Stopping BCP to TTC***Updates & Progress/Noted Changes Since Stopping BCP***24BFPs***

[cdex67]

Charlie, hi! Thank you!!!!

 

[CrazyCharlie2]

Ms Elizabeth congratulations to you too! And thank you for explaining. And we are all there to share in the joy and misery of each other so don't feel you're taking away from anything!

Sorry I only skimmed through what I've missed!

AFM: I'm about 9DPO and not testing, just waiting for AF to show up around Nov 2nd. I really don't think we caught the egg this time around since I was out of town and 5 days for sperm to survive is pushing it.

I will be hitting the gym tomorrow to get back on track. And back to strict dieting.

Going to try to be in here more often, I am getting down on myself and you ladies always help me get over that. 💚💛💜💕

 

[patienceiav]

Cdex that's perfect you're getting darker lines I think the magic poas cutoff point is when you get 3+ on that digi!

Charlie, you know we're always here for you it's good to vent to us, no matter how long people have been ttc, non ttc people just can't relate! I still get people to tell me to relax and it'll happen, bitch please it's not happened properly for 15 months, it's not just going to happen! Rargh!

5 days isn't the worst, if you dtd within 7 days of ov then it can happen but you're right, I'd not trust any bd longer than 5 days before, but it CAN happen! I hope the next cycle gives you more preparation (and bd!)

Exercise will always help ttc, I've been pushing myself this cycle to try and help the bloodflow to my crappy lining, and cut down a lot (but not totally) on the crazy amount of junk I eat! Can only hope crying like a baby after a bag of crisps will be worth it

How are our other 2ww ladies doing? 6dpo and feeling normal, the cream is making my boobs sore as usual but that's it!

 

[Charmed86]

I'm plodding on.. 7dpo now & no real symptoms, not for preg or AF! I'm starting to lose hope for this cycle.. not sure why, it's too early for anything yet anyway! Just a gut feeling I guess

 

[patienceiav]

Sometimes the gut feeling works! The two back to back chemicals I had I just knew way before I could test that I was pregnant, not because of symptoms but just a 6th sense. I had it a bit last month though and was nothing and got a suspicion this month too, just not so sure as if today though! I hope your gut feeling is wrong this time normally my 2ww is a roller-coaster of us I am, no I'm not, it can change daily

 

[patienceiav]

I've been at this so long that in reality in really, really down, and that these few days of 2ww before af inevitably comes, bfp or no, I need to let myself believe it's possible just to give myself a small piece of happiness

 

[Charmed86]

I can certainly understand that! I spend the tww pretending that this is my turn, imagining a bump growing & my little baby. Then, the inevitable bfn comes & I repeat the process! But those two weeks, I am happy in my own little world

I've eaten everything in sight this morning, I feel queasy & I have indigestion. So much for no signs! I've got 3 apps on the go atm! Haha. They all have different ov dates Ovia is so optimistic. Everything I put in, it says 'oh, maybe you're pregnant!'

FX patience, I really hope this is your month! xxx

 

[patienceiav]

Haha it is a lot of fun indeed i used to think that people who analyse every symptom are just asking for disappointment, but I'd rather think every twinge and ache is something then be disappointed, cuz i won't be surprised if af comes!

I'm actually doing so badly mentally and emotionally that I'm going to go to a Dr and see if I can get some time off, I'm slowly losing my mind over ttc and that's hard enough, but I can't deal with ttc and the work world any more, being at work just kills me sorry for the sob story, I must look like a walking scare tactic for people ttc'ing: "this will be you if you don't get pregnant soon!" but I just can't handle it any more

I snapped for the last time today when the progesterone cream I ordered last Friday hasn't been sent yet and I'm out of mine by tomorrow, which will cause me to spot and have af whether or not we I conceived

 

[Charmed86]

Oh I completely understand! I was a mess the last time we ttc, no periods for 8mths drove me mad, I couldn't cope In the end, it was easier to convince myself I didn't want a baby & go back on the pill. It took me a couple of years to get over that! Then it took me a while to remind myself that I did want a baby, which leads me to now. I know, technically, this time I'm only on my 3rd cycle, but that upset from before never went away It was heartbreaking and I really feel for you.

That's so frustrating about your cream! How long until your new cream arrives? The progesterone really confuses me, I was reading about it a little while ago & people were saying you have to keep using it even when you get bfp! It's so confusing!

My boobs feel sore & I really cba to go out on my bike right now. Ugh.

 

[patienceiav]

Gosh that's so awful, I can't imagine going without ov or af i think that's even worse than what I've put up with! You've had plenty of ttc already, I feel for you

Progesterone is meant to be taken up till week 12 or something if you do get a bfp while using it, can be prescribed but the Dr refuses to give it to me so I bought my own, will cause endless problems if i get a bfp but I couldn't care less, I just need to get past 4 weeks and then I'll worry about it!

I emailed the company asking where it is, it SHOULD be sent today and turn up tomorrow, any later and my cycle will be ruined :'(

 

[Wtbam]

I was on 15mg norethisterone (progesterone orally) when I got pregnant, and took 6 weeks to taper off it. I had two days of light spotting when finally stopping (terrifying, went to have an early emergency scan just in case) but then no other bleeding.

 

[patienceiav]

Funny, I used 20mg of cream and got AF as usual early, took double that to get my lp to 13/14 days!

Omg Omg just got my confirmation email, the cream will be here tomorrow! I'm saved! Might not have as much cream to use tonight but I'll have the new by tomorrow eve

 

[twinkie2]

For those considering talking to your dr about progesterone, I've found, through personal experience, patience's experience and others I follow on here that there is a very mixed consensus on the use of progesterone to sustain early pregnancy. I was lucky enough that my dr believes it is worth it, while patience had to take things in her own hands. When I spotted at 6 weeks I was not able to see my own ob and had to see a different dr and she basically told me that she never prescribes progesterone as it does nothing I believe it gave my body the boost it needed until my own hormones caught up to keep this baby sticky. But hey what do I know, I'm no dr. Just my belief. I only warn as I am concerned of some going into their dr and getting very negative responses (not what ttc'ers need to hear in my opinion!) Good luck to you all!

MrsH-When the heck will you test woman!? I am going nuts over here from your posts! I was so so tired and had very sore breasts right away! Being so early for you (in ttc terms) it could just be hormones, but boy does it ever sound promising!!!! (Sorry cdex, these symptoms didn't subside til about 13 weeks, so get ready for the long haul, but I promise it's all going to be so worth it!!)

 

[Turtle0630]

Hi everyone! MrsH, I sure hope your exhaustion is a good sign!

Lavender, hope you and DH are enjoying your trip! That's great that you get to see your cousin too while you're here!

Cdex, that's so awesome that things are starting to sink in already! I love that you're still testing to see those lines...I would be too!

Charlie, so sorry that you've been feeling down. I think being on here really does help cheer us up! We're here for you, lady!

Patience, I'm also so sorry that you're feeling so down. I can only imagine how frustrating and hard it must be to be trying for so long. And then to have such a crappy Dr at that! Of course we're here for you too! I think it's smart that you're looking into getting some time off work if that's what you need. It's important to take care of YOU! I'm really happy to hear that the cream will be arriving in time though! Yay!!!

I'm now 7dpo but I'm really not hopeful for this cycle at all. So much so that I'm not even symptom spotting, if you can believe that! For some reason I feel like taking a break from opk's and temping this cycle means that I'm completely out, which is silly since we still dtd at least somewhat around the right times. I don't know...for some reason I just really don't even feel it. I don't even plan on testing, unless AF is late!

 

[twinkie2]

Just re-read my post and I hope that came out right! I think progesterone is great, while it is no cure all, I do think some of us need a little help to get our body back to where is really should be for pregnancy (again, not a dr!) I only warn as I don't want anyone to go to the dr in high hopes to be totally deflated by your dr. You have options, you can take matters into your own hands, see another dr, or wait it out.

Patience-thinking of you dear, I really hope you can find some peace soon (well tbh, I hope you get a bfp this cycle!) Sorry this all has to be such a struggle do you have any hobbies that you love that would help to distract you a bit?

 

[patienceiav]

Thanks for your kind words Twinkie dear it is very lonely here when it's just me and Charlie left struggling from the "old gang" when you think how many ladies have had their bfp don't get me wrong I LOVE the new crowd sooo much! But now as a LTTTC'er I feel very alone

I do have an awesome hobby that helps, but I think I just need some time away from work cuz i can't handle ttc stress and shit from work becomes so pointless in comparison. The Dr will always battle to keep me off sick pay but I gotta try, even if I have to get denied, tell my boss I'm off sick then wait till they need Dr proof why I'm off, I just need a break

Who knows, maybe I'll get a sticky bean and this will all go away, but the past year+months have made me extremely cynical!

I think progesterone is great but the cream sucks, as said I need about twice as much as the rda just to get myself past 11dpo and even then I'll be spotting the whole way! I'd kill for a prescription from my doc, I think people with less than 12 days lp can really benefit from it (even though I don't have it haha, I've extended my lp a bit with that and horrid amounts of vit b)

 

[mkyerby16]

Patience I know I'm that lucky b*tch that you probably hate right now for only trying one cycle (it's ok I'd hate me too!) But I just wanted to let you know that I'm still here following along and rooting for you! I can totally see a negative change in the tone of your posts and feel heartbroken for you. Is talking to a therapist an option? (totally don't mean that in a negative you need therapy way, I just can't imagine how much you're going through right now and want all the support possible for you!) I hope you know how much support you have here and how loudly we will all be cheering when you finally get your sticky bfp!!

 

[twinkie2]

Well said mkyerby!

 

[patienceiav]

Well mkyerby you just made me cry standing at the bus stop good thing none else is here to see me sobbing like a fool! That's so lovely of you to say I don't hate anyone for getting their bfp! It just leaves so little people to relate to

There is ttc counselling which is one of the reasons I'm trying to speak to the damn "specialist" but honestly it's not going to get better till that bfp sticks, half a year ago I could tell myself to calm down and worst case when 1 year hits I'd get the help I need, turns out that was a lie the Dr has some weird checklist of things to check before she'll help, the fact she does one thing a month and nothing proactive to help is infuriating! and even tested my progesterone right after af, how will that help?! I can't see a therapist helping but it might be good just to vent so I don't hijack the thread with my pity party like I'm doing now

She was meant to call Monday and still hasn't now, so I have to call back tomorrow and go nuts on someone! It's just one thing after another and every little trip and stumble along the way crushes me now

 

[MrsHudson]

Aww Patience! Keep your chin up!

Twinkie I'm only 8 DPO and I tested last night (I just couldn't help myself) and it was a . I know, too soon to count me as out but this morning I started feeling like AF was coming. I did get some nausea but I also took my prenatals on an empty stomach, because I forgot last night.

All I know is that if it's a BFN again, DH and I are going to have serious talk about how we need to actually DTD because we still haven't since I last told you we did..... And I want a baby really bad but he's wanted one for longer and he needs to step it up. Sorry for the rant but I'm not happy with his efforts when I have tried several times now and got turned down. And I know he has nothing wrong with him because he had a check up a couple of months ago and may have asked that doc to check when I scheduled the appointment.