Hi FutureBabyG! I'm sorry to hear about your losses.
I'm actually here to post about the question you just asked anyways, so I hope what I'm about to write helps you.
So, I got my beta quants back and I am not pregnant, but AF still has not shown. And I think I've discovered the issue. Me. My anxiety. My panic attacks are becoming more frequent, I'm having trouble sleeping, and I'm depressed.
And my anxiety revolves around pregnancy, and being pregnant again. I know in my heart I'm ready to have a baby, but I haven't properly dealt with my losses and traumas. I can't breeze through this like I thought. I figured that even though it was sad, that I was physically okay, and that was reason enough to keep on trying. But being physically okay just isn't enough.
So after talking to hubby, we've decided it's for the best we take a long break from TTC. I need to seek more help for my anxieties, and possibly getting on medication to assist me in my recovery. I'll probably start taking oral BC too, to get my cycles back to normal.
Me and hubby will focus more on being happy just being together. Maybe take a vacation, find new hobbies. Just get back to being us, and not being us TTC. This has ruled our life since we started, mine even more since the ectopic. I'm ready to stop trying for now. And I'm okay with that.