So, my hubby just put a damper on my day. We have not been using protection for the past 3 months, but during the times that I would've been Oing I constantly felt like my hubby was "too tired" or "I'm not in the mood." I felt like he was avoiding me (despite his insistence that he doesn't know when I ovulate). Anyway, tonight I was joking around about "getting his boys ready for baby-making." Then I said something on the lines of, "You don't want to make babies with me?" I asked this b/c of his lack of response from the first comment. He said, "no." I am so sad. He then said, "It's not like I don't ever want to have another baby." I left the room. I have no idea where this is coming from. Like I said before, it's not like we are doing anything to NOT have a baby...but everything is different w/ both parties involved want the same thing ya know? After my two MCs I want nothing more than to be pregnant again!!! For women, I think being pregnant after a MC brings some type of healing in more ways than one. Yes, it brings about stress and yes, you could MCing again, but having a healthy pregnancy I think brings so much healing to the body, soul and mind. I'm so sad now. I think it's because of this stupid trip his parents invited us on....we are going to PUnta Cana in March. He's afraid that if we get pregnant we can't go. Grr...he can be so selfish sometimes.
Excuse my rant...HOpe everyone is well.