Things I cannot say out loud....

[Sparkes]

Tanya, I just want to say I know exactly what you are going through- I lost my granddad to cancer earlier this year. If you ever want someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to PM me. I'm a good listener if nothing else.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I'm so lonely...

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Broken, why?

 

[Lettuce]

Tanya. Don't neglect yourself darlin.
Oh broken, what's up?

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

OH left at 7am to go see the new batman movie, I've had a row with my mum & all she's interested in is taking Josh to my grandads & I can take a run & jump basically.

Not heard from my mates in weeks. I'm just stuck in the house all the time. I'm the only one of my friends to have a baby, the only other mummy I know (in person) has school age children & I just feel so distant & apart from everyone

 

[Ozzieshunni]

What about inviting your friends round for a movie night?

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Too busy, bfs, gfs, work, drinking etc.

I'm just fed up. I'm terrifed of ending up getting too clingly with OH. I NEED to get out of the house for more than an hour & spend time with adults.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Too busy, bfs, gfs, work, drinking etc.

I'm just fed up. I'm terrifed of ending up getting too clingly with OH. I NEED to get out of the house for more than an hour & spend time with adults.

What about volunteering? I volunteer a couple hours a week and it saves my sanity.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I don't have a babysitter. I've thought about it. Anything to get out of the house.

 

[Sparkes]

I know what it is like Broken have you got nobody at all to look after your little one? Would your boyfriend not mind him? There are lots of volunteering opportunities, during the night as well as during the day. I have a friend who has been unemployed for nearly 2 years and has started to volunteer at our local guide group and loves it. She offers to arrange a lot of things so keeps her busy at other times and takes on the task of maintaining their website etc- i.e. things she can easily do from home but still fills her time.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I know its selfish, but I on;y see my OH 2 days a week & I wanna spend them with him, I just need to fill up the other 5 days.

I'll sort something out, hopefully.

 

[Sparkes]

That's not selfish at all Broken. My OH works during the week, and I work with him 2 days of that week but we hardly see each other aside from Saturday and Sunday as we both have things on in the evenings and he's always tired etc so I like to have at least sometime alone with him at the weekend.

Is there nobody at all?

 

[Natsku]

Broken

 

[Gunnhilde]

Broken that sucks and I know how it feels. I used to live around Wakefield (my last name is actually a little village that was sucked into greater Wakefield at some point). Maybe join a playgroup or something will help?



My things I can't say: Dear friend from boarding school your pottery that you spent 4 years learning how to do sucks and is ugly and no one is going to buy it, especially for those prices! Oh my goodness! Please, please stop talking about how bad your life is on facebook after your parents sent you to boarding school and all those years at an expensive university.

Dear fiance, you are truly amazeballs, but I am so so nervous about moving to Denmark and I'm going to cry when I have to sell my truck.

My family and so called friends, thanks for being there for me while my dad is dying, not. You all freaking suck.

 

[Natsku]

I hope your move to Denmark goes ok. I hear its really nice there, though very expensive.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Thanks for your support ladies. I'm feeling better today.

Josh... You are such a little star & I'm so very proud of you. Standing up holding our hands, taking little steps, nearly crawling properly (he moves his legs maybe twice & then collapses ) but when will you learn mummy knows best, you were so cute yawning in my arms in your sleep, as soon as I put you down you woke up & started yelling. I've now put you in your cot & you chatted for maybe 10 mins & I bet when I check on you, you're fast asleep.

Is this how you'd prefer it? To nap in your cot? Okay baby that's fine

OH, please don't talk about going aboard. It breaks my heart I'll never be able to take Josh to Disney but I am very excited for our seaside trip in September.

Oh & Josh... Love you so much little man!

 

[tanya]

Finally some good news!
Flynn has started walking, he just totters all round the lounge lol!
Fil is off the morphine and seems less confused, I had a conversation with the fil I recognised today he's still really poorly but it's easier to cope knowing that he's still here with us. His oxygen compressed and tanks etc have been fitted too and hopefully he's coming home on Monday! Hopefully when he gets settled into his own home he might start eating again. On that note he ate half a banana and five spoons of soup today! Which is much more than he had been eating.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Thats wonderful news Tanya!

 

[tanya]

I know! Nothing's gonna make him better in the long run but day by day little victories can be won, seeing him laughing and smiling today has eased my broken heart a little.
When he's settled at home we are going to address the future a little. I want to suggest a memory box for Flynn, things to remind him of his grandad and some birthday cards so he can open them when he's older and know how much he loved him. I dont know how to bring it up without upsetting him tho.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Maybe just wait and see how things go, Tanya? Maybe your FIL will want to do something later? I would say, spend as much time together as you can and get lots of pictures of them together