On the road again... a place for women getting into the TTC groove again.

[Carybear]

If the pain I had on Sunday was ovulation than I am about 4dpo... I didn't use anything... no opks...this month and am consistently repeating my mantra... I will not symptom spot... I will not symptom spot! But....

 

[Starry Night]

I know, it's so hard isn't it! Some 'signs' are almost impossible to ignore though. And if you actually are on your way to your bfp then they will just start to play with your mind. There is always an alternative explanation for signs but when they start to pile up it is so hard to ignore! But you try to talk it down and then you talk it up and it's such a roller coaster.

I really hope this is your month!

 

[Left wonderin]

Cary so hoping its your month welcome to the Tww
Starry its great to see your feeling better in yourself I'm hoping you get to go on your holiday and have a wonderful break away from everything

 

[Carybear]

I will not symptom spot... I will not symptom spot...I will not symptom spot... Lol... Did I say that before

 

[Left wonderin]

Cary will you symptom spot

It's so hard not to do the harder you try to ignore every twinge, sneeze ect the more you notice them !!

 

[Carybear]

Lol... Just trying to relax... I'm not very good at it....

I've convinced myself so many times... I'm really trying not to focus on it... I have had some pretty weird stuff happen to me over the last couple of months... I do have good news... My sister just rented a house one street away from me she currently lives 10 hours away!

It will be great to have her here! My mom goes in for the next surgery May 29th. This is for the breast cancer for a double mastectomy. It will be so wonderful to have her here to help too...

 

[Carybear]

That is so true Starry... I've had one day periods... Sore BB's... Pain in my stomach... Blue veins in BB's... Fatigue... Sick stomach... Headaches.. Blood taste in my mouth... You name it, I've had it... But every month it turns out a BFN!

So this month I'm ignoring the pain that goes from my belly button to my groin, the runny nose, exhaustion, and everything else.... Lol...

 

[Starry Night]

It's all about the butt cramps! LOL If you start getting those you will have to yell your "no symptom spotting" mantra from your roof top. ha ha

AFM - my doctor will be sending out a referral to an OBYN. He seems to think that a fertility specialist will take a referral from another specialist more seriously than a GP. He thinks it will be quicker. I hope so. I should be able to see the OBYN in about 3 to 4 weeks. On Monday I will call my doctor's office to make sure the referral went out. After my last loss the doctor said he would refer me and I never heard back.

 

[Carybear]

That's good starry... I hope you get some answers...

 

[Carybear]

Well... I can't say that I have had any butt cramps but I could list plenty more!

How is everyone?

 

[Starry Night]

Meh, doing OK, I guess. Today was one of those "one step back" days as my bleeding has picked up again. Still not more than a light to moderate period but it looked like it was down to minimal spotting yesterday. I think I did too much this morning. Getting loads of pain in my nether regions as well which is no real surprise considering what all happened during my d&c. It's just catching up with me now. It's livable...just annoying that I'm not quite at normal activity levels yet.

Getting excited for you, Cary! If this ends up being your month then I'll be the only one left who isn't pregnant (as we have not heard from Topanga in awhile). If that is the case I'll just join in with you on the 'graduate' thread as I won't be TTC for awhile anyways. I think I'll be OK with the preggo talk.

 

[RedWylder]

Don't forget about Left. She hasn't been having the best of luck either. Ladies we are hoping and praying and doing everything we can to send positive vibes your way.

Starry everytime I have a bad day and I'm convinced I'm going to miscarry I get a little taste of what it's like for you and I can say it sucks. To have something that you want so bad ripped away yet again is so awful. "Why me?" goes through my head a lot. Why do other women get to have it so easy and us good people are having to struggle. Thank you for tyring to be as positive as you can but please feel free to vent as often as you need.

 

[Left wonderin]

Eh starry do you know something I don't lol....... Nope I'm here with ya girl still trying

 

[Starry Night]

Sorry, Left! I don't know why I thought you had gotten your bfp. Wishful thinking, I suppose. lol

Right now I'm feeling a little sad about my November loss as she'd be due this Friday. DH and I are going on a date on that day so looking forward to that.

 

[RedWylder]

You should do something special for your lost one. Maybe light a candle or something. I think that would be nice.

 

[Starry Night]

I'll probably go through the memorial box I made for her and have a good cry. I need to put one together for my new angel too.

 

[Carybear]

That sounds beautiful starry...

Red how are you feeling?

I'm 7-8 dpo today... I am having period cramps... So either something is going on or I'm going to get AF early. I usually get diarrhea a week before AF... I have actually been constipated... Not that I am symptom spotting..

My fifth grade class goes to a theme park on Friday for their big trip. I'm going to test on Friday (should get AF on Saturday ) if I don't get AF first. That way I see if I can get on rides...

 

[RedWylder]

I'm doing ok. Trying not to stress about my impending U/S so I've been staying away. Being on the internet only tells me all the bad things that can happen.

 

[Starry Night]

Dr. Google can be horrible. When I do look stuff up I try to be careful what sites I go on. But mostly I've decided to trust the info from the doctors I see in person more than anything else. It's just easier. The internet is filled with gloom and doom. Good luck with your scan, Red. Hope you see a beautiful heart beat!

Cary - love how you end everything with a "not that I'm symptom spotting". ha ha! Sure you're not. Hope this is it for you!

 

[Carybear]

Wise decision Red... The Internet is full of stuff that will have you down and out in no time.... Keep believing....

Lol... If we tell ourselves something long enough we begin to believe it...

There has been so much in this last year that I have had to come to grips with... I took inventory today and realized that since last summer I truly have grown stronger... I still have my low days, but I know that I have more good days...
God is good.