give us a good chance of catching the egg. 28% chance, versus 13% if O is tomorrow. But I only felt some O pain today, not the same amount I normally feel. But I do know I shouldn't rely on that to determine O.
Anyway, nite nite ladies!