On the road again... a place for women getting into the TTC groove again.

[Carybear]

Starry that sounds awesome!!! You should def switch!

Left, I second ray-ray... I'm praying or a delightful scan and can't wait to see the pics!

Ray so glad things are gong great for you!

AFM... It's a rough week for me. I'm just holding on to God nd walking through it.

I have been faithfully working out nd cutting back on foods... And I've gained 2 lbs! Sigh...

 

[Starry Night]

Cary - I think I remember reading somewhere that it is common to gain a few pounds when first starting to diet and exercise. I forget why that is though. But I have noticed it with myself and I still have been able to eventually lose weight.

I'm starting to crack down on diet as well. I gained 10 pounds over the winter and in between my two m/c's and I had worked so hard to lose all my baby weight. I'm going for more walks again and that really helps with the depression. I no longer feel crushed by sadness. If you're able to even do some short strolls with hubby in the evening a couple times a week I think you'll find it makes a world of a difference. It doesn't make the situation better, of course, but it helps you deal with it better.

I'm still having a hard week though. The exercise and cleaner diet have made me feel less sad but I still feel incredibly discouraged. A sort of "what's the point" kind of feeling when it comes to TTC. I know I can get a bfp but I just feel like it is inevitable that it will miscarry. I know...it's a rotten attitude to have.

I did call to make the switch but the new doctor can't see me until the end of September (just how our health care system goes) so it will be awhile before I will find out if I can make the switch or not.

 

[Carybear]

Thanks for the advice. I often try o get my hubby to walk with me, but he is tired when he gets home from work. I end up walking alone or with my sister. But I do notice my clothes getting looser..

It's hard to not have that attitude,especially when you've suffered so much loss. But their is something to be said for positive words and thoughts. We just have to keep trusting that God has a plan.

I get upset because I keep getting bfn, butben I have to remember that I asked God not to let me get pregnant if it wasn't going to stick.

We took my niece to the ER yesterday. She's seventeen and does not take care of her diabetes .. She ended up in childrens hospital trying to stabilize her blood sugar.

I'm getting pain in my right side again... Could I really be ovulating this early? It is only cd8... Hmmm..,,

 

[Starry Night]

Maybe your body is preparing to ovulate so you're getting some pre-ovulation cramps? I find I get that some cycles. Actually, the last cycle I conceived I got some extra strong ovulation signs with some cramps coming early. Maybe that is a sign of extra fertility? I don't know.

I'm sorry to hear about your niece. I hope she feels better soon and learns the importance of managing her diabetes. Diabetes used to be a death knell back when people didn't know how to manage it. My grandmother lost her father at a young age due to diabetes. Adult-onset diabetes is in my family and my mom used that as a scare tactic to get us to eat our vegetables as kids.

I had bit of a breakdown last night and just cried. Definitely feeling the weight of despair and just missing my little angels. I'm trying to force myself the face the fact my SiL is pregnant and due almost when I should have been but I'm still not ready. It makes me so miserable. I hate that our health care system makes me wait and wait just to meet with people....never mind actually get things started or getting the help I need.

 

[Carybear]

Crying is healing... That is what I have been told. I'm reminded every day how life is not fair....
We, unfortunately, are headed your way when it comes to health care... It is nice o be able to pick up the phone and make an appointment with whoever whenever...

My niece is adorable and I love her... But when it comes to diabetes I'd like to swat her behind!!! She is seventeen and thinks she is invincible....

I had ewcm yesterday and it was lotiony too... So I think that is the very early stages... Guess I will have to wait and see. I'm looking forward to my doctors appointment on Thursday....

 

[Left wonderin]

Hey ladies looks like its only the three of us hanging out here these days , where has everyone gone ??? I ain't going nowhere till we all get our rainbow babies

It is so hot here today it's awful was at a country fair and dog show all day and had to sit outside , too hot for me . It didn't help that I was exhausted and felt pucky all day !!! Now I'm home and all I want is my bed .. I find it hard sleeping when I'm too warm .
Cary how is your mam doing ? Starry I never asked how the visit with the in laws went ?
I've been a bit self obsessed I'm afraid lately almost afraid to breath in case it makes something go wrong !!! But I'm still here hanging with me gals xxxxx

 

[Left wonderin]

Cary is your appointment with a FS ?

 

[Starry Night]

My visit with the in-laws went better than I expected. I counted only 2 really stupid things my MiL said and I don't recall my FiL saying anything. And the stupid things weren't about my m/c's or about getting pregnant so not so bad. The worst was my MiL said we weren't practicing talking with DS and that is why he is not talking yet. But of course we ARE practicing talking and DS just won't have any of it. And she is an 8 hour drive away. How would she know what we do or do not do? I was so mad that I literally stormed out of the room. But I had been feeling sick so I think they just thought I needed to go back to bed.

So yeah, first full day they were here I felt awful. I think my iron was low or something so I slept most of the afternoon and evening. And then the next day DS threw a fit or I don't know what was wrong with him, but I stayed home while the others went to the fair for Canada Day. The next day they went home. So I didn't have to see them that much.

Left - hope the weather cools soon! Being pregnant in the summer is no fun!

 

[rayraykay]

Oh man Cary I'm so sorry about your niece. Diabetes is such a tough disease to deal with I've heard... And of course it gets way worse if not properly managed. (Or so I've heard I really don't know much about diabetes.) what a wonderful aunt you are to be with her at the hospital. I hope her health improves soon.

Starry I am soooo happy the visit went better expected. Dealing with in laws is just HARD. Ours always complain that we don't see them often enough & they are in the same town but my husband doesn't wanna see them super often. His mother is sooo overbearing and he's just over it. I'm sure she thinks it's me who keeps us away but I encourage us to see them and he doesn't want to. Soooo... Whatever. It is inappropriate that she commented on your son's speaking ability. Every child is different and learns to speak at a different pace. It's none of her business and she definitely doesn't know what you do and don't do with him at home. I am glad, however that she didn't comment on any mc's. that SO isn't her place. But hey, it's over with now. I really hope you start to feel better soon.

Left- can't wait to hear about the appointment & stay cool however you can!!!!

xoxoxo

 

[Carybear]

Hey everyone!

Starry, I'm glad things went good... Kids talk at different times and it won't be long before he is talking so much you wouldn't mind a few of those quieter days it tends to happen fast... Like they are just soaking up the words around them and then one day it just flows out... Was very rude of her to say anything though..,

Left, I'm sorry the heat is getting to you! Can't wait to hear how your scan goes!

Rayray it's great to hear from you... I would be there for any of my nieces and nephews, but Maddie is extra special. My sister and I lived together when maddie was just 3... I had her a lot and I was her kindergarten teacher she totally destroyed my nice peaceful classroom, but I loved teaching her!

My appointment is with an OBGYN who just so happens to be a reproductive endocrinologist as well... This is good for me because my insurance will not pay a dime for me to see a fertility specialist... I need an annual, so I figure while I'm there I will pull out my very lengthy page if questions... Trying to get some help if I can.

I can't help but feel that maybe my hormones are messed up... My periods are just way too short... They come regularly, but at best I'm getting 2 days of bleeding and mat f that is just clots... Not really a flow.. I've ad so any pregnancy symptoms, plus gaining a lot of weight.. I'm hoping she will at least do some blood tests to check hormones and things like that.

 

[Carybear]

My brother bought my mom a ninja... It blends, processes, etc... I've been making smoothies with spinach, kale, carrots and fruit! It's very healthy and tastes pretty good (I'm picky.. Very picky) anyone in the last week with exercise and watching how much I eat I've lost 2 lbs!! Not a lot but you have to start somewhere!!!

 

[rayraykay]

Nice work Cary!!! That's awesome!

 

[Starry Night]

Cary - would your insurance cover any sorts of tests if your new OBYN was the one conducting them? It would be nice to take real advantage of her specialties as you can't get to the Fertility Clinic due to the insurance issue.

It sucks that money has to be an issue when it comes to fertility issues. I know that if any of our prescribed treatments aren't covered by our universal health care or isn't of low cost we'll have to give them a pass too. For instance, progesterone (a common drug to treat m/c) is about $100 for 21 or 22 pills and we definitely could not swing that unless we only needed the one pack. Not sure it works that way though. It's part of the reason we're not waiting for testing to ntnp. I'm not waiting a year to find out we can't go through the treatments anyways. I'm just hoping that since we're going for miscarriage treatments that some of those costs will be covered. As I understand it, our provincial universal health care covers the testing for miscarriages but not infertility. Though there are tax rebates for IVF and such and private insurance as well.

 

[Carybear]

Ray... Thanks

Starry, Wow! Yeah... Lack of money does stink... I'd look into adopting if I could afford it..

How are you feeling?

Last night we DTD and there was just a tiny spot of blood after. Today my lower back hurts with a lot of pressure... Feels like I'm going to get AF... But that can't be right... I'm only on cd 11

 

[Carybear]

I've had pain in both ovaries off and on for a couple of days... Do you think I'm ovulating early?

 

[Left wonderin]

Cary it sure sounds like it ! Maybe o/v early is a good sign , when is normal for you to o/v ?

 

[Carybear]

Prior to my mc I was pretty much cd15 of a 30 day cycle.. After my mc my cycles went to be tween 33-35 days... And I was ovulating around cd21... So early would be better than an lp of 10-12 days...

I guess in my new normal I shouldn't ovulate for another 10 days

 

[Starry Night]

I hope you're ovulating. It would be nice. Even if you are getting a random normal cycle maybe that is all you need to catch a sticky egg.

I'm still feeling bloated and have terrible back aches. Even was a little nauseous this morning but I think it may be from the pain. A little down about my weight especially as I'm struggling to return to the necessary eating habits to lose it again. I am adding more fruits and veggies but my portion sizes are still too big. *sighs* I really want to be as healthy as I can be before I get pregnant again.

 

[butterfly_23]

I had a miscarriage last year in May. We did not try to get pregnant for a couple of months. We've been trying since last month but now my hubby feels pressured and is not in the mood for baby making when I tell him. I don't know what to do...

 

[Carybear]

I agree starry.... I'll take random if it works! I think I remember my last OBGYN saying that my uterus is tipped. That is something I will be asking on Thursday... Cause I know it can be harder to get pregnant...

Still getting lots of ewcm... So taking advantage to bd as much as possible

I really like the smoothies with vegetables and fruit.. A little orange juice and almond milk.. At least it helps me to feel a little healthier... Sorry you're feeling so poorly.. Praying it passes soon..

Sorry for your loss butterfly... I wouldn't tell him that it is th right time... Just use another means of persuasion