Hi T, don't beat yourself up about feeling crap, of course you do, you've lost your Daddydon't expect that you can fake normal for now, you shouldn't have to.
Once you've had the service hopefully that will give you some closure, and with a bit of time you will start to feel better.
If you can, get out the house a while and get some fresh air, even if you have to catch a bus to another part of town where you won't bang into someone you know if space is what you need![]()