Things I cannot say out loud....

[cowboys angel]

Just...just....

"fuck you"

What!? Lol

 

[Lettuce]

Just seemed like a good response to everything, ever.

 

[kes_a]

Im very lucky my FIL disappeared of the face of the planet.sounds horrible i no but he was a nasty drunk dirty old man and i know i would have had problems with him if he was still about.not that id ever tell DH im glad his dad upped and left.

 

[cowboys angel]

Haha it works for almost everything, and it's the extent of what my brain can handle at the moment.

 

[MrsPOP]

Argh!!!!

Ex-SIL: you are a total See You Next Tuesday!!!! I can't believe you've broken my brother's heart and destroyed my niece's family just because you're 30 and having some sort of midlife crisis and wanting to go out and get pissed all the time. Dog.

 

[kit10grl]

Dad - your an asshole, Grow up, grow a pair and realise its about more than just you. I am glad my perfect baby boy will likely never know you. You however should know you are missing out on my perfect boy and the 10 other grand kids who are getting on fine without you. Did you know they never even ask for you?

My only regret is that we no longer see our sister and have never even met the other sister. I hope one day they see you fop the shitty father that you actually are as i have no doubt you will eventuallly let them down the way you let the rest of us down

 

[MissFox]

Lady today: I hate you. You have made me hate my body even more and that's nit OK. I do.t care that youyou are from France and thy doesn't give you the right to insult me body in front of 20+ women. I'm now 13kbs lighter than when I got pregnant you cow!

 

[Odd Socks]

OH : Seeing as you're home today & Bella's going to the childminder, it'll be nice if you could do a little housework. Unlike yesterday, when I came home to a sink full of washing up, 3 clothes maidens full of dry clothes to put away & Bella's pyjamas from 12 hours before, in the middle of the living room floor.

I know you're signed off with stress, but seriously, a little help around the flat would be nice.

Oh, & stop suggesting making things like pancakes when you get home with Bella. It's on par with you wanting to have an iced finger, & sharing it with her for breakfast, or eating a chocolate bar in front of her. She does not need all that sugar.

You're driving me fucking nuts at the moment. I love you, but still. Fucking nuts, you get it?

Dear morning sickness : Please find someone else to bug now. Thanks.

 

[Kalah]

to OH: Just leave the discipline to me ok! You can't keep arguing every choice I make saying it's dumb or it won't work. I don't see you reading anything about parenting yet I'm reading about it everyday so I can learn how Kili is supposed to be acting at this age and what forms of dicipline she's even capable of learning from. If you're not going to bother doing any research yourself then just stay out of it and let me do it myself! You just want to shout no and make her cry, which then makes her scared and run to me for hugs and makes me pissed off at you for upsetting her. Especially when you tell her no for something she IS allowed to have, you're confusing her!! How about you just do what you do best and go back to sleep.

 

[Emmy1987]

To OH - announcing all over FB that your life is now lame hurts. I moved two hours away from my job, my friends and my family to follow you down to your new job. At least you have people to talk to other than a screaming baby.

Sorry that's not enough for you

 

[Kalah]

A few more to OH:

Clean your f***ing cans up!!! I am so sick of your coke cans piling up it is not that hard to just put them in the kitchen so I can put them out for recycling!
I clean them up every single morning, like that's what I need to be doing when I've just woke up and I have to toddler I need to quickly appease with food and milk but I can't because she has an obsession with trying to attack shiny silver coke cans so I have to first throw them all out, one at a time because I have to hold her on one arm.

Yes I realise you cleaned up her toys off the floor after I went to bed, thank you, but I would rather you just THROW OUT YOUR DAMN COKE CANS instead.

I'm sorry that you have a distended hemmoroid, but you have gone to the GP and he gave your cream for it, USE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FFS I need your help around the house stop saying you can't get up because it hurts then not even bother to use the cream, I'm losing patience. And don't forget you're not the only one in pain, have you forgotten about my recent chest pains I'm getting from stress? I'm on day 6 now, they're still going strong, GP told me to do less around the house so I need your help! And don't forget about my wear sore knees, they've been like this for over a year and yes they're getting better but I still can't be going up and down stairs or bending over a lot.

And when I tell you I need your help around the house DO NOT say "with what, you don't do anything" I don't do anything, really? I push through all the pain and tiredness I have everyday, I take 6 different pills every morning, washed down with a coffee, because I HAVE to get on with the day. In case you've forgotten we have a toddler, her name is Kili, she likes to get into things and climb stuff and make messes, remember her? I clean what I can every day but you don't wake up to even see it until late in the afternoon when I've already made dinner, she's been playing and making a new mess, and we've both just ate so yes there is food out because I don't clean up the food until AFTER I eat and rest a few minutes!

And ffs I wanted to rip your head off the other night when we were talking about me not cleaning and you said "I know you haven't cleaned the kitchen in at least 3 days because the same spot of powder has been on the counter in the same spot for 3 days" so you've been looking at the spot just not cleaning it up WTF?! You do realize that her formula is made of powder so yes powder ends up on the counter everyday, I clean it up one time per day rather than 5 to save on cloths and cleaning products.

I love you but seriously you're so pessimistic you just piss me off most of the day. You take up space and make messes. You barely help with anything, you complain that I don't do enough, and you don't do anything. You don't work, you don't clean. You sleep, you watch tv, and you eat. Oh yes and you pick up the toys off the floor after I go to bed, all hail the all mighty god of toy cleaning.
At this point I'd rather you just stay in bed all day and stay out of my way. You just make me more annoyed and get in the way anyway. I don't care if you're depressed, so am I and I take my medication for it you choose not to take yours. I don't care if you have anxiety, so do I and I take my medication for it but you choose not to. I don't care if you are in pain, so am I and I don't even have medication for it I just get on with things because I have to. I don't even care that you're schizophrenic, you told me many times it doesn't bother you and you're used to it. And no I'm not going to have sex with you at the end of the day, I'm tired. Want me to be less tired, help around the house instead of just telling me to do less. If I do less you'll complain about that too anyway. No I don't want to kiss you, you don't brush your teeth you have bad breath. No I don't want to hug you, when's the last time you had a bath? I love and care about you because you are a loving person, but you piss me off so go away k?

 

[Lettuce]

Wow! can I just say he needs his ass kicked...? can I do it?!

 

[Kalah]

Wow! can I just say he needs his ass kicked...? can I do it?!

You don't even know how many times a day I have to refrain from hitting him on the head with whatever is in my hands. He's just so pessimistic ALLLLLLLL the time. He likes to complain about things that need to be done but never bothers to get up and do them. He gets mad when I open his mail (which I only do when the enveloped is clearly marked with where it's from and I know it's regarding one of our bills) but if I didn't open it so many things wouldn't get done!

I hate how he's always negative though. Like when I say I have any sort of pain, which I have all the time and rarely mention to him, he just complains about me having pain! He should be telling me to sit and rest or giving me a hug or just something comforting. Instead he says it's all in my head, or it's impossible for me to have so many things wrong with me, or it's impossible to just have random pains. Then when I say it isn't random it's all the time he says "well you never tell me about it, if it was that bad you would say something" yeah and have this argument with you about me hurting..I'll pass.

He says he wants me to talk to him more about what's on my mind and everything but I can't. If I do he just belittles everything and tries to convince me none of it is actually happening, what's that about?!
It's not just all going to go away because he thinks it doesn't make sense. Oh and I've said all this to him before too and even that turned into an argument. Everything turns into an argument so I just decided not to talk to him about things anymore, I don't have the energy for it anymore.

 

[Lettuce]

I know that feeling of not bothering to tell them! sounds like he needs to straighten up and fly right! As my gran would say! I understand mental illness (bro with bad depression, me with anxiety/depression) but I know it's also so frustrating when they won't take their meds to help!
My oh does it on a smaller scale - he has a headache and moans, I say, take some painkillers, he doesn't bother, moans a while later and I say, have you taken pain relief? No, well, don't moan then! if he has taken med I will be sŷmpathetic.
Is there anyone you could talk to about getting help? It's too much for you to have to deal with! ESP if you have chronic pain! xx

 

[Kalah]

I know that feeling of not bothering to tell them! sounds like he needs to straighten up and fly right! As my gran would say! I understand mental illness (bro with bad depression, me with anxiety/depression) but I know it's also so frustrating when they won't take their meds to help!
My oh does it on a smaller scale - he has a headache and moans, I say, take some painkillers, he doesn't bother, moans a while later and I say, have you taken pain relief? No, well, don't moan then! if he has taken med I will be sŷmpathetic.
Is there anyone you could talk to about getting help? It's too much for you to have to deal with! ESP if you have chronic pain! xx

Yeah I'm trying to get my problems dealt with now, I'm waiting to start therapy now and am on some medications. I just had some blood tests done to see if I have any problems with my thyroid because my mood problems aren't getting much better with medication. So I'm anxiously awaiting the results on that! I've given up on trying to help him, I did try and even got my HV involved with trying to help him but he just doesn't want help so I've decided to just basically ignore him when he's complaining, and most of the time in general!

 

[Lettuce]

Good, glad you're getting somewhere with your own stuff, as to him... You can lead a horse to water.... *sigh*

P.s. Love the new sig! x

 

[Kalah]

Good, glad you're getting somewhere with your own stuff, as to him... You can lead a horse to water.... *sigh*

P.s. Love the new sig! x

You can lead a horse to water but you have to wait till he's asleep to drown him in it!

and thanks =) It was my little project during Kili's nap, forced me to relax!

 

[MrsNovBaby]

To my Mum, If you call and wake LO from his nap, I will tell you that you have woken the baby, I will tell anyone who calls and wakes him from his nap that is what has happened. And that is why he is crying. I will not refrain from telling you incase it hurts your feelings. Get over it.

 

[Odd Socks]

Dear Knobhead,

Remember how you fucked me up all that time ago? How you strung me along & used me to make yourself feel better, but had your other but on the side too? & then wondered why on earth I didn't want to speak to you?

Karma's a bitch (at least, that's probably what you're thinking right now). So, you met a girl who you thought would make you change your ways, & she's simply "fucked you over"? You deserve it. Karma's the best bitch ever!

This has made my evening.

Dear OH,

Sorry, I've eaten the whole bag of maltesers you had in the fridge.

xx

 

[MrsPOP]

^^ haha, that's brilliant D!

Dear my labour/birth/postnatal care - I know it's only been 18 days but it's going to take me a long time to get over you. I thought I was doing so well and I am, just a moment of weakness tonight Reading a great friend's amazing birth story and wishing with all my heart I could have had some of her experience than the one I had. Especially as the next time I give birth (if I ever get the courage up to have another child) my mum will very likely be dead and she went through that hell with me. I wanted it to be wonderful for her.

I hate you though, I don't think many people understand how awful it was. People say I should just get over it and be happy we made it through safely and I am. But the experience really affected how I've bonded with my daughter. And I love her, God I love her. But the experience of her birth and the crazy first few weeks of getting used a newborn sometimes makes me wonder why I got pregnant in the first place and I worry so much how we're going to cope; when I go back to work, when my mum dies.

I hate you, thinking about you has made me cry when I had been doing so well and not cried today.

People say it ges easier, boy do I hope so.