Stopping BCP to TTC***Updates & Progress/Noted Changes Since Stopping BCP***24BFPs***

[MamaBunny2]

Danna that has got to be so frustrating! I do remember reading somewhere at some point during my mass amounts of Google research that it was take months of coming off BC for your period to regulate, or even return. How long were you taking it for? And I assume you've been off for around 4-5 months now? At least you got your thyroid checked, can mark that off the list. I haven't had any tests done but a pelvic exam by my doctor sometime in October. He said everything I'm doing is ideal and everything appeared OK and to relax (yeah... O...K...) and give it a couple more months then if nothing happens I can contact him in January. He mentioned performing an HSG to check my tubes. I'm impatient and hate waiting but I might give it another cycle or two before I start with the super invasive poking, prodding and testing. Hoping shows up for you soon!

 

[Turtle0630]

Danna, I'm really sorry that you're STILL in limbo and still waiting. I can't even imagine how frustrating that must be! And that's super frustrating that your Dr won't even doing anything about it for 6 whole months!!! That would drive me up the freaking wall. I'm sending big your way, and I'm crossing all of my crossables for you that something starts SOON! Oh, and that's just cruel on the evaps. Really, universe? That's just...mean. I'm sorry!

Charmed, I'm also sending big your way. I'm really sorry you're having to go through this. Take all the time that you need to heal.

MamaBunny, I'm on my 7th cycle now too! I really hope it happens for BOTH of us, soon! Well really, for ALL of us! It's bound to, right? Positive thoughts!

Charlie, how are you doing?

Cdex, MsE and MrsH, how are you feeling?

 

[Charmed86]

Thank you for your kind words and for sharing your stories ladies, it does makes me feel better to know some people do understand what I'm feeling.

W2bamom, I was on Alesse, which is a very low dose BC, but obviously that didn't help.

No I haven't been checked yet. My doctor is adamant on waiting for 6 months off BC, which will be in February. I did get my thyroid checked through blood test for something else, and it was fine, so that's a test I won't have to do. I'm kind of wondering what she'll do actually... If she tells me there's nothing wrong and to keep waiting, I'll go private.

Oh and to make matters worse, I'm at my second fake positive (evap) line on pregnancy test stick in 1 month. Yesterday I tested just to be sure I could drink tonight (xMas party) and there it was, and white as snow this morning. I swear if I ever trust a pregnancy test it will have to be dark and bright pink, I can't deal with that dissapointment again and again.

Do evaps go clear? I didn't know that.. Or did you retest? Not that it's important, that was really cr*ppy of the tests & I am so sorry you had to go through that disappointment. It's so upsetting to see your BFP fade away to nothing, regardless of the circumstances

It's so annoying that your GP is making you wait, but I guess it gives you enough time to see whether AF might return on its own. I waited 8 months before asking for help, so I can relate to what you're going through I remember joining forums when I began TTC the last time & left them all when nothing happened for months, it was just too upsetting.

I hope your GP has some answers for you! Have they tested your hormones? That was the first test my GP did & then because of the results, sent me to the fertility clinic for more tests! Any chance your GP could test your hormones? Or will they do that after 6mths?

Oh, Mama, I'd definitely hold off on the tests! They're no fun It can take up to a year for a fertile couple to get pregnant, the NHS won't see anyone before 12 months if they're under 30 (35? I forget the exact age). FX it happens for you soon!!

Thank you Turtle, it's been tough, but not as tough as I thought it would be. FX for this cycle! For all of us!!

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

Ugh ladies...wish there was a crystal ball to look into to say....on the 17th day...BD. Dr's can be frustrating. I'm too impatient sometimes. Wishing you all some serenity and peace so you can BD without a thought....and get a BFP!!

Turtle....I'm ok. Still nauseous. Waiting to wake up and not button my pants. Bizarre thinking....when else would we not want to be able to fit!!

 

[MrsHudson]

Danna I'm so happy to hear from you and thank you! I'm really sorry you're still waiting for something to happen. You know I didn't have anything happen at first, so I can imagine waiting as long as you have has to be excruciating. I hope the next couple of months go by fast so you can get in to the dr. I don't know what you're thinking but I swore off BCP after dealing with what I did. Mentally and physically I can't go through coming off it again.

Charmed I'm still so sorry. I know I don't need to keep saying that but your post made me cry with you and I'm still very bummed. A true BFP will stay say positive forever. So an evap is when it is positive and then goes away after a couple of hours.

Turtle I'm much better today but I'm very bloated and keep getting dizzy spells. Yesterday I could not even function I was so tired. I've never felt like that before. I'm patiently awaiting my OB appointment on Tuesday.

 

[Charmed86]

I really had no idea about the evaps disappearing after a few hours.. That's so weird! I guess that's one way to tell whether they're true BFPs or not.

I'm finding it kind of difficult dealing with the fact that I was pregnant, I had a potential due date, I had a number of weeks that made me so proud. And now I don't.. I really hope this cycle works for me, it's just too difficult to cope with if it doesn't. I can't face AF again.

Ugh & I feel awful for complaining about getting AF because I know Danna isn't even getting that & I should at least be grateful that I'm getting that at least! When I came off the pill, I wasn't expecting anything to happen, nevermind a chemical pregnancy. I'm really sorry, Danna.

I've done nothing but eat the last few days, I've not been into work, not slept well. I need to get out of this funk. My boobs still hurt, despite being 3 days into AF & I keep feeling queasy, how rotten is that? Like some cruel joke!

MrsH, I am sorry you're feeling rotten, I hope you start feeling a bit better soon! A friend of mine was telling me that the tiredness in the first trimester is something else!! It does pass though, so hang in there & take naps when you can xxx

 

[MrsHudson]

Oh don't even worry about me please. This is what I asked for lol.
That being said they always say you won't understand until you go through it. That's totally true. I never would have imagined what this feels like. But I could certainly be a lot worse off and am thankful.

How is everyone else?

 

[DannaD]

Please don't stop yourself for saying anything because of me Charmed!
I know we all go through different stuff, all very difficult in their own ways..

I didn't know about evaps dissapearing either actually o.o
I meant I took another test, and it was white. My evap is still there, you'd probably be able to see it on a photo even.

I hope she'll check hormones, but it won't be before 6 months, she really doesn't want to do anything... Which brings another touchy subject.

Remember I talked about having to get a cyscostopy? Because of blood in my urine samples?
Well I had to go in for a meeting with the specialist first, and well... he seemed very angry that I was sent to him; he said my results were almost normal, that he could see that both samples with blood in it was contaminated, that when she first sent me to see a specialist about it couple years ago, it should have been the end of it when all came back clear. Basically, he told me she was overreacting, that there was 0 chance something was wrong and that she should have dropped it instead of scaring the hell out of me.

So my doctor is the type to raise red flags for almost nothing, but anything that has to do with fertility can wait, pff, no big deal?! /rant

 

[MrsHudson]

Hmm that's strange. I already told you this but dr. told me to come in after 3 months if nothing happened when stopping BCP. Do you like you dr. or would you consider switching? I mean I have heard others wanting to wait until the 6 month mark but if you're really concerned they should see you.

 

[Charmed86]

How frustrating!! I would be so mad! I remember how worried you were about having that done & it's not a nice thing to have either, I still remember mine. I don't understand why she is like that, maybe there are certain restrictions set on each condition? I know we can't be seen here unless we've been TTC for 12 months, but that's only if every thing seems 'normal'.. No periods is not normal, I'm not sure whether my GP would have referred me earlier than 6 months though. I wish they'd at least do a blood test!

Ah, I was wondering about the evaps, cos I know with the IC I get terrible evaps! If I look at them after an hour has passed then there's a definite line there & it even looks pink!! It stays there as well. I ended up buying proper tests last month because I couldn't be doing with them! Last month the store bought tests were 100% negative. This month was the first time I got a faint line within 5 minutes of using an IC.. I took that after I took the superdrug one as well, the IC are not my go-to tests now, I think they're awful! The OPKs are good tho.

Hugs. I love this group & all of the women in it, always so supportive of each other! I know my friend was getting a bit fed up of my talking about the chemical pregnancy.. She's 30wks pregnant though, so doesn't understand really. She doesn't understand why I'm trying so hard to get pregnant. Just stop trying and it'll happen.. She got pregnant by accident, so it kinda stings a bit.

One weird thing I did find with this, is my little brother.. Who I thought would have been thrilled to hear of me & DH getting pregnant, was weirdly distant. He's not spoken to me since I told him, he doesn't know it ended in a chemical pregnancy. I feel a bit differently about him now.. He's always been super competitive and kinda threw it in my face when he & his gf got pregnant by accident (he was awful to me, on the day his daughter was born, he called me up and shouted at me for over an hour!).. We moved past all of that though. I wonder if he thought that this would be competition for his daughter? He wont let our Mum be involved with her, so she's looking forward to when I have a baby so she can be a real Grandma! As soon as I told him about the possible pregnancy, he sent photos of his daughter to our Mum. It's all so weird. He was excited when I told him we were trying, but then he also thought that I couldn't conceive.. So probably thought it would never happen. My Mum asked if I'd tell him, I said it was awkward just to send a text saying "oh, btw, not pregnant any more", he's not asked how I am or anything & I am sure he'll start talking to me as soon as I tell him.. But I don't want that negativity around me.

Sorry for the rant, it probably makes no sense, I just had to get it out!

 

[MrsHudson]

Wow Charmed! How can you get over it? I don't expect it to be easy for you an I'm sure no one here does. I hate when people that have never "tried" to get pregnant say things like that. They have no idea. I'm sorry but actually trying does work becuse it did for us. I mean we're super lucky it happened quickly but you kind if have to know when you are O in order to get pregnant. DH and I don't DTD frequently so it's not like we could chance it. I mean we haven't DTD since I O'd (mostly because of that nasty parasite) but it is normal for us to go that long. I'm pissed for you because that's ridiculous.

And that's very strange of your brother. Sounds like it's a competition for him. He also sounds like my sister, and that's one of many reasons I don't speak to her. She's always been jealous of me because I planned my life out and she didn't.

Thanks for still worrying about me ladies. You all are so awesome and when I say I'm sad and lonely over here I mean it. Thank you for allowing me to share my news with you. I know it's not easy to hear but I really appreciate it. And now I'm crying because of these damn hormones.

 

[LavenderLove]

Holy wow yeah, people who just say to "relax" or similar it's just... gah! That's great that some people can get pregnant so easily, but they have got to realize it's not easy for everyone! Personally I'm thinking of myself a bit in the "it'll happen when it happens" attitude, but DH and I still will go through all the planning necessary to make it happen.

I'm so sorry you have to deal with family drama on top of what you're going through Charmed. That absolutely doesn't help things! That does sound competitive, but awful since well... competition over children? Ugh! I can perfectly understand why you don't want that kind of negativity around you.

Danna that's entirely frustrating what your GP is doing! Freaking out about one thing, but ignoring another? I'd say what you're going through really warrants investigation. Is there someone else you can see before going private or is private the only way to go? Whatever happens I hope you get the care you need so you can figure things out and move forward.

I do love all of you ladies! You're really the only ones that understand. Things really are way more complex than just spending an evening in the back of a car.

AFM I'm just antsy for Monday to come so I can test since I keep getting little cramps all the time. It's actually going to be a funny day if I get a BFP. It'd play out like this: I take a test after DH leaves for work, go to a podiatry appointment absurdly happy, and then take my happy butt to the mall for a little surprise package for DH, put it all together and surprise him when he gets home. I still have to go to the mall after my beloved boots broke today, so I'd muuuuch rather go there and brave the crowds with happy news!

 

[CrazyCharlie2]

Hi ladies!

Sorry I've been MIA, I've been stalking you all though!!! haha.

Charmed, Lots of big hugs headed your way!!!! I'm sorry about your brother being so weird. I hate when family turns things into a competition. It's so unnecessary!

Dana, I'm sorry you are STILL waiting!!! How frustrating!!! I can't imagine having to still wait just for AF to show up. I am surprised that they aren't checking hormones or anything!

Everyone else, I'm sorry I dont remember the rest of what I read. I'm multitasking lol.

I hope you're all doing well!!!

AFM: I'm on CD 9, took my last Clomid pill for this cycle. Dr told me that if I don't concieve this month, then I can take clomid in January, but No more after that. I then have to go into the office to "chat" about whats next.... I'm really dreading that... I mean I LOVE my Dr, she is amazing, but I know that I am overweight and I am working on it, but I don't want her to tell me that she wants me to lose more weight before we do anything else. I'm sure she wont say anything, because I was sure she would before she put me on clomid.... I worry too much. Anyway. I told DH that I will be taking advantage of him A LOT this month. I'm supposed to O around Christmas, so that would be awesome if I actually conceived!! What a fun story that would be. Anyway, I've blabbed enough lol.

What is everyone doing for Christmas??

 

[Turtle0630]

Hi, ladies! Hope everyone had a nice weekend so far! Charmed, that's so weird about your brother! I'm sorry that you're having to deal with that on top of the rest of it.

Lavender, tomorrow is testing day!!! Oh, I can't wait to hear what happens! Be sure to let us know!

Charlie, sounds like this cycle is well under way for you! I have my fingers crossed that this is your month, and that you don't have to end up going back to your OB for the "next steps". Good luck!!!

 

[LavenderLove]

Charlie I hope you won't need the Clomid anymore after this month! If O is on Christmas then conception would be a fantastic present for have.

Hehe Turtle I'm so nervous! I know I've been getting some promising signs but I won't know for sure until tomorrow! DH is going to run a couple errands before work so I'll try and sneak in a test then if I can't sleep in.

 

[Ms Elizabeth]

So excited for you today lavender! !

Charlie....lovery that you stated he would be taken advantage of...that's sooo cute!! And...what a gift that would be!!

 

[Charmed86]

Oh Charlie, that would be so cute! I have everything crossed for you!!

FX Lavender!! I don't know how you haven't tested yet. I can't wait to find out with you.

I am ok, dawned on me yesterday that I'd be coming up to 5wks pregnant now, xmas just won't be the same. Ugh. I'm watching lots of rubbish on netflix, I've eaten way too much & just generally feeling pants. xx

 

[MrsHudson]

I hope this is your cycle Charlie!

Lavender I'll be heading over to your journal soon to see what the news is.

We're going to host Christmas dinner around 4:00 or so. So DH and I will have our own little thing in the morning and then wait for everyone to come over. I'll have my mom come over early to help me cook. I'm so tired lately I'll need the extra hands.

 

[Turtle0630]

Lavender, I'm so anxiously awaiting your results!!! Do share!

Charmed, I'm so sorry.

 

[LavenderLove]

So DH left a little while ago and... !!! Not even a squinter! I'm in such shock here!

I don't have pics as they're on my good camera and I've got to run to an appointment, but I'll post them when I get home!

Holy wow. So to sum up here I was on Depo Provera for 6 months, then went onto Nuvaring for almost 3 years. Got off it September, BFP in December!

I want to do cartwheels down the block, but little bean is making me feel like I'm starving here so I'm going back to stuff my face.

Massive hugs ladies! I love how supportive you all have been through this!