Things I cannot say out loud....

[Fergie]

Thanks Lettuce

The move went fabby. We love it here, it's so quiet well apart from the occasional runaway bull and we've adopted the farm cat (he's 17 years old) who appeared the day after we moved in and has never left Boos side. They are the best of friends . My darling OH has also bought me a 4X4 (we'll need it for the winter), so i just need to pass my test now .
That shop we did in Tescos was the best thing we ever did. We went in for nappies and came out with a house and a new job .

On the downside ... I BLOODY HATE YOU BT. Scummy gits left us without a phone, broadband or tv until today and it should have been on 2 weeks ago and still thought it was okay to charge us for it !. I don't bloody think so and after a rather heated "debate" with management they have agreed to not charge us for the month and the connection fee.

Ahh the joy of being back online though, i've missed you all

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Okay, Fergie, when are you coming to visit me?

 

[Lettuce]

yay!! so glad it's gone well, apart from bt, all communications companies are shit tho.

 

[Lettuce]

Ha, I'm off tomorrow, I'm going to Perth now...
Hey Ozzie, where's your pics!?

 

[Ozzieshunni]

I took them off for a bit. I'm trying to maintain a low profile for a while.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I was wondering that Ozzie, it makes sense now. But you shouldn't have to feel like that.

 

[Natsku]

Tanya

Hi Fergie! Glad the move went well!

Sleep: Why are you avoiding me? I want to sleep damnit and cuddle with my nice fella but I can't sleep and keep waking him up

 

[Ozzieshunni]

It's okay, Broken, don't worry. I seem to be getting lumped in with people and targeted lately, but I won't talk about that here.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

She was so tiny and innocent! Why the hell did she have to die?!?! Fuck you world. Just fuck you.

One of the little baby girls in my heart block group passed away from pacemaker complications. Hits home and I'm flashing back to when I was told that there was the chance Alex could have died. Why does this shit happen?

 

[Natsku]

Thats so sad poor little baby and poor poor parents

 

[Ozzieshunni]

It was so sudden! She was doing well and then her lung collapsed and then that was it.

 

[CazM 2011]

Thats heartbreaking Ozzie, those poor parents and little girl, thinking of them today, i'm so sorry that it has brought such a hard time back for you aswell xx

Everyone seems to be having a crap time recently to everyone who needs them.

Just a quick something i cant say outloud because i sound about 5 years old!!
I'm so scared about going to the doctors tomorrow because he has to look down there and its not right after birth and i'm worried he wont be able to fix me and then i'm worried i'll have to have an operation and Emma wont take any formula and i can't express much so how will she eat and i wont be apart from her for long because she does not settle without me, i think i'm overthinking it

 

[Natsku]

hope everything is ok and you don't need an operation

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Oh Ozzie that's heartbreaking My thoughts go out to her parents. Fly high little one ):

Cam I'm sure it will be okay & your doctor will sort it

OH what the hell is wrong with you! Why can you not leave the butter in a fit state. thanks for today though, & I'm so glad your staying longer this week

Mum: thanks for having Josh this weekend, I really need a break

 

[Lettuce]

Oh Ozzie they're in my thoughts and prayers.

cam, hope its ok. Xx

Me:it is not ok to be smug about your baby being the cutest.

 

[tanya]

Ozzie that's awful! There should be a ruling that babies don't die.
Fergie: I knew nothing about hospices before this, I thought it was where you went to die but I've visited where he will go today ad it's lovely! Theyre hoping to build him up enough to go home, he'll never be strong enough for treatment it's progressing too fast, but hopefully they can make him comfortable. If he doesn't want to go ill move in, it's nicer than my house!!
Cam: I hope it's not too bad, mine isn't the same since, I tore pretty badly and no one ever checked my stitches or how I was healing so it feels different now and *tmi* there's a little ridge/scar running from my urethra into my whoo whoo (I tore into my urethra ouch) I can also feel other scars down there and little bumps etc, I was worried that dh would be freaked out by it but he likes it...

Fil has had a bad day today, he was so lucid yesterday we all got our hopes up, today he's been really confused. Maybe tomorrow he will be lucid again?
Hopefully he can get in the hospice before the weeken it's their 40th wedding anniversary on saturday.

 

[Fergie]

to all who need one.

Thanks Nats . I see you've got a new hot water bottle .

To SS - Stop lying about things. You won't get into trouble for telling the truth but the lying is beginning to grate on my nerves.

To OH - You're a prat, but i love you.

To me - Stop hoarding Irn Bru, it's childish .

 

[Natsku]

I want Irn Bru!!!

And I miss my new hot water bottle

 

[CazM 2011]

Thank you everyone, I know I've got to suck it up and go, everything down there is wrong I'm in pain every day mostly. I've got ridges and bumps and I was fobbed off that it was normal but surely over 4 months later it shouldn't hurt so much?

 

[Natsku]

Don't think it should hurt so much at this point