March rainbows 2018

[maryanne1987]

Are you feeling any better now sweetkat?

Bad ms here too. Started cyclinzine today so hoping that will help, was sick 14 times yesterday. I reluctant to say it's going to turn into hg but it's looking that way. Was so hoping to avoid it again. With my daughter the sickness lasted the whole pregnancy and then 5 days after birth so I'm hoping that won't be the case again. I mean I'd put up with it because it's worth it for a baby but it does spoil things a bit when your throwing up non stop.

 

[xkirstyx]

I'm sorry you're both feeling so sick! Hope it doesn't last too long! I just have really bad nausea and only been sick a couple of times. X

 

[Sweetkat]

I have been eating strawberries and apples and feel better. Still sick when I don't eat for about an hour and horrible every morning and throw up. But ok during the day.

I am still worried and nothing can help that, but at least not like I was on Tuesday where I was certain it would be a miscarriage.

Hope you are all ok and not too anxious xxx

 

[Sweetkat]

Maryanne really sorry re HG. That must be awful. Mine was awful where I couldn't stand up for about 4 days with DD otherwise various levels of nausea and throwing up 6-18 weeks. And fine after that.

 

[karoolia]

So yesterday I felt like I had a cold in the morning. I had a headache, nausea, chills, everything, then it magically went away around 11am. Then I was good until around 8pm when extreme nausea hit. I wasn't sick, but all I could do was go to bed feeling miserable. This morning I felt sick until getting out of bed, but then was fine.

Are these all morning sickness? I didn't have it all of with my miscarriage. Some mild nausea around week 7 last time, but nothing that slowed me down at all so I'm not really sure what to look for. I can't figure out if I picked up a bug or if it's just pregnancy.

 

[maryanne1987]

Could be pregnancy related karoolia. I feel awful when I first wake up and right before bed. Like I'm ill with a horrible cold. But it passes when I get up and move about or go to sleep. Apart from the sickeness. That hangs around all day.

 

[karoolia]

Thanks maryanne! I feel silly feeling new to all this, but this pregnancy has been very different from my last one (hoping that's a good sign!).

 

[maryanne1987]

Never feel silly. Honestly. This my 4th and sometimes things still happen that surprise me. I've also just qualified as a doula so my income comes from working with pregnant women and I still dont know everything. Don't think you can ever be an expert at this.

 

[Sweetkat]

I woke up with a completely blocked nose today. It wasn't allergy or a cold. After an hour or so it was fine again.

Re MS- mine kicks in about 3-4am when I wake up feeling like I am very very very hungover and need to throw up. Otherwise it's a constant nausea which gets better or worse but improves with eating. I also get headaches.

 

[Trying4first1]

Sweetkat I think scans can definately vary so much. If three of us have had scares because of them it just goes to show that there is a lot of room for error.
My next scan is booked already for Wednesday 26th. She wanted to do another in 3 weeks time but she saw I was anxious so said ok we can do it for two weeks time.
I have been reading a lot of stories of ladies who have had babies measuring 5 days behind. Some positive and others not. I know we have a 50/50 chance regardless.
I am feeling slightly more sick in the day now and def worse just before bed. It's not too bad. Apparently the steroids can mask nausea. I am going with that theory for now as need to try and stay positive. I'm am constantly hungry but that's probably the steroids. Literally I eat and my stomach still feels empty.
The steroids have kept the tiredness at bay as they give you more energy which is a bonus.
I am still worried as I know that our treatment only has a 60% success rate and we were told that it may not work out next time. But obviously we hope that it will.
We will keep on hoping. I am going to enjoy things as they are for now. If my world comes crashing down again then I know that I will have months of sadness again and will need to decide if we keep trying because having five losses doesn't bode well especially if treatment isn't working. So i need to make the most of my time now not knowing and pretending that everything is just fine 🌈 I really want it to be our time now. It's been three years of heartache and it's just not fair to go through the pain of miscarriage again and again.
I want this so much

 

[Sweetkat]

Trying - I really hope it does work out for you this time. I am on my fifth pregnancy after DD and it's crazy. I never thought I would be pregnant this many times and still not have a second baby.

I think the problem with miscarriages is that modern medicine tries to give answers but it doesn't have them all. Aside from OH's fragmentation and my slightly elevated NK cells nothing else was found after months of tests. So statistically we shouldn't have had as many losses . So drs just don't know why. Well maybe those two things are the issue but nobody will know for sure.

I took a year out after loss 3 because it was shit and I don't know whether I will try again naturally or have IVf with PGs if this is another loss. All we can do is stay positive.

I have a friend who has been trying for 10 years and never been pregnant. She is considering IVF. At least we know we can get pregnant - just need to get a sticky one

RMCs has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. It's tough physically and it's tough emotionally BUT a rainbow is so worth it. Plus I would always wonder about what ifs if I don't carry on trying (even though at the moment it's not been successful so far).

And on a positive note a friend of mine had her second at 43 after 3 miscarriages. So it does happen all the time. And a dr told me (consultant) that for unknown reasons some couples create more abnormal embryos but statistically out of ten tries at least 4 embryos should be good.

 

[maryanne1987]

Totally agree sweetkat. I think sometimes they just don't have the answers. At my clinic I've had the most losses of anyone they have treated, but the only thing they can find is my blood clotting disorder, which yes obviously played a part but not totally. Plus ive had two further losses while ttc this baby while on treatment. I feel like screaming sometimes that how can we lose so many babies with no proper explanation but we will never get one. But yea I think more research is needed on rcm and the causes of it.

I'm so hoping these are your rainbows ladies. You deserve them.

 

[karoolia]

Pregnancy and miscarriage are so misunderstood, even in the medical world. It makes sense why. I mean, which of us would consent to being part of a clinical trial while pregnant? I do wish that more effort was made after a miscarriage happens to figure out how and why. If someone's arm spontaneously broke, no doctor would say "well, if it happens twice more we can look into it, but for now let's assume it's a fluke".

My aunt had 12 miscarriages and no living children. She was sent to a fertility clinic and they prescribed her clomid. All that did was lead to her conceiving and losing twins. She had no trouble getting pregnant, the challenge was in keeping the baby, but there was very little even suggested to her for that. She is in her 50s now so stopped trying quite a while ago, but I'm not sure if reproductive science has advanced much since then.

 

[karoolia]

I think I'm gearing up for my second miscarriage. Two days ago I felt so incredibly sick, but yesterday it faded and today I feel fine. My nipples don't hurt anymore and this morning I noticed brown discharge. I know brown means old blood and isn't a bad sign for most people, but that was my one and only sign that something was wrong last time. Today is going to be a rough day.

I guess do feel sick, but I'm thinking that is more from worry

 

[maryanne1987]

Are you ok karoolia? I'm crossing my fingers that it doesn't mean anything. Is there no where you could go to get checked out? A blood test?

 

[xkirstyx]

Massive hugs hunny. If you can I would go get checked to settle your mind xxxx

 

[karoolia]

No, the OB refuses to do anything before 10 weeks. I'm 7 today so I just have to wait it out. Either I miscarry or I don't. I just hate the thought of walking around for weeks thinking I'm pregnant when I'm not (again).

I haven't called admittedly, but I went through this with the OB last time, he just said no repeatedly. My friend also sees him, she was in a car accident at 5 weeks and bled for a full week after and he still wouldn't see her until 10 weeks.

 

[xkirstyx]

what that's crazy!!!

 

[maryanne1987]

That's dreadful. What about a hospital? Could you get checked over in an accident and emergency where you are?

 

[karoolia]

Maybe. I'm going to wait and see how I feel. I know most doctors wouldn't worry about what I'm experiencing. A little bit of brown is nothing most of the time. It is just scaring me due to me last experience. I'm going to try to go on with my day and try to feel better.

I really appreciate the support. I know you ladies know how I feel.