Thank you so much everyone!
Wantanerd, I'm sorry this month didn't work out for you. And please don't ever feel bad for wanting another miracle. Yes, I'd be happy with just one at this point, but I'd like to eventually have four children (two biological, two adopted) so I think every time trying matters just as much as it did the first go.
I actually saw an ob/gyn. That was probably my first mistake as I should have just gone to the fertility specialist in the first place. There are other doctors at the clinic I go to, and I have considered going to their main fertility doctor (he's also an ob/gyn but handles most of the clinic's infertility patients). The only reason I didn't go to him is because I prefer a female doctor. Probably my second mistake. I should probably just get over my phobia of professional male ob/gyn's / male fs looking down my hooha. Right now it just creeps me out. However, the one FS (different clinic) in town is male so I'm going to have to get over it anyway. Honestly, what possess a man to become a FS??!! (I know, I know).
I've also considered Denver...it's just a long drive. Probably my third mistake. Denver is much bigger than Fort Collins and therefore more options. Oh well. Live and learn I guess.
It was just so devastating to me. Part of the waiting was totally my fault, but now that I'm finally ready to pursue fertility treatment, to have that door slammed in my face after months of emotional debate with myself and my husband, I just couldn't handle it. The doctor was trying to be sensitive, I just think she was missing a lot of information at the cost of my already struggling heart and it seriously bothers me that she didn't even ask for it. She looked at me and judged and that's just not fair. I mean, I only have about 25 lbs to lose in order to be considered healthy and my BMR/ waist-hip ratio are both within the acceptable range.
Okay...I'm done ranting. I have an appointment in March with a different doctor. Maybe I can even get one sooner with a doctor in Denver. Maybe I just wasn't meant to work with that particular doctor.