On the road again... a place for women getting into the TTC groove again.

[Starry Night]

Either way, it sounds like you're in the TWW. Keeping my fingers crossed for you, Cary!

 

[JenKum]

Thank you all for being so welcoming. I look forward to getting to know you all better.

Anniversaries are definitely hard. I had hoped to be pregnant by my baby's due date, but wasn't. This cycle, I ovulated almost to the day on the same day as last year - but it's 12 dpo now and I got a BFN.

My DH's SA wasn't great. His morphology was 0 - 1%. I am starting to wonder if DNA fragmentation had a role to play in what has gone on. Does anyone know anything about DNA fragmentation and its role in miscarriages?

I hope that you all get your BFPs soon. Thank you for including me in your group.

 

[Starry Night]

Sorry, no answers on the SA. Since your DH has been tested are you in touch with a specialist who could maybe explain the results to you? The man's genetics do play a role in miscarriage though. My DH has been told he'll probably have to go for testing too when we see a specialist.

I was pregnant by my due date but then I lost that baby and so by the first due date I had another angel up in heaven. That is the risk of getting pregnant before the due date. It makes the anniversary that much more bitter. If DH and I do pursue testing we probably won't be allowed to TTC until after our next due date passes. That is really hard so right now we're definitely NTNP. We're both finding the need to wait very cruel.

 

[JenKum]

I'm sorry Starry Night. How long will you have to wait? My OB/GYN told me that one month was the norm - but I know that all doctors have their views and all pregnancies are different. I hope it's not too much longer for you.

I was told to ignore the morphology numbers because they are always low. The doctors were more concerned with the low concentration (though the overall count is okay - though on the lower end). Progressive motility was low as well. I didn't worry too much initially - especially since our chemical pregnancy took place soon after the tests were done. (I figured - he's obviously got good swimmers since they are getting there and doing their job!) But, when I went for my first IUI 2 weeks ago, his washed sperm count (out of 30 million) was only 2 million! The morphology issue must be a real issue after all ... (The lab tech confirmed that when I spoke with him after the fact). Now I am wondering if the miscarriages could have been caused by the fragmented DNA. From what I have been reading today, the answer might then be to get him on tons of anti-oxidants (Vit C, E, Selenium, CoQ10, green tea, etc.) and, if the numbers are really bad, to consider ICSI.

 

[Starry Night]

I"m not sure how long the wait will be. When testing for the cause of miscarriage you're not allowed to get pregnant. I have to see the OB to get an appointment with the fertility clinic and I don't see the OB for another 2 months. And I have no clue how long the wait will be after that. We only have one fertility clinic for the whole province and they take care of IVF and other issues too. Testing in of itself takes several months. So DH and I don't really want to wait so we want to hope for a "whoopsie"...or as my brother puts it "slip one past the goalie".

Getting your husband on vitamins might be a good idea.

 

[Starry Night]

DH and I had a long talk this evening and 'officially' agreed we would NTNP. Simply waiting for testing is too much to bear for us right now. We know that, on paper, testing is a good and important thing but it goes against our gut feeling right now. I still have my appointment with the OB lined up in 2 months so we'll revisit our decision then.

 

[Left wonderin]

Starry I'm delighted that you have made a decision that you are both comfortable with it helps I'd say to have OH on the same page as you xxx I can only imagine waiting is torture. I only just realised how little your little one is . Just heading for 2 ! I love them at that age xxx you are so blessed to have him . What's his little personality like ? Who is he more like his mum or dad ? Bet he brings a smile to your face every day

 

[Carybear]

Starry I think you've made an excellent decision. It takes the stress off (as much as possible) and allows you time to think. And if an oops happens all the better...

Hi Jen...

Left, how are ya feeling?

AFM I'm headed to a baby shower today... This is for the woman who is due 4 days after I would have been due... At first I decided not to go.. But then I decided to go to prove to myself that I can... My sis is going with me for moral support

My mom got her results on Thursday... The cancer was only in four of the 19 lymph nodes... They are telling her that she needs a chemo pill for 5 years, radiation, and 3-6 months of chemo...

I took her to the beach yesterday for about 30 minutes and then out to lunch. She was wiped. She's also lost 21 lbs and she was small to start.

Summer school starts on Monday and my day is packed! I have to plan on my own time... Combine that with planning a Sunday school program and I'm wiped! The Pastor wnted to talk about vacation Bibe school and I was like ummmm no...

Now, I just have to remind mysf to breathe..... No wonder I'm too exhausted to bd...

Sorry for the long post... I'm standing tall and heading to the baby shower in about 3 hours... My due date is rolling around soon - July 11

 

[Left wonderin]

Cary , you are very brave going along to the shower , but you can do it you have a ton of inner strength and JC beside you for support as well as your sister x

That's great news from your mum,s results , I know she has a long road ahead but one small step after the other and she will get there xxxx

Remember Cary in and out , in and out xxxxxxxxxx

 

[Carybear]

Lol... Thanks left... I will repeat over and over again... In and out... In and out...

 

[Left wonderin]

Hehehehe it covers a multitude

 

[Starry Night]

Cary - you're braver than me. Don't think I could go to any baby shower near my due date. I've only ever sent gifts along. It was as close as I could get.

Left - yes, my "Little Monkey" is still a little guy. Overall he has been a very easy baby. He slept through the night at 6 weeks and normally has a smile on his face and is laughing and busy. Right now he's entering his "terrible twos" and he's having a lot of tantrums so we're struggling to get used to the new him with the up-and-down mood swings. We used to never think about travelling or long days out as he just went along and never complained. Since he started to walk, however, that has all changed. He gets impatient much quicker and throws fits in the store when he used to just smile and laugh. He just started walking about 2 months ago and isn't talking yet but he babbles a lot. He sounds like he is scatting and bee-bopping. He already is a hand-talker. ha ha He is a really funny kid and earns the nickname "Monkey". As a baby we called him "cuddle bug" but his personality doesn't really suit that. I feel very blessed to have him and thank God every night for him. My losses make me feel even more humble and grateful.

 

[Carybear]

Starry... Your little monkey sounds adorable! I just know that you'll get that sibling for him!

Well... I'm home... It was hard... She was huge and I figure that I should be looking like that... But... I MADE IT!!!!! My sister made me laugh and it was all good.

Left early, but I'm glad I went...

 

[Left wonderin]

Good for you Cary , another hurdle overcome

Starry you little guy sounds adorable sounds like he keeps you on your toes lol..

 

[Carybear]

Thanks... Stomach has been upset all day... Diarrhea is finally slowing down... Ugg...

Now... SS tomorrow... Then to friends house... Then home to finishing planning for Monday... Still breathing...

 

[Left wonderin]

In and out , in and out , in and out !

 

[Starry Night]

In and out , in and out , in and out !

I saw this post before the preceding one and thought you were talking about something else. A little more risque than I'm used to this thread being.

As this is the only thread I'm sharing about my pregnancy suspicions I will say that I'm taking a test tomorrow. I don't know how to feel. I am getting quite a few of my pregnancy signs but they feel milder than I have had in the past. But I still can't stop myself from getting excited. I woke up with bigger boobs and they hurt in the shower and I'm feeling really dizzy. Yesterday, I even craved a slurpee/slushee! I hate those and only crave them when pregnant. I normally think they taste disgusting but I guzzled the whole thing. I have even had ripping/pulling sort of pains along my c-section scar.

But it's not enough to convince me. As I said, these feelings are milder than my other bfps. I'm so worked up though, that I even dreamed I got a positive pregnancy test last night. I have had similar dreams before all of my bfps. The last two times, in my dreams, the line would then disappear which even then made me worry about miscarriage. Last night, in my dream the line began to disappear like the previous times but I said "I don't think so!" and the line came back.

If I'm not pregnant I think I'm in for the period from hell.

 

[Left wonderin]

Oh Starry Ill be thinking of you ! Xxxxxxxxxxxxx I bet sleeping tonight will not be easy !

 

[Starry Night]

I hate post m/c hormones. It wouldn't shock me if they were simply toying with my hopes but I can't help falling for it every time.

 

[Left wonderin]

Starry I'm guessing it will be a good thing to know one way or the other xxxxxxx