Things I cannot say out loud....

[BrokenfoREVer]

If it was me & my grandad Tanya, I'd sit with just him, me & Josh, let him play with Josh & talk frankly about it. Does he know what the drs have said? He may suggest something similiar himself. Its heartbreaking to have to discuss it, but if you don't, you may regret it.

I'm really sorry if that sounds callous ):

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

In laws... sorry! I love you really but...

MIL PLEASE stop bugging me & OH about seeing Josh. I'm sorry its been 3 weeks, but I wanted to spend my time this week with OH, considering we didn't have as much time together. Shockingly enough, I'm actually in a relationship with him.

Ugh...I do love you really though, but chill out & back off. We're working on giving you a grandchild I promise & then we'll see you much more often. So chill!

 

[Natsku]

Thats good news Tanya, I hope you find a way to talk to your FIL about it, but thats a really idea.

To my fucking **** of an ex: You are going to regret not bringing Maria back today like agreed. I'm not going to cancel the custody meeting. If you don't turn up then I will make an agreement with the social workers and then you will have the option of signing it or going to court. And you WILL lose if we go to court.

Also I can't wait to see your face when I tell you about my new boyfriend, hah! I really hope it upsets you. Twat.

And the only reason I don't see these things outloud is that Maria would hear and I don't want to upset her.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Yay for new bf Nats! I hope your happy together

Your ex is behaving like a serious twat though! No way is he gonna get any custody of Maria if he keeps acting this way.

 

[Natsku]

Its not that I want to take custody off him completely (I could do that if I wanted to, I'm sure) because Maria loves him so much and he loves her and I wouldn't break them apart, but I want him to stick to our fucking agreement!

New guy is lovely though He's coming back here today (after spending the whole weekend with me) to keep me company so I don't feel so lonely without Maria.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I totally understand. But if he keeps up this crap of not keeping in touch when he has her & not dropping her off on time etc, if you end up at court its not gonna look good for him wanting shared custody is it.

Aww that's really nice. It's so lovely when you find someone that cares about you & you remember what it's like to be happy in a relationship. stupid question but is he Finnish too?

 

[Natsku]

Yeah won't look good for him but the courts are very keen on shared custody here, its only extreme circumstances or if the ex's can't cooperate at all that they give single custody so I doubt a bit of messing me around will change things.

Yeah he's Finnish. His English isn't as good as my ex's and he has this cute Finnish habit of missing out little words like 'a' and 'an' and 'the' - its adorable. And getting he and she mixed up

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Ahh I see. I suppose that's good for the children. Especially when they're Maria's age & used to having both parents around.

Aww bless. I'm a tad jealous. Finnish guys are cute!! (I like a few Finnish rock bands.) in sure you can teach him proper English

 

[Lettuce]

Yay for the new fella nats. But stupid ex.
Tanya, I reckon he'll be open to a discussion on it. Maybe record things like how he met oh's mum, what it was like when he became a grandad, anything at all. I wish I had a video if my gran and grandad, I can't remember their voice.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Lettuce

But that is a really good idea. He might want to do a video diary for you all.

 

[Cupkake.Luver]

MIL:

You're a complete jerk.


The end.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Hope your okay

 

[Natsku]

Ahh I see. I suppose that's good for the children. Especially when they're Maria's age & used to having both parents around.

Aww bless. I'm a tad jealous. Finnish guys are cute!! (I like a few Finnish rock bands.) in sure you can teach him proper English

I like his slightly bad English though. He couldn't think of the word rollercoaster today so he described it as a 'sled that goes wheeeeeeeeeeee'

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Accurate though.

 

[tanya]

Fil has agreed to go into a hospice, mil is disabled herself and can't care for him, I'm going to have a look round tomorrow but it sounds amazing! His own room with ensuite, one wall is full one way glass so he can see out but no one can see in, his own private balcony overlooking the duck pond and his own tv ad sky box (his favorite part lol)
We can visit whenever we want and Flynn can play in the grounds with him. Mil can even stay overnight if she wants. He gets two weeks there then theyll assess if he's strong enough to go home.
Fil is in good spirits apparently he was talking to dh about it and said "it's so great people are dying to get in!"
Dh sat down with him today just te two I then and had a frank discussion, he doest know how long he's got but he didn't want to know, he knows it's not long.
Brain scan came back clear so now he's off the morphine an on better painkillers we should get fil as he should be till the end.
He brought up the idea of borrowing a video camera and making everyone a video for after and one for Flynn to remind him and he wants to do some cards and letters for him too.
It's been a hard day but a good one.

Flynn had his 12mth jabs today! Horrific! He cried loads and bled too, it's the heat apparently, I had to go alone coz everyone was busy. Brix were shat.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Oh Tanya, I don't know what to say hun. Sending you huge

Also...poor Flynn, I hope he's feeling better.

 

[Fergie]

Hugs @Tanya

I see i have missed quite a lot on here. I hope you are all doing well though

 

[Gunnhilde]

Tanya. My dad is in hospice now and we're having a meeting with the oncologist tonight to get towards moving him to a facility.

It is a lot to bear, isn't it?

 

[Lettuce]

Tanya, I hope he is comfortable.

Fergie! Was thinking of you yesterday, how'd the move go?

I want to be pregnant again so bad! Lol! Seeing my SILs tummy rolling around, I miss it!

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I'm with you there Lettuce. I really really wanna be pregnant again.

Weather, please cool down a bit, my poor wee boy is melting ):

But...stay nice til thursday. I really wanna go to the park with my in-laws (I must be mad )