I dont know what to do....there is always that chance my baby will need to stay when i go home and i want to try and breastfeed well i have two kids at home that need me and a baby at the hospital that will need me too and i cant afford to go back and forth numerous times a day. My mom keeps telling me to give up the idea to bf but i really wanna try. What can i do to ensure that both my kids at home have me around but baby has me too or at least my milk? I just dont wanna come home without him i just wanna cry because as much as this shoukd be a happy moments its also turning into a nightmare with so many conflictions. :'-(