*** Positive Mental Attitude TTC - Anyone joining us? ***

[Hopeful335]

Yes let's be positive and hope November is good news month gr us both in different ways! Thanks Smiler sending you hugs and baby dust x x

 

[lilesMom]

hopeful i saw u stalking on that thread , i do too , ive only posted twice on it but im on another thread with her , so sad, another one of my best friends on here is goin through the same at the mo, its so horrible , feel powerless to help um xx
i rang work and spoke to a boss but not the boss
the message is being passed on adn she said if there is a problem she will ring me, no phone call yet but there could be ha ha ive given up worrying now anyway.
worry is a mugs game remind me of that before my scan next week,
best o luck tomor hopeful xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
best o luck this cycle smiler xxxxxxxxx
hello to everyone else, ye gone very quiet xxxx

 

[Hopeful335]

Hey ladies just wanted to let you know my scan went well. This is starting to seem more real now! I'm measuring at 10w4d so bubs is growing he/she was really wriggling about so sonographer struggled to measure! It was like cross legged to begin with then got moving all over! We got a nice photograph! On to 12w scan next. I'm not truly sure I'll ever relax!

Thank you for all your kind msgs and support you HONESTLY do keep me sane and help me get through this! how are you today Smiler, Lilesmom?

Discoria, Babybemine and withlovemom you are quiet, what you up to? x x

 

[Smiler82]

Hurrah!! I'm so pleased Hopeful Was thinking about you this morning. Sadly one of my friends just lost her third baby so have been round there offering tea and sympathy. It is truly horrible. So glad everything is looking good for you Hopeful, nice to have to happy news

Lilesmom yeah worrying is a mug's game...that's why I do it all the time, lol Did you hear anything yet?

I am going to be calling on you ladies this cycle for all your positive baby vibes...am fine today but had a mini-meltdown last night Thinking about my friend made me sad so that was part of it, but also the disappointment of yet another failed cycle and worrying it's never going to happen for us. Today I'm fine but you know how it is, up and down, up and down xxxx

 

[lilesMom]

hopeful im so happy for u , that is great news xxxxxxxxxxx
woohoo a lovely little wriggler ha ha xxxxx

smiler i had a crying session last nt too on the way hone from my healing meditation class, i too think its cos seeing the girls i care about goin throught it again, brings it back for me, it makes the pain fresh again and reminds us how we felt i think its good for us, burying things is not good so it helps us get it out. xxxx i def feel so much more compassion and empathy for people ahvin gone through mmc and htats not a bad thing xxxxxxxxx lots pf love and pos vibes ur way xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i got a call from my nice boss at work, we get on well, she is very straight and if u deal fairly with her , she deals fairly with u . lots of people dont get on with her cos she has to tell us no on things we wnat like hols and stuff but its hardly her fault and i know its not personal , some peopel dont understand that but anyway......
she reckons there r no such thing as light duties in my job and that she cannot have me back on my docs terms, she said it wont come against me in work if i saty out and that it wont affect my mat leave so..... i donno what to do, wil have to go back to my doc and see, boss said only way i can come back is if she certifies me for full normal duties, um... cant see her doin that and i dont think i wanna go back if that is the case anyway. so i may be out for the duration.
dont know how feel about it , i was excited at the thought of goin back, working is more normal to me, its what im used to. but if its gonna do any harm then i dont wana go abck . um...... so all back to being up in the air again.

 

[Hopeful335]

Smiler I'm so sorry about your friend. Third baby oh god I can only imagine. I was so scared this morning I was throwing up left, right and centre & I know it wasn't noting sickness but nerves (get ms before I eat when hungry this was after my breakfast I threw it all up in hospital toilets).

Melt down all you want. I am do sorry you ate having such a poo time and feel like this I'm sending you as many positive vibes as I can!!!!! Big hugs!!!!! Thinking of you!!!!!

Lilesmom, well that's rubbish about work. I dont know what to say? I guess in some jobs you can't go back on light duties. I know in my job the only way they could do that would be to take me out of class but then it'd cost them for supply, they'd be better me being off then as the school insurance would pay for supply! So I don't think they'd ever let me do less, it'd be all or nothing! Is yours kinda like that or are they being harsh? Thinking of you. At least you can get nesting? How are symptoms? My boobs have been in agony last 2 days!! It's weird as I'd constantly 'felt' the before now but no pain as such, now they feel so heavy-I am/was only a tiny b cup! They don't look that big but ache do much!

Big positive hugs ladies x x c

 

[lilesMom]

yeah mine is government job, they cant replace me so they do want me back but a few yrs ago , a 1/4 of our work force took redundancy and were not replaced my roster was taking off me, meaning i can be put in any dep and i only know the day before where i will be or even if i will be on r off,. bit shitty but ive gotten used to it.
so they need someone totally flexible and they cant guarauntee me the easier areas cos i go where someone is out sick or on hols so the easier areas may not be there on a given day. so.....
she said she wants me back but more r less advised me not to come back cos she said, she cant gaurauntee that she can look after me even though she wants to, she was just being straight with me. she also said she woldnt be able to reconcile herself if i cae back under her say so and something happened to bub, she was being nice. it means being down in money a lot though for few months but it is doable xxx il have to ring my doc and talk to her again and see what she says.

so sorry u were so sick with nerves, xxxx im gettin nervous bout next week scan already . trying to banish the nerves xxxxxxxxx

 

[Smiler82]

Oh Hopeful I know I would be exactly the same, throwing up through nerves Just so happy everything is okay with you and the little one I was a bit nervous myself logging on this afternoon in case you had bad news!

Yeah I totally agree with you Lilesmom - the losses have made me more sympathetic and understanding so I kind of think of that as some good life lessons that my babies taught me, and it's something I will always be thankful to them for, if you see what I mean. Not that I was a complete cow or anything before! But things like this do change you, and usually for the better. Sorry you had a little meltdown too but you are right, best to let it out xxx

It's a shame you can't go back to work but it's great your boss is straightforward and tells you how things are no messing around. I think in the long run it's going to be the best thing because if you can't be guaranteed lighter duties then why risk it. God forbid that anything were to happen to you and if you'd been back at work you wouldn't forgive yourself. It's not easy when money gets tight but you'll find a way to manage. Is there anything you could do kind of on the side just for a little extra cash? Babysitting, dog walking, ironing?!

I downloaded a meditation track on iTunes called Visualizing Pregnancy I think this is part of the problem, that I just can't see it and because I can't picture it, it makes me think it won't actually happen. I will try it out tonight, the reviews said it was very relaxing so hopefully will get a good night's sleep too Thank you for all your positive vibes xxxxx

 

[babybemine]

I am still in the waiting game. Right now I am in a zone of waiting to O and BD every other day for now. Drinking the whole milk and have been taking the mucinex and prenatal. Hoping that this month will be the month. Made an appt for the RE. It is on Dec 6. Hoping I can call and cancel with them and say...hey sorry to cancel with you but I am pregnant. FX. If not then at least we are moving forward in this process

 

[lilesMom]

smiler thanks hon xxxxx
hope ur meditation track is lovely xxx

babybemine fx u be cancelling xx

 

[Smiler82]

Yeah FX you can cancel babybemine. Do you mind me asking how come you're going to see a doc in December, your siggie says you're only on your 3rd cycle TTC. Have you got signs that something is wrong? I guess it depends on where you live but here they won't touch you til you've been trying for 12 months. We've been trying nearly 3 years and only just started clomid!

The meditation track was really great, I'm glad I bought it. It was really relaxing and I had the best night's sleep I've had for ages. Even though DH had to get up at 4:45am for work and I got out of bed to kiss him goodbye, I went straight back to sleep after It has also given me things to think about during the day - maybe that will help with my cards too, I keep seeming to get cards that say my messages are confused haha I'm going to be really honest here and say that whilst I want to have a family so much I do worry I won't be any good at it and I'll be a crap mum Does anyone else worry about stuff like that?

 

[lilesMom]

yup totally smiler , i keep worrying i wil regret it and wanna stuff it back in when times get tough think its normal to worry , be worse if we just assumed it was gonna be a breeze and then got an awfull shock xxxx

 

[Smiler82]

Ha yeah that's what I think, it's not like they come with a money back guarantee is it I'm glad it's not just me who worries about these things

 

[lilesMom]

every1 says it is so hard but so worth it we gotta try and focus on the worth it bit xxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Smiler82]

Totally xxx

 

[lilesMom]

im very bored but im very lazy,
im hating food today and yest. (had 2 hungry days before that so im not deprived r anything. ). my ms has changed altogether.
still waiting on my doc to ring back, i rang again and secretary said she is thinking , doh!!! way to just leave me stew dont hurry its just my life for the next 5 months she is deciding on. im a bit cranky today soz , im hungry and wanna eat but i know if i do il feel sick. feeling a bit crampy too but i know that can be normal as well.
just having a wobbly moment

 

[Smiler82]

what are you waiting for your doc to call you about?

Cramping is totally normal, so much stretching etc going on in there lilesmom I bet you will start to notice a mini bump soon xxx

What about a plain bit of toast?

 

[lilesMom]

sorry im a moany arse today just had some food and its gone down alright so far
i get cranky when tired and hungry soz.
my doc is meant o ring me about work. they dont want me back on light duties so i donno what my next step is...... she hasnt said if she will sign me out r what
i donno , just having afed up day today, i had it all planned on how i was goin back to work and looking forward to it and now it looks like i might not be able to go back.
the weeks ahead r seemin long
dont mind me, im just a monay minnie today, xxx

how r u doin hon? what is ur meditation cd like,is it guided walk or something (walk in ur head i mean )?
i like those

 

[Smiler82]

Haha it is fine to be a moany arse Glad you were able to manage some food, that is good.

Oh, I see, I thought it was all sorted with work that you weren't going back as they couldn't give you light duties. Surely she will have to sign you off, what other choice is there? It is really disappointing when you imagine something to work out one way but then it works out the opposite

The meditation is kind of like getting you to imagine healing light or angels around you and concentrating on what it is you want and 'allowing' yourself to have it. She tells you to think about any worries or obstacles you might be putting in the way, which is what got me thinking a lot today about being a crap mum and finding it too hard etc. I've always thought that but have always pushed it to the back of my mind. It has nice calming music in the background and her voice is quite soothing so I enjoyed listening to it just before bed There is a nice bit where she tells you to imagine being pregnant and feeling your bump, and everyone around you all happy for you

 

[lilesMom]

i thought so too but i rang her office yest and she is taking time to think it over ????
whats to think about she wanted me on light duties, work wont give me um and told me that it wont come against me if i stay out.. i donno....

that does sound nice smiler , i love things like that,
my hypno birth cd is along same lines, walkin in a wood , then having light flow into ur body, and then u get to talk to ur baby its quite nice
ive been goin to classes run by my sis every week too with a different guided med every week , its lovely. it feels stronger in a group, i didn think it would but it does