Things I cannot say out loud....

[MissFox]

Dear poison oak: GO AWAY FOR GOOD. I do not like getting you all the time. I am sick of being itchy and I'm pretty sure I haven't touched you in weeks.

 

[HungryHippo]

That I was TERRIFIED of my LO after she was born. I mean TERRIFIED! I wanted to hire a full time nanny asap and go lock myself in a closet. Now that the 2-week fog has passed I feel somewhat human again - but am ashamed at how big of of a ninny I was about her at first.

 

[Kalah]

That I was TERRIFIED of my LO after she was born. I mean TERRIFIED! I wanted to hire a full time nanny asap and go lock myself in a closet. Now that the 2-week fog has passed I feel somewhat human again - but am ashamed at how big of of a ninny I was about her at first.

Aww you don't have to feel ashamed, you would be shocked to know how many other mothers feel the same at first, we just don't always admit it. I'll admit the first few weeks I definitely was NOT happy with motherhood and actually hated it a lot of time time. A baby that only screams and eats and sleeps but doesn't let me sleep, it's no surprise a lot of moms have quite a hard time with that. As you've learned it gets better, but most moms are terrified and lost and angry those first few weeks!

It's funny I look back on it now and think "well it wasn't that hard, she actually slept most of the day" and I think of all sorts of things I could have done differently to make it easier. But I vividly remember it being very hard! I don't know why it seems so much more difficult than it is but having a baby for the first time is such a huge shock, it's almost traumatic really. Hormones change suddenly, body is sore but can't get enough rest, baby doesn't interact yet just cry,eat,sleep. then if you breastfeed that hurts too, or of you do bottles you have to constantly be getting up to make them and sterilize things, it's all just a big jumbled mess when it's happening!

 

[shambaby]

That I was TERRIFIED of my LO after she was born. I mean TERRIFIED! I wanted to hire a full time nanny asap and go lock myself in a closet. Now that the 2-week fog has passed I feel somewhat human again - but am ashamed at how big of of a ninny I was about her at first.

don't be ashamed - newborns are SCARY creatures! i think all new parents probably feel at least a little bit like that. it gets better as they get older, although hayden's getting a bit scary again now he has teeth!!!

to my hubby - yes, i know i have been spending more on the weekly shop lately, but there are 3 of us now. hayden may only be small, but he needs a lot of stuff, like nappies, baby wipes and formula milk, and they are not cheap. and he EATS! so that's food for 3 people, not 2. if you think you can get all that stuff for the same as we used to spend on just us, please go ahead. the reason it didn't go up so much until the last few months is because up until then i was spending several hours of my day making his food with my own body. i'm sorry i can't do that any more, but my boobs don't make roast chicken, or pasta and sauce. and i just couldn't spend my days attached to that viscious evil mooing contraption of a tommee tippee pump we have, so once the breast start one was taken back i couldn't even do milk any more. and stop making me feel so guilty for buying him clothes that i end up getting them with my credit card, which i will have to pay back myself once i am back at work instead of using the joint account, while you apparently seem to have the spare cash to buy yourself endless stupid old doctor who dvd's. they are not a luxury, or a trat for me - they are an essential purchase for OUR son - i think someone might be calling social services if we start taking him out and about with nothing on!

to my boobs - please stop leaking. i already feel like such a failure for not managing to actually breastfeed, and for stopping expressing when i was still producing plenty of milk. i just couldn't do it any more (see above). it has been 3 months, seriously, get the message and dry up!

 

[Scarlett316]

Dh - fuck off out of my face today or I might say something I'll regret.

 

[BabyBoo36]

To OH

Thats it. Enough is enough. I'm done. I cannot keep having the same fight with you day after day, so I won't be having it again. I love you more than life, but you have really let me down. I will do all the baby care for our beautiful daughter. I will see her smile and giggle, coo and babble. Your "I can't feed her, she doesn't like me doing it" excuses have worn too thin. Have you ever thought that the reason she doesn't like you feeding her is because you have no patience, give up as soon as she spits a bit out, and hand her back to me? Who the feck do I get to give her to at 4am, when she's fidgeting and spitting it out? No-one, so I get on with it. Next time you wake her up because you've "not had a cuddle", over stimulate her and then pass her to me to calm her down and get her to sleep, I will slap you. I swore she would not grow up as I did - with a father who made her feel that the TV/computer/news etc was more important than her, but I guess that's what's going to happen as you're either too stubborn or too ignorant to change. If it wasn't for the fact that e-mails/skype and FB are the easiest way for both my family and best friend to see LO from hundreds of miles away, I would cancel the internet, but why should I suffer because you're too obsessed to moderate your time on it? You are 37, not 17. And quit with the "I'm a crap father" whinge. I never said that - I said you are a bloody lazy father. You would make a brilliant father if you actually got off your arse and did it.

And I should not have to tell you 4 times to stop touching me up. Once should have been enough. I have not had my post natal check yet, and have a hole in my wound the size of a drawing pin head. I do not want sex at the moment, and quite frankly, after how you've been acting, you'll be lucky to get it at all. Next time, I will carry throu my threat to sleep on the sofa. And don't you EVER dare moan again that I am not paying you enough attention. If you pay me and your daughter some attention, maybe I'll bother paying you some. But, what's that, sorry? Oh yeah, you're too busy on FB.

I really needed to get that out....

 

[fidget]

Dear oh- if I ask you to watch the baby whilst I cook your dinner, I mean watch him. Not leave him on the floor to 'play' while u sit on fb and ignore him. He's not moaning because he's hungry, he's bored - play with him! And if u rock him to sleep in his bouncer an hour before bedtime again, and then moan that he's a pain to get to bed when u have the tv up way to loud, I will hit u. Hard.
Also, you can't just put his dummy in and walk out the room - i don't sit there And pat his bum for the good only my health, it really is the only way be will go to sleep in hus own bed.

 

[KittenKat]

Dear anyone who will listen for more than a second....

I am exhausted, I am at the verge of tearing my hair out, I am constantly hungery and guess what I do not want to phone our housing providers just to find out something I to be honest have very little interest in. I am just counting the days if not hours until OH is off work for our holiday that I really am not looking forward to because I can for the days before we leave be left alone with the kids yet again or be taking them all to the supermarket to get the food for the drive to the port

 

[ClaireMuir123]

To my boobs - I thought you'd stopped making milk, so why is there still stuff leaking from me?!?! All you're doing is teasing me and my daughter just does not want to take the boob!! Piss off mow xxx

 

[MrsPOP]

Dear Nurse - don't ask me if I'm ok and when I tell you my daughter has a heart defect be all dismissive and say how you 'know I want everything to be perfect'. No I don't want everything to be perfect you douchefucker, I just want my little girl to be okay. How about you shut the fuck up and dress my stupid gaping c section wound and let me get home to cuddle my gorgeous princess.

Dear in laws - thanks for the offer of taking LO for an hour so we can get some sleep. It's only taken you 3 and a half fucking weeks to realise we're a bit tired and could maybe use a bit of help from our families. You assmunchers.

Dear ex-SIL - you lying cheating whore.

 

[HungryHippo]

To my stepmother: today was DH's 1st day back to work and you knew I'd be scared $hitless being all by myself with the baby. Thanks A LOT for canceling this morning on me. Appreciate it.

 

[NewMummyx]

Dear Alice's Heart - why do you have to have a defect? I know its small, I know she'll probably be ok but WHY? She doesnt deserve this. She's been through ENOUGH. IVE Been through enough. WHAT THE FCK HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE ALL WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS PAST YEAR????????????????????

My LO still has a murmur and if the Dr can hear it at his next checkup we have to go to hospital. After him spending the first week of his life in Neonatal I dont think i can cope if he has to go back in Stay strong hun

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Dear Alice's Heart - why do you have to have a defect? I know its small, I know she'll probably be ok but WHY? She doesnt deserve this. She's been through ENOUGH. IVE Been through enough. WHAT THE FCK HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE ALL WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS PAST YEAR????????????????????

My LO still has a murmur and if the Dr can hear it at his next checkup we have to go to hospital. After him spending the first week of his life in Neonatal I dont think i can cope if he has to go back in Stay strong hun

no one but a heart momma can ever really understand and stupid midwives and doctors that think otherwise are kidding themselves.

 

[MrsPOP]

Dear Alice's Heart - why do you have to have a defect? I know its small, I know she'll probably be ok but WHY? She doesnt deserve this. She's been through ENOUGH. IVE Been through enough. WHAT THE FCK HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE ALL WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS PAST YEAR????????????????????

My LO still has a murmur and if the Dr can hear it at his next checkup we have to go to hospital. After him spending the first week of his life in Neonatal I dont think i can cope if he has to go back in Stay strong hun

no one but a heart momma can ever really understand and stupid midwives and doctors that think otherwise are kidding themselves.

I'm a Heart Mummy AND a Doctor! It's so hard, because I know so well what can happen for some reason I keep getting flashbacks of a couple of years ago when I was working in the hospital my LO is under the care of and sitting in a lecture about Congenital Heart Defects and finding them so difficult to understand...little did I know 2 years down the line I would understand them all too much

 

[Lettuce]

to you all....
Time for my Thursday night rant... (have dinner at mil's on Thursday's)
DH, when I say it's time to leave, it's time to leave....

That is all. X

 

[welshmummy2be]

Dear Alice's Heart - why do you have to have a defect? I know its small, I know she'll probably be ok but WHY? She doesnt deserve this. She's been through ENOUGH. IVE Been through enough. WHAT THE FCK HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE ALL WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS PAST YEAR????????????????????

My LO still has a murmur and if the Dr can hear it at his next checkup we have to go to hospital. After him spending the first week of his life in Neonatal I dont think i can cope if he has to go back in Stay strong hun

no one but a heart momma can ever really understand and stupid midwives and doctors that think otherwise are kidding themselves.

I'm a Heart Mummy AND a Doctor! It's so hard, because I know so well what can happen for some reason I keep getting flashbacks of a couple of years ago when I was working in the hospital my LO is under the care of and sitting in a lecture about Congenital Heart Defects and finding them so difficult to understand...little did I know 2 years down the line I would understand them all too much

hope you dont mind me adding in im a heart mamma 2 my LO spent her first 6 days in neonatal, born premature with a heart murmur, hypoglacemia, jaudice and breathing difficultuies. i thank good she recovered quickly from everything else but this heart murmur has been worrying my greatly as i now all to well how heart defects can affect lives (my older brother has open valves and had open heart operations as a baby and is now on the waiting list for another)


SO HERE'S WHAT I CANT SAY OUT ALLOWED...HEART PROBLEMS GO SCREW YOURSELF AND DO ONE, ITS TAKEN ME 3 YEARS, 2MISCARRIGES AND A LOT OF HEART ACHE TO GET MY LITTLE GIRL. I WILL NOT LET YOU DEFEAT US, YOU WILL NOT GET THE BETTER OF US, YOU WILL GO AWAY AND MY LITTLE GIRL WILL BE ABLE TO ANYTHING SHE DESIRES IN LIFE WITHOUT YOU DAMPENING HER DAYS.

 

[divadexie]

to everyone

OH I KNOW we have no money. STOP going on and ON at me that I should get a job. I HAVE a job. It's called being a full time mum and house cleaner, dinner lady, laundry woman... I do not have TIME to get a job. Maybe if you actually helped a bit more WITHOUT my having to ask you- more than once- to do something! Are you BLIND??? Or is that pile of washing at the top of the stairs going to magically put itself away? Are the dishes going to get into the dishwasher by themselves???? you infuriate me!

You wonder why DS always say ''im just watching this bit'' or ''i was just...'' because he is coppying YOU and the next time dinner is ready (by the way it didn't make itsself while you were glued to the screen) and I ask you to put the game off and you say ''I am just...'' I am going to pull the fucking plug out!!!!

oh, and ps, when the hamster gets old and dies, I AM having pet rats again. End of.


HV- how DARE you make my baby howl like that trying to force her to straighten her leg so you can measure her. You have NO IDEA how close I was to punching you!!!!!


MUM- Grow the FCK up!!!! You two faced COW!! So what, you don't like your neighbour. I don't care. I will not be deleting her off my FB. Shes quite nice when you get talking to her.

DONT tell me how your partner wants a dog. I have not and never will forgive you for not letting me bring my dog with me, because you don't like pets, or dogs for that matter, when I was forced to move home due to depression. The day you let a dog walk into your house, is the day you lose me. I am your DAUGHTER yet you will consider letting your partner have a dog when I had to rehome my baby? FCK OFF!!!!



Lady in co op - I AM TWENTY SIX stop refusing me tobacco its for OH not for me and you are making me have to carry my shopping even further because you are a stupid old controlling bag.



Sister- I know you love you job but please don't go away all winter too I have only seen you once since march you cant go away over xmas!

 

[alocin22]

To my dear Nan....Just because my LO had a very low birth weight does not mean that she is slow at learning. Her big cousin is 4 months ahead and so she will do things a lot sooner than her. Also... NO she does not have anything medically wrong with her so everytime she crys does not mean i should book a doctors appointment to get her checked out..... and also she is not the only baby to bring up milk every now and then.
To my Aunt.... Please can you stop telling me that you expected to hear the worst about LO after you was told her birth weight... she was just small but most of all PERFECTLY Healthy!!!!
Rant Over.
xx

 

[HungryHippo]

Dear Baby, you're not even 3 weeks old and have been awake for 12 hours. Please go the !@#$ to sleep. Love, Mom

 

[krys]

To MIL:

Stop asking Madison if she was a "good girl today". She isn't even two weeks old. There is no possible way that she wasn't a good girl.

You can lie and say that you quit smoking, but when you come home smelling like Bath and Body Works, it's obvious what you're trying to cover up.

Don't bitch about not getting to hold her enough!!! Especially when you haven't asked to hold her today, I'm not just gonna hand her to you because I want to hold her! She's MY kid, I carried her for 41 weeks and if I want to hold her 24/7 I will!!!!

Quit telling me every time I walk by that I'm such a good mom and you can't believe it. I know I'm a good mom, I try really hard. Not only am I sick of hearing it, but what, did you think I'd be a bad mom????

No, you can't hold her right now. It took me an hour to get her to fall asleep, and I'd rather you not wake her up!

If you didn't live with me, you wouldn't get to see LO every single day. Don't take advantage of that.



Right this second, I'm onthe couch and Madison is sleeping in my lap. MIL has been staring at her for the last 10 minutes. GET A FREAKING LIFE, and you see that I'm angrily typing on my phone so stop trying to talk to me.




She drives me nuts