March rainbows 2018

[flou]

Thanks for your well wishes ladies, it is much appreciated. I am going to see how I go over the weekend and see how I'm feeling on Monday. I have spent the day spoiling and cuddling my 2 year old. I think he kind of gets it there is something going on, as he keeps saying, "are you alright mummy?". Which of course brings tears to my eyes but I reassure him I'm ok. And I am because even if it doesn't have a happy ending I know I am blessed to have him and my lovely DH, who is my rock. And I have been here before and survived. I just hope my little one holds on!

 

[maryanne1987]

Hugs flou xx

 

[Sweetkat]

So sorry you are worried flou. Hope everything turns out well and the spotting is nothing.

 

[karoolia]

I'm sorry you're worried flou. I am keeping everything crossed for you and hoping that everything is ok. I know how hard it is to be in limbo and worried. I wish I could help.

I really dislike how doctors don't seem to think about how women are feeling when things like this happen. My OB told me that unless you are in major pain with a lot of bleeding there is no point in checking you out because he can't stop a miscarriage anyway. I think we all KNOW that part, but he can put an end to our mental anguish by telling us what is happening one way or another. I just wish they wouldn't discount the importance of that. That's why when I had my scare this time I skipped him and just want to the emergency department.

 

[darlingqueen]

Hi everyone! If you don't mind me jumping in here? I have been hovering on this thread for a week, too nervous to jump in because it's already been an eventful start. and my last pregnancy ended in Miscarriage (Sept) at 10 weeks... I think I'll be the latest due date in here, my LMP has me at March 23rd but I know I ovulated way later than that, so I've calculated it to be roughly March 31st.
I was on my fifth round of clomid, 150mg, and they had told me my 21 day progesterone test was the WORST TEST that I'd had so far, usually my 21 days were low but in the 4-8 range, this month it was 0.94! They told me the cycle was a dud, that basically there was no chance I could get pregnant this cycle and to call in 2 weeks for my Provera... so two weeks came around, I had tested a couple times that week, but they were all bfns, so I took the last test before I called and there it was, a very faint line! So, tested again the next morning to make sure it wasn't a fluke, and there it was again, definitely there, but fainnnt. I immediately flipped out because my progesterone was so LOW how was it going to support a pregnancy! So I called and they had me come in that day to start bloodwork. They called me same day saying, my hcg was only 14 and that I'll come back in 2 days and see what it'll do but to be prepared because it was likely to be a chemical. second test, was up to 32 but they still weren't happy with it and gave me little hope, 3rd test (over a weekend) 240 and then 2 days later 610! so they are officially feeling better about my numbers, and have stopped my hcg testing. But, my progesterone came back at 9, which is pretty low, so I'm on progesterone daily. They have scheduled me an early ultrasound next Monday for dating and to make sure all is good. So I'm excited and nervous like crazy! On one hand the extra monitoring has been great, but I feel like it's caused way more stress than if I had just scheduled my 8 week visit. but I am glad for it because it got my on progesterone and that makes me feel loads better about it.
As for symptoms, I've not gotten MS yet, just some queasiness here and there but I have been getting heartburn on a multi-daily basis this week as well as my breasts are swollen and very sore.. glad to have some symptoms because I know I'd be worrying a lot more without them.

SORRY FOR THE BOOK hahah I hope everyone is doing great and enjoying this crazy ride as best as we can for our rainbows!

 

[xkirstyx]

Congratulations and welcome xxxx

 

[karoolia]

Glad to see you over here darlingqueen!! Congrats! I'm glad they are happier with your number now. I know that was a stressful time for you.

 

[Myshelsong]

Hi Darlin! So excited that you are moved over from the ttc thread.

 

[maryanne1987]

Welcome darlingqueen. Congratulations x

 

[darlingqueen]

Thanks girls!
karoolia, yes it was definitely stressful and I'm hoping everything stays very dull from now on haha
Myshel- I was so hesitant to move, fearing I'd jinx this by coming over to soon, I know now it was silly. lol

my sleep has been backwards the last 3 days. I've been sleeping so much my schedule is backwards now, and I'm sleeping in the day time and awake at night, which normally wouldn't have mattered, but DH just started his new job this week, and it's day shift (7am-7pm) and so we're opposites and I've not gotten to sleep in the bed with him all week.

how's everyone feeling today?

 

[maryanne1987]

I haven't slept with my DH all week either. He's got a cold so banished to the sofa until it goes as it's made his snoring worse

I find I feel ok now earlier in the day but as the day goes on I feel worse. The dizziness is killing me. Never had it this bad before. Hoping it's a sign baby 2 is ok.

 

[karoolia]

maryanne, I always think the more symptoms the better. I know that isn't actually the case, but still how I feel. I'm hoping everything is ok for you. When do you go back for your next scan?

As for me, I'm having an anxious day. We were away for a few days and came back to a very sick kitten. It is probably just a cold, but it is bringing back so many bad memories. Last time I was 9 weeks we had just found out our cat was very sick with a terrible infection that I could catch and it could harm the pregnancy. Not long after, our cat died and I had a miscarriage. It was the worst week of my life. I'm 9 weeks again today and sitting her with a sick kitten. I'm just so scared of history repeating itself. We're heading in to the vet soon to get him checked out.

 

[maryanne1987]

Scan is next Saturday. I've been so tempted to book it sooner but the consultant said we needed to give it time to see how things turn out. The scan is in the date of when we found out about one of our mmc though so I've got it into my head that it's a bad omen �� Not expecting good news.

Oh no I hope your kittie is ok karoolia. I have 3 cats, they are my fur babies so understand how you must be feeling. Hope all goes ok at the vets.

 

[Sweetkat]

Darling, welcome, and happy and healthy 9 months

I am feeling paranoid again, just so worried I am going to go for a scan and be told there is no heartbeat. I have got a scan later on today just to see what's going on. The 12 week scan isn't for another 12 days and I couldn't wait that long in limbo.

I will update here after the scan.

We also have two kittens , they are little monsters but we love them

 

[xkirstyx]

Good luck with the scan Hun. Wish I could go for another. I'm also very worried something might be wrong but trying to just hold on as much as I can. 2 weeks tomorrow for my scan. The wait is killing me! I've had so many bad vivid miscarriage dreams including one horrible one last night and it's making me stress even more!

 

[Sweetkat]

Thank you Kirsty. Scan is in about an hour and a half. Time is going so slowly... my paranoia is so bad that I literally can't think about anything else (well in my case it's not even paranoia, it's rational fear because of OH's issues). I keep thinking that even though the panorama came back as low risk that doesn't mean everything is fine because it only tests for some conditions and can't spot things like heart defects .

Pregnancy after a loss or multiple losses is hard

 

[maryanne1987]

Good luck sweetkat!

Not long to go till yours now Kirsty. Hope it passes quickly for you.

6 days till my scan and 4 till booking in with midwife. Wish the scan was before the midwife in case something is wrong.

 

[Sweetkat]

Baby measuring 11&1 and heart rate of 163. I made the woman do it again because she did it internally and I was told by another specialist that it should always be done externally after 7 weeks.

Dr said to wait until 12 week scan now and that there is nothing I can do to change the outcome..... So a 12 day wait it is. I think I will feel better after the 12 week scan.

 

[xkirstyx]

Sounds like baby is doing great hun. I don't get why they would do it internally though?!?

Maryanne my last pregnancy I have my booking in before my 2nd scan. The first scan just showed a empty sac. The scan was the day after the booking in and thank god everything was ok! And I was in tears to the poor midwife this time at my booking in because I was so stressed something was wrong!

 

[maryanne1987]

I'm so pleased for you sweetkat. Does seem unusual to be taking the heartbeat internally after 7 weeks.

I think I'm going to be the same Kirsty. Thank god my midwife knows me well. She's supported me through two pregnancies in just over two yearsI'm still nervous as I know I'm going to be a mess Thursday.

Had my first consultant appointment through for the hospital too this morning. It's in the 14th of august. Seems very early. Usually don't see a hospital consultant till around 18 weeks.