Nice one nexis, glad things are moving for you
Hey ladies, sorry ive not been back to reply today had been a very emotional day...
Got a call from fella 7am and he was in bits, couldnt talk to me, so his friend/neighbour kindly offered to give me a lift up to see him and as soon as he seen me walk in the door he burst into tears, his whole family was so upset and shocked to see him like this because he has apparently been quiet for 2 days around them and has not shed a tear... I was confused by this because he's been calling me everyday starting from 8am until 1am crying so i assumed he was crying with his mum and friends etc but i got told in the car by his friend that he wont open up to anyone and hasnt cried infront of them, he was calling me when he wanted to cry and he was waiting for me to get to him so i could cuddle him, they said he wont open up to anyone except me, i wish he would open up to his mum or someone when im not there with him
He squeezed me soooo tight and cried, i asked him what was wrong and he said dad passed away at 3 am
fella went up to hospital to be with him mum who stayed the night and didnt get home until 5am, he didnt want to wake me up so waited until i got there to tell me, i went to sleep last night at about 2.30am and i was very restless, couldnt sleep much and kept having a gut ache feeling, so heartbreaking to see my baby so devastated
he kept saying i just want to go fishing with him
funeral is the 23rd, i have to save up all my strength because im going to need enough for the both of us, hes so heartbroken... ive never seen him cry like that but i have seen him cry, his family have never seen him cry like that and some have never seen him cry at all, hes very private with his emotions that why it shocked us all to see his reaction when i walked through the door and went straight to hug him poor baby
I HATE SEEING ME CRY!!!! specially my baby boy
Pretty shitty year for us, im writing off 2012 as a huge Tw@ing year and i really hope 2013 is our year for a change..... feel so useless!!!!!!