PAL Summer 2011 Babies - From 1st tri to MC and back again in one go.

[Megg33k]

I need us to stay together too! I can't have to go find another group. I'm in a few, and most of them are so quiet.

 

[Emmea12uk]

Ok maybe I am being silly but it is getting a bit busy in here! Besides I would miss pip and em as we were the first here. I would find myself looking for updates.

Feeling crap in general today. I have tightenings and cramps and that is stressing me out. Feels like Braxton hicks. Plus I am down about gestational diabetes and having to go back to that place I gave birth to Tom in. I think maybe I have a bit of pts (post traumatic shock) because I find I am getting in a right state.

Thank you all for your support. Where would I be without you guys!?

 

[Megg33k]

I think there is a lot of PTSD surrounding loss. I know that I have a bit when it comes to scans, because I had never, ever had good news at one. I was always getting my heart broken every single time I went to one. In fact, I have tears in my eyes just typing it. I hate that you're going to have to face one of your triggers... but maybe you can sort of heal with the help of new, better memories? I know that seeing a heartbeat last time has slightly improved my overall view of an ultrasound machine.

 

[Embo78]

Yay Emms!!! So glad you're back. You're bound to have strong emotions about going back to where you had Tom. You're totally normal! I'd be a nervous wreck!!

 

[Aaisrie]

Yay Emmea!!! It was the hospital pity card that did it right???
Can you not see a specialist midwife or counsellor? I see a mental health midwife as she's trained to help and spot signs of mental health issues which can be brought on or exacerbated by pregnancy.
They fucked my meds up so been waiting for 6 hrs to see the dr to get it rectified!! Fortunately tonight the "lovely" dr is on and he's trying to get me the zofran back. I just want to be well and go home!!!

 

[Megg33k]

I hope you get to go home soon, Eve!

 

[Embo78]

Oh Eve you little sweetheart! Can't believe you're still in hospital. Hope you're getting better.

Is lots of creamy White cm "normal" in pregnancy?? I don't remember it with ANY of my other pregnancies! I'm seriously on the loo every 5 minutes thinking I'm bleeding I'm getting that much

 

[Aaisrie]

Em totally normal!! I have enough I could put it in tubes - "buy Eve's lube" lol

Supposed to get home tomorrow just waiting to hear about my meds getting sorted!
Thanks girls x

 

[Embo78]

eve you make me laugh so much!!! I'm glad it's normal!!

Have you any good looking docs?? There's a few on my ward at mo!! I was caught drooling over one of them today

 

[Megg33k]

I haven't had the CM that everyone talks about... but it does seem to be normal according to everyone else on the internet... just not something I got. I didn't get much of anything though... I feel almost completely normal nearly 100% of the time!

Hoping you get home, Eve!

 

[Barbiebaby]

Aaisrie,fingers crossed for getting home soon. x

Pip, yes I've been put forward 4 days so now due 28th July!
Although if my son is anything to go by this one could be early too.
Em, glad you are staying

Embo, I have quite a bit of cm but I think it's ok as long as it doesn't smell or look a funny colour. I'm more used to it now but was constantly knicker checking!

And as for my knockers they are killing! Think I need a bra to sleep in! Anyone recommend a good bra fitting shop, I've found M&S a bit useless before as they never have my size. I'm bursting out of my bra at the moment!

 

[heyyady]

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I feel odd in second tri this not being my first and all. I just seem to find some of the threads a bit silly and frustrate me. I couldn't wait to get in there this time as first tri just scared me with the mc stories (all I seemed to do was post in those as I knew how they feel) but now I feel like I don't belong. I guess that's why I stick to this section really. I know you all and I feel comfortable which I hope all you do too.
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I actually avoided boards all together in my first trimester- and we only told maybe 5 people. I just couldn't handle it again, and REALLY didn't need to read all the stories!

@Emma- I feel like a lurker here most of the time- I see the relationship you all have and know I'm the party crasher- But what is obvious is how much you all care for each other. And weren't you the one they were all calling for when this thread was first started over 100 pages ago? I have tried to go back and read all of it- again, the lurker- but I admire you taking care of your son and am waiting to hear about your new little one- I hope you decide to stay, and if you do, I will look for you AND comment

 

[dimplesmagee]

Hi Ladies,
I have been MIA recently as I was out of town this weekend, and busy the last few nights. But I'm back. Embo-in case you didn't catch it in our other thread, my scan is on Thursday morning! I can hardly wait.
Lately, I feel like I don't have any feeling one way or another. I am not worried, nor am I excited. I am only there. My husband said he hasn't seen my smile lately. I don't feel depressed. I think I am completely exhausted. I have been sick for 3 weeks (sinus infection/bad cough), I have not been keeping food down, and I found out last week my baby was really small. I hope Thursday is a good day!!!

Aaisrie-sorry you are in the hospital again! cute bump pictures
I am so jealous of you ladies who can feel your babies move!!!

Well, I am heading to bed! Keep you all updated on my scan Thursday.

 

[Aaisrie]

eve you make me laugh so much!!! I'm glad it's normal!!

Have you any good looking docs?? There's a few on my ward at mo!! I was caught drooling over one of them today

Well mr "lovely" dr John is so damn nice and not bad looking but he makes you feel like you're the only patient in the world and always goes the extra mile for you. Last night he came and woke me to tell me he cleared it for me to get zofran so damn sweet

Can't wait to get home today, can't wait to get a good nights sleep - so exhausted from lack of sleep here... Zzzzzzzz

 

[Aaisrie]

Aaisrie,fingers crossed for getting home soon. x

And as for my knockers they are killing! Think I need a bra to sleep in! Anyone recommend a good bra fitting shop, I've found M&S a bit useless before as they never have my size. I'm bursting out of my bra at the moment!

thank you!!

I recommend HotMilk bras Ive been in my nursing bras for weeks - great for day or night. They're a bit expensive but if you search online you'll get some on offer, plus they're pretty sexy which is unusual for nursing/maternity bra!!

 

[Barbiebaby]

Thank you, I will take a look, I don't mind paying a bit if they're comfy.

Are you going home today do you think? x

 

[Aaisrie]

Waiting for the dr to cone round but they have no reason to keep me. Hotmilk normally retail at about £35 but you can get a lot of the older styles for about £17 ATM so definitely worth the investment especially if you plan to breastfeed. Mummyandme and tinylittlebabies both had them on offer, excellent customer service too

 

[Emmea12uk]

I think there is a lot of PTSD surrounding loss. I know that I have a bit when it comes to scans, because I had never, ever had good news at one. I was always getting my heart broken every single time I went to one. In fact, I have tears in my eyes just typing it. I hate that you're going to have to face one of your triggers... but maybe you can sort of heal with the help of new, better memories? I know that seeing a heartbeat last time has slightly improved my overall view of an ultrasound machine.

This isn't about the loss, my son was diagnosed with spina bifida at my 20 week scan and they asked me to abort. I didn't but the labour was awful - I felt like I was dieing and so was he. I didn't know if he'd live. Then he had brain and spinal surgery before coming home.

It was genetic and I have a good chance of it happening again. Once I am over that part if the baby is fine, I have to face the birth. I didn't want to go back there at all, I want to use a birth centre, but it turns out I have gd so have no choice.

I don't even wanna see that ward again - bad enough seeing it on tv!

 

[Emmea12uk]

Aaisrie,fingers crossed for getting home soon. x

Pip, yes I've been put forward 4 days so now due 28th July!
Although if my son is anything to go by this one could be early too.
Em, glad you are staying

Embo, I have quite a bit of cm but I think it's ok as long as it doesn't smell or look a funny colour. I'm more used to it now but was constantly knicker checking!

And as for my knockers they are killing! Think I need a bra to sleep in! Anyone recommend a good bra fitting shop, I've found M&S a bit useless before as they never have my size. I'm bursting out of my bra at the moment!

How far along are you? Mine have settled down now back to normal. I find hot milk are fab maternity bras!! See if there are any stockests in your area.

 

[Embo78]

Dimples - so glad you're scans Thursday! I was worried!!

Emm, is there no way you could go to another hospital. It sounds like it's going to be so difficult to give birth there. After everything you went thru there, surely they would consider booking you in to another hospital.