BrokenfoREVer
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^^ Absolutly agreed! Nothing to do with anyone apart from you & your OH
Alex, go to sleep. It's 3am.![]()
Need to get this off my chest---
To my so called best mate - you were so excited when I was preg telling me you wanted to see lo at least once a week so she grew up knowing who you are, she is now 8 months old and you have seen her maybe 6 times (4 of those were when I came to your house is there something wrong with my house) do you know how much effort it is to being half our house with me. You live 30 mins down road stop making excuses and get off your arse!!!
Your suppose to be coming round today but I'm not holding my breath just wondering what excuse you'll use this time???
Feel better now thanks!!!
To Paul:
I know you are my husband's best friend. For a long time, i considered you my best friend too. I am so flipping hurt and angry and upset i don't even know what to do.
That little boy you held in your arms today? He is my world. My little Rainbow baby Ethan. He's 2 months old and you're seeing him for the first time today. Do you know how sad that makes me? I've called you repeatedly to try and meet up, you live a 15 minute train ride away, it's hardly the other side of the world. You've never answered your phone. You've told me that you're "in a bad place" etc. Personally, i think you're a douche. I'm hurting so much because of your actions, or rather lack of them. I love you, but right now i don't care if i never see you again.
Mike came alone today to see you with Ethan because i'm having a really bad day. I know he told you i've got PND, i was hoping he wouldn't. You've not been there for me at all, so why should you need to know? Mike's told me that you've apologised because you've been in a bad place because of "drugs, alcohol and being really depressed" Guess what Paul?! You brought two of those things on yourself. I'm sick of being the one who is understanding and will listen to you talk for hours and helping you try and sort out your life. I'm the one who is going through a bad time. Mike is going through a tough time, what with having a new baby and a psycho wife! Where were you for that?? Not even one phone call!!
I always forgive and move past things. Always. This time, i can't. I really can't seem to get over the fact that you weren't there or didn't care. I'm not someone who expects everyone to love my son and want to constantly be there, but i did expect Mike's best friend to show an interest. Once again, my expectations were apparently too high. I really don't know if i will ever forgive you for this.