Things I cannot say out loud....

[StarlitHome]

Confession: I was very disappointed when I opened the door today to find not just my MIL and SIL waiting to go for lunch with Molly and I, but also Aunty.

Really?? I just saw her on Saturday.

And she was just as annoying as usual....

 

[tanya]

He back on full oxygen, they're putting the chest drain back in today and they've said he shouldn't have been sent home yet. We're goin to visit him later and are videoing everything so he can watch it later we will put it on his iPad.
Flynn loves his presents I just can't believe my baby is 1!!

 

[Natsku]

Happy birthday Flynn!

 

[Lauki]

Happy Birthday Flynn!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Happy Birthday to Flynn!!!!

 

[tanya]

Thanks guys he's had a lovely day, both parties went really well he's been really good all day, eaten loads of crap and got some lovely presents (one auntie had to tell us all five times that the cardi she bought him was designer, snob)
He's loved every minuite especially after his last party before coming home we took him to the hospital and he got to cuddle grandad who looks 100% better now he's back on his oxygen and drip, they've drained his lung again and only a little bit of fluid.
He's going to have a camera down to see what's goin on in there as I don't think they really know. He's eaten some food tho which is great (he hid a big gooey chocolate cupcake under the covers to scoff it coz hes diabetic and the nurses keep telling him off lol
It was good to see him laughing and smiling. We've filmed everything today and have hundreds of pictures do we're going to edit them nicely and put them on his iPad so he can watch them and not feel that he's missed everything too much.

 

[Natsku]

Glad Flynn had a good birthday

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Mum...

I'm actually having a really hard time conecting with you atm, & tbh, its getting harder & harder to pretend we're okay.

Some of the things you've said & thing's I've worked out these last few weeks have shocked me to my core.

& I'm not being funny, but getting pissed & telling me I'm right not to go back to work & you wish you could have stayed off work with me, was totally & completely offset by the fact 5 hours before you told me that you used to stay out til 3/4/5 am EVERY saturday night & leave a 3/4 yr old me with a babysitter.

Your husband, the man I thought was my father had just left us & you thought going out & getting arseholed every weekend was okay. Did it never occur to you that I might have wanted my mum around, considering you worked every waking hour.

Quite frankly, I don't know how you dare question anything I do with Josh, if that was your attitude to parenting.

Oh & another thing...I lied to you today. Yes me & Carl are trying for a baby. But quite frankly I was so stunned you told me 'not to have anymore children' I just wanted to stop the convo. Who the hell are you to tell me that? If I wanted a fucking football team it is NOTHING to do with you.

Yes, I'm glad you never had anymore children...you did a good enough job abandoning me thanks.

I'm seriously having difficulties with you atm. I really think you need to back off, before this comes to a head.

Also...sending me to a pyscologist at 5 cos of my anger issues & having her tell you its cos you gave me too much control over my life is such BULLSHIT!!

Did no-one...ever...stop to look at the 3 yr old (who was, by everyones account a daddy's girl) who's 'dad' had just walked out on her & who's mother was working every hour god sent & apparently, out on the piss when she wasn't working & think her anger & her frustration & her lashing out, was attention seeking for the confusion & sense of abandonment she felt? No?

I'm really starting to feel you blamed me as a child for him leaving. & that, is just unfair & now I have to live with the issues that came about because of how you treated me. Thats just cruel

 

[Natsku]

 

[Emmy1987]

Manager - I ask if there's some deals I can do to get more orders after seeing someone else does and you just tell me to keep doing what I'm doing? How come the other person can offer free delivery and discounts and I can't??

House viewing tomorrow - please just be cheap and not a low price cause there's something wrong!

 

[divadexie]

DS's gran. How DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DS is SEVEN. Call of Duty black ops is rated EIGHTEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To say I am a little pissed is an understatement. The only reason I am not saying this aloud is 'cause I have no credit to tell you how pissed I am. I don't CARE if your bf's son is allowed to play it. Hes 14 and you are not DS mum. That is MY decision to make- not yours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



LO... please please please GO TO SLEEP. All last week she was up til gone 10 playing with her jammies, blanket and recently, the sheet!
I have had to put jammies on back to front otherwise she gets into her nappy (*boak*) and the latest, I have had to get a larger sheet, tie knots in it along the sides and the corners, and TIE the sheet on (until I order some of those thingies that keep it on).

Also dummy has gone in the bin after she crashed onto it (when I went in to tell her to lie down) and gave herself a fat lip. I feel so guilty
I just hope I don't have to bare her whinging for hours for too many nights until she gets used to going to bed is boring and to go to sleep. Please sleep!

 

[Natsku]

Keys: Please let someone find you and find your way back to me. Also, same with the shoes.

Head: Don't you dare start hurting again, stop feeling weird.

 

[Emmy1987]

Me - stop getting your damn hopes up and having faith in people.

 

[rainbowbaby2]

So fucking upset! How dare you your nothing but a fucking dick

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Self: STOP BEING SO DAMNED DEPRESSED

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

We're an unhappy bunch ATM. all round

 

[Natsku]

RIP Kathryn

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Nats

 

[Lettuce]

to everyone! oh nats, I'm sorry.

My dream house: where are you?!! I need to move from this flat.
Cats: you drive me mental and I cant look after you alone, DH is refusing to help as he hates you now, does it mean you will have to be rehomed? But Jenny and I love you guys. I just can't do everything!
Work: I do t want to work shifts!! fucj right off.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

just go away and leave me alone! I really hate you both!