Things I cannot say out loud....

[Kalah]

DH I appreciate you changing wee man but did you have to wake him up to the point of me having to spend the next hour resettling him? This is twice now you've done this tonight! Oh and I just love waking up at four am to find you awake and on the computer drinking!

wow

I swear women must just be so much more advanced than men. They tend to think having a baby is sooooo hard even though they only do 2% of the actual taking care of baby.

Oh and you know what I hate... "just relax"! I HATE when OH would tell me to just relax, as if it was so simple and I was purposely being stressed. I think if people could "just relax" they would. If I just "relaxed" then nothing would ever get done, there'd be no clean dishes, no clean clothes, a screaming baby, a filthy house, and he's be complaining about how I need to do more

 

[Lettuce]

Dear mind...
Please please switch off the flashbacks of the labour, it makes me feel miserable and frightened! I know what happened, I know it wasn't my fault, but dear lord above, why must you twist the facts to make it see that way...?
I can still hear the midwife say "is it ok if a student comes in, she's in her final year and you're the most likely t have a nice straightforward delivery, so can she help deliver?"
I should have known... Kiss of death. I wish you would stop bringing it up, ESP when I'm in the shower, that's the only place I get peace. If I could do anything to change it, I would.
To all those who had a vaginal delivery, I'm jealous, I admit it! im sorry - it's not your fault I feel like a failure and less of a woman. I used to love all the birth programs, now I can't watch, it upsets me too much.

 

[ablacketer]

to my exhusband: thank you for trying to make our "halfway point" 30 miles longer for us than yourself and through a big city and all the traffic. we caught it and made you change it just in time.

also, please tell me why I am getting phone calls from our bank about life insurance on our daughter... you have custody of our son I have custody of our daughter and you dnt pay a penny towards her care/raising. what makes you think you are entitled to a payout if anything happens to her?

 

[Ozzieshunni]

DH I appreciate you changing wee man but did you have to wake him up to the point of me having to spend the next hour resettling him? This is twice now you've done this tonight! Oh and I just love waking up at four am to find you awake and on the computer drinking!

wow

I swear women must just be so much more advanced than men. They tend to think having a baby is sooooo hard even though they only do 2% of the actual taking care of baby.

Oh and you know what I hate... "just relax"! I HATE when OH would tell me to just relax, as if it was so simple and I was purposely being stressed. I think if people could "just relax" they would. If I just "relaxed" then nothing would ever get done, there'd be no clean dishes, no clean clothes, a screaming baby, a filthy house, and he's be complaining about how I need to do more

Oh yeah! And he wonders why I'm a cranky bitch

 

[Kalah]

DH I appreciate you changing wee man but did you have to wake him up to the point of me having to spend the next hour resettling him? This is twice now you've done this tonight! Oh and I just love waking up at four am to find you awake and on the computer drinking!

wow

I swear women must just be so much more advanced than men. They tend to think having a baby is sooooo hard even though they only do 2% of the actual taking care of baby.

Oh and you know what I hate... "just relax"! I HATE when OH would tell me to just relax, as if it was so simple and I was purposely being stressed. I think if people could "just relax" they would. If I just "relaxed" then nothing would ever get done, there'd be no clean dishes, no clean clothes, a screaming baby, a filthy house, and he's be complaining about how I need to do more

Oh yeah! And he wonders why I'm a cranky bitch

Yeah mine wonders the same about me! And he can't figure out why I don't want to have sex..hmm maybe it's to do with the fact that you piss me off constantly and never show affection? Yeah..that would be why.

 

[lindseymw]

To stupid bint over the road:

Please can you park properly so I'm not blocked in when you piss of out with your friends! I need to go f**king shopping!

To Jacob:

Please please please will you let me put you down for 5mins without crying so I can do some housework.

To Joshua:

You are not having biscuits for breakfast, dinner or tea, please stop asking. Oh & stop turning the washing machine off mid cycle. It's really starting to annoy mammy. Please can I turn CBeebies off, you're not even watching it, I'm getting sick of Teletubbies, Waybuloo & Come Outside.

To my DH:

If you come in from work & say you are going straight back out to help your brother again, I will kill you, he's a tw*t & never helped us.

 

[chichestermum]

To stupid bint over the road:

Please can you park properly so I'm not blocked in when you piss of out with your friends! I need to go f**king shopping!

To Jacob:

Please please please will you let me put you down for 5mins without crying so I can do some housework.

To Joshua:

You are not having biscuits for breakfast, dinner or tea, please stop asking. Oh & stop turning the washing machine off mid cycle. It's really starting to annoy mammy. Please can I turn CBeebies off, you're not even watching it, I'm getting sick of Teletubbies, Waybuloo & Come Outside.

To my DH:

If you come in from work & say you are going straight back out to help your brother again, I will kill you, he's a tw*t & never helped us.

haha all my DD wants for every meal is lolly ices with sketti! at least its something different to say no to, last month all she wanted was fish fingers down to OH reading barry the fish with fingers every night!

ooo and to get cbeebies off try recording the screen at the end of the day, you know the green 1 with see you tomoz at 7, i recorded that and i put it on when she says she wants beebies! she sees its finished and happily accepts that and listens to the music channels instead lol!

 

[keeks1987]

/\ Genius idea!

 

[Kalah]

Well, I can say this out loud, but I'm going to wait a few hours.. I've just changed my flights back home so instead of going in 2 weeks I'm leaving in 4 days!

 

[Lettuce]

Well, I can say this out loud, but I'm going to wait a few hours.. I've just changed my flights back home so instead of going in 2 weeks I'm leaving in 4 days!

lol. good for you! you will def have to say that out loud! whereabouts in the states are you off to? and more importantly, will you be able to keep us updated?! x

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Well done hun xx Is it for good?

 

[Kalah]

Well, I can say this out loud, but I'm going to wait a few hours.. I've just changed my flights back home so instead of going in 2 weeks I'm leaving in 4 days!

lol. good for you! you will def have to say that out loud! whereabouts in the states are you off to? and more importantly, will you be able to keep us updated?! x

I'll be in missouri, just outside the st. louis area!
and yes I'll definitely be able to come on here still, will probably take a few days/weeks though I'm assuming internet won't already be set up but it won't take long to get that done. I'm so excited to see everyone and do some shopping for house stuff and finally be in my own house and have some freedom! I've asked my dad to come live with me too, so I won't be completely alone but I love living with my dad he's like my best friend =)

 

[Kalah]

Well done hun xx Is it for good?

Oh yes definitely! My cousin has already bought me a house and got in all ready for me to move into, other than the few last bits but we'll get those when I arrive =)

It's like everything just happened at the right time, I wouldn't have been able to just leave like this if it wasn't for her helping me so much. I mean, not many people would buy someone a house, fill it up, then fly me out there and give me a job! It actually just makes me believe even more strongly in my faith. I'm pagan and I've always prayed to a goddess and just asked to get to where she wants me to be without going through unnecessary pain on the way there. So far I've been through a lot but I fully believe every bit of my life is just leading me to where I'm supposed to be, making me into the person I'm supposed to be. That's the only reasoning that makes sense to everything that happens to me.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

That's wonderful hun!!!! I'm so happy for you. What did your OH (ex now, I'm assuming) say?

 

[Kalah]

That's wonderful hun!!!! I'm so happy for you. What did your OH (ex now, I'm assuming) say?

Well I haven't told him about the flight change just yet, I'm going to wait until my cousin forwards me the confirmation email and everything just to make sure it's all 100% before I bring it up. He doesn't know I'm not coming back though, I'm still trying to figure out how exactly to bring that up. As much as I'd like to say it to her face to face I just don't think that's a good idea. I'm thinking I'll talk to my HV before I go and she knows how to get in contact with OH's mental health workers so I'll arrange to tell him after I've left at a time when the CPN can come talk to him soon after to make sure he's not absolutely losing his mind!

 

[Odd Socks]

Dear OH,

I know I've been at work all day & you've been out with Bella all day, but please bring her home now. I'm home alone & I want cuddles with my baby girl.

Also, I'm worried she's probably hungry as I don't think you'll have thought to have given her an afternoon snack.

Please, I want my baby home now

xx

 

[Lettuce]

Kalah, you're so brave! you deserve only good things! xx

 

[Lauki]

Kalah, I hope it all works out for you! You deserve to be happy with your little girl!! Good luck in the weeks to come =) !

 

[Kalah]

Thanks to both of you, I'm hoping everything just goes smoothly. I think the 15 hours of flying will be the most difficult part!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Ouch, I know what you mean! The flight is hell! You'll have to give me some tips about managing it with a one year old!