Things I cannot say out loud....

[lisaf]

I'd be pissed too!!

 

[Natsku]

Only reason I can't say this out loud is because there's no one around to hear it.
I'm so worried and scared and confused.
I don't have any money, like none literally zero. Kili's almost out of diapers and wipes and I have no idea what I'm going to do. I just spend today emailing tons of stores and random people on craigslist asking for diaper donations.
I can't get a job because I haven't been approved for daycare assistance. I haven't been approved for any benefits yet other than WIC so I can still get milk/bread/beans/juice, but that's all.
It's not like I've never been this poor before, but I've never been this poor with a child. Half of me is saying go into the benefits office and beg, but then I remember all the other people I've already seen do that just in the times I was in the office and it never works.

My ex has offered me to come back there (I've still got the return portion of my flight, but never planned on using it) but I can't do that. I worked so hard to get away I can't just go back, it would break my families heart.

maybe try asking in local churches, they usually want to help people in this kind of situation. Really hope you get some help soon.


To myself: I know you were excited last night to not be pregnant (and yet a teensy bit disappointed) but did you really have to drink so much??!!

 

[cowboys angel]

Kalah, for sure try churches! Also ask around about a baby pantry in your town.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Kalah. Def try different help agencies in your area. What's up with your mom? I thought she was helping you out!

OUCH OUCH OUCH! Stupid body! Why did you fall over randomly on the high street? Now your hip hurts and leg and abdomen

 

[Spunky]

Lettuce - I can't believe your DH's aunts would do that! That's just rude. I'd be pissed too.

natsku - I know what you mean about relieved but a little disappointed.

 

[sherlock]

Lettuce - I would be fuming too

 

[Lettuce]

Thanks girls! I feel validated.

Ozzie, hope you're ok! Xxx

 

[mummy2lola]

Dh-thank you for not touching a drop of alcohol for two weeks now,I was getting scared that it had gotten hold of u again there for a while.all the times I asked u not to drink and then u go and do it when I'd given up asking.I've always said u were great with Lola but since ur not drinking I've noticed the bond between u both has become soooo strong and she's really turned into a daddys girl.I know u don't like talking about drink and I won't mention this to u but with all my heart I love you and we've finally become the close family (without me moaning about him getting drunk every week) I imagined when I got pregnant xx

 

[Lettuce]

DH.... I regret not taking more photos of me with Jenny. You should have insisted, you should have said "you look great- you'll regret it if you don't." I just saw the photos of visiting time the night she was born, and I said I didn't want any photos of me (30hrs of labour, emcs, huuuuge blood loss and the same nightie) and now I've looked am I breaking my heart over the fact there's pics of everyone else with her.

I'm so so stupid! I feel like posting a thread in third tri!

 

[T8ty]

these have probably all been said but i wanted a turn after reading 16 pages

No you cant feed her.. she is breastfed...and your boobs probably dont work the same why mine do at the moment!

No i am not a cow ...(just because i produce milk)

Formular may have been easier for you.. thats fine you did it your way .. not its my turn to do it my way!!!

Yes she is hungry and yes i am going to feed her here in front of every one...?!?

ITS NOT WIND....!!!!

No she isnt crying because she wants boob every 30minutes.. she might just not want to be held by you...! and if she does want feeding then I will do it because its my job.

No i dont want to express for when you come over at 6 oclock so you can give her a bottle.. ill feed and express when i want!

Yes she sleeps in her cot in her own room.. and yes i can hear her if she crys!

She isnt your 'Baby girl'... Shes mine funnily enough!

No you cant just let yourself in my house..... Because its MY house!

No you cannot bath her.. i want to

When she crys she doesnt really want to be walked around the house 1230494 times.. she quite likes just being lay on her playmat...

this is great i could go on..

 

[Lettuce]

t8ty, feel free to go on xx

 

[T8ty]

No she doesnt want to watch dora... she quite likes looking at people,smiling,giggling,rolling over.. rather than sitting watching a huge screen all day!

Yes she may love being rocked to sleep but i would rather you didnt get her used to it bacuse im not doing it before every nap!

Yes i am holding her right! (not that there is a rigth and wrong way)

No shes not tooo hot... no shes not too cold.. yes her hands may be slightly cold but she doesnt need 400 extra layers.. she is FINE!

'why did you put her in that' Because i chose the outfit and i liked it and i am her Mother!!!!

 

[MizzDeeDee]

No she doesnt want to watch dora... she quite likes looking at people,smiling,giggling,rolling over.. rather than sitting watching a huge screen all day!

Yes she may love being rocked to sleep but i would rather you didnt get her used to it bacuse im not doing it before every nap!

Yes i am holding her right! (not that there is a rigth and wrong way)

No shes not tooo hot... no shes not too cold.. yes her hands may be slightly cold but she doesnt need 400 extra layers.. she is FINE!

'why did you put her in that' Because i chose the outfit and i liked it and i am her Mother!!!!

I am thinking this is one of her grandparents?

 

[T8ty]

How did you guess!!^^ hahaha.. Mil...

 

[MizzDeeDee]

How did you guess!!^^ hahaha.. Mil...

Lucky guess.....

 

[Eliza_V]

Lettuce - I'd be PISSED if someone did that! I'm pissed off enough that a member of my fmaily that hasn't spoken to me since LO was 6 weeks old (and just insulted the both of us) has been printing off pictures of her and running around and showing everyone, pretending she's a doting great-grandmother She joined up on Facebook just so she could see/take pics of her without even having to acknowledge me (and no doubt to get shit on me, but good thing I upped my privacy settings as I know her game ) I won't let her see anymore albums now, fed up of it! It's disgusting when people claim ownership of photos of your LO.

Kalah - I hope you get something sorted soon. Is there anything you can use as a reusable in the meantime, such as towels/muslin cloths? I know it's not ideal.. As other people have suggested, ask around at the churches/charities etc

 

[T8ty]

Haha she is lovely.. but god i wish i could print this out for her!

Ooo another one...

Its not 'TITTY TIME'... i am still giving her milk like every other mum in the world its just mine comes out of my pre made bottles attatched to my chest!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Lettuce I'm ok now. Called nhs direct. The nurse was convinced I was pregnant. no thanks!

 

[Eliza_V]

Oh, and Nanny.. I love you so much, but please stop with those comments when I talk to you on the phone.. Such as "Oh, she knows now.. If she wants entertaining by you she's just got to whine, and she knows you'll come! You'll never get anything done now.." and "You'd get more done if she was more content and relaxed, if you gave her formula she'd sleep more and be more content.." It's just that generation I guess, where it was all about bottle-feeding and 4-hour routines. But I am a hypocrite.. I did snap a little bit, but I can't get mad at her as I love her so much! Yet if my evil Nanna had said it, I'd be fuming... But that's because I know Nanny says it because that's all she nows, and Nanna says things to get my back up (such as slagging me off to everyone and making me out to be a failure, and a useless/crap mother.. ah well). At least she doesn't argue when I say I pick her up so much as it helps to soothe her reflux (when she was saing "She's learning now that she just needs to cry and she'll be picked up!" dohh but I do get the "oh none of my babies ever had that.. Or at least when they were sick a lot it didn't hurt them" Lol, bless her.. I can't get mad at her though

DH: What happened to this diet, and cutting out drinking? You were pissed when we went to bed last night, hence why you woke up our daughter, and I wasn't best pleased when you were trying to settle her in that state. And you're sitting there with a whiskey and lemonade now.. And you keep buying treats for the both of us. I know I'm skinnier than before I got pregnant (hyperemesis has a lot to answer for there) but I still have more to lose, and I can't deal with you saying you hate how you look all the time when you keep refusing to do anything about it, or starting then giving up!

Oh, and please act like you love me.. I appreciate the little rpesents you get me occasionally (such as the mini bottle of Disaronno and chocs) but I'd much prefer you to actually cuddle me, and stop coming up with excuses to not have sex with me! Stop refusing to shower then using the excuse "no I really need a shower.." whenever I try it on, or saying you're "too tired" or "have a headache" .. Yet you wanted it when I physically wasn't able to?? Not being funny, I'm 9st 12lb and a 28J.. ok I've still got a tummy pouch and I'm never going to look like the size 8 model I was when we first met.. But waht more do you want?? Sex on tap? It's here! Stop rejecting me!! We haven't done it in weeks, and now I'm beginning to resent you when you give me a half-arsed cuddle in bed, because I'm pretty sure you just do it out of habit now

 

[marina294]

oh- thank you for upgrading peek aboo in the shower for 2 minutes to sitting on the toilet with her for my entire shower obviously im not allowed privacy lol

fil- she is not getting crafty sil put her down to when she had only just fallen asleep she will wake up and i actually did say this out loud but no u insisted she is being crafty !

mil-she has not been laughing at u all day she hasnt laughed at all yet so y all day!?! yet another milestone you are trying to claim first!
*sigh*(she is actually a nice mil but can want to have too much of an imput!) oh it would be nice if you asked if it ok to take her into town whilst you look after not demand where the pram is because your going out! i dont mind you taking her but asking would be nice.