Adrienne, thank you for thinking of me.
I have taken some time off from this thread. I've been struggling a lot recently, with all the BFPs. People can call me selfish, horrible, bitter, whatever .. but I've had such heartbreak over all this TTC and seeing everyone's BFPs. Don't get me wrong, I'm overjoyed for everyone, but it hurts to know that I'm not in that "special group."
AF got me last Friday, and for it to come so close to today, my EDD, hurt. I was really hoping for surprise BFP to make this day go better, but sadly, I didn't get it.
Today is my EDD from my 1st pregnancy.
I've struggled a lot the past week, knowing what it was leading up to. I've had lots of break down crying sessions, fits of jealously, and just feeling shitty. Knowing I should have a baby by now, be really close, or also that I should be about 21 weeks along with my 2nd pregnancy really hurts.
I guess that's all I can say. I know some people don't understand, or think I shouldn't be feeling like this, but I can't help it. I'll come back eventually, maybe next week when I'm hopefully feeling better. For now, I've been posting a lot in my journal.
Congrats to Arlene and Naomi on their BFPs. I really am so incredibly happy for you. And Maia and Adrienne, I hope your TWW ends in something amazing.