flapjack10
Mum to mini ginger ninja!
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Viet, I decided you might need some encouragement right now and reasons not to give up. I then thought about it and decided you might be like flapjack. She like you has had 3 miscarriages, she probably thought she was never able to carry a baby, (I don't know flapjack should come and help me out with her story) but baby no.4 just stuck. The pregnancy tests kept getting dark, and now she's almost half way through her pregnancy.
AFM I am currently sitting in the two week wait. I have picked up on an ovulation sign my nipples get sore for a little bit. In theory my AF should be here on valentines day, but we'll see.
Yes, I definitely felt like I was broken after the 3rd MC and it took a lot to start TTC again. When the results from the Recurrent Miscarriage Clinic came back as normal, it was so confusing. I wanted a reason why this had happened, but some things are never to be explained.... Those are the things that really make you a stronger person in the end.
I'm halfway through my 4th pregnancy the furthest I have ever been. There are times I really didn't think it would ever happen.
I really am a believer in positive thinking (although if you look back at some of my posts on here - it's difficult to be positive alllll the time)! The memories don't go away though; the blood on the tissue, the lightened lines, the empty womb on the sonograph. They're always with you and they are painful, but it's the most worthwhile journey ever. I really do believe that I appreciate this pregnancy and my baby so much more for everything I went through last year. I won't forget my angel babies, and I'm thankful I got to experience the joy of seeing those BFPs- something some women never get to see.
Sometimes, I feel like a fool for getting my hopes up and thinking that my other pregnancies were going to last, but you can't live like that. Hope is a great thing and I cling onto it everyday.
You will get there, Viet. I promise you there are women out there who've been through the same thing. It feels like the world is full of successful pregnancies and babies. Nobody talks about the miscarriages and the heartache that led to them.
We'll be here to support you, don't give up
xxx