Trying before AF?

[xxemmyxx]

Emmy: Glad you're holding up and keeping busy... I have no idea how I will handle each due date as they come and past, I hope I'll be pg by the time they start swinging by...

Good to hear about the negative pg test being a good sign. I took one the morning of our last ultrasound and it was darker than the test strip. Now, 17 days after medical abortion, it's totally clear, not even a squinter. After my first MC, I had a 50 day cycle with no ovulation, but after my second my cycle was only 38 days with a timely ovulation. Hoping for a similar outcome this cycle. I am ready to get this show on the road!

On a side note, feeling pretty lonely, DH is out of town for another few days/possible week and I feel sad. Glad I have tons of work and homework to keep me busy, but the house is awfully quiet..

Aww we are always here to keep you company! And I really hope your body gets back on track with ovulation this cycle xx

 

[mummy2o]

Emmy: glad your coping well. I keep wondering how I'll hold it together for my son's birthday since the due date would of been then.

Viet: I hope your coping well also. Hopefully it won't be the full week then, if your anything like my mum you'll miss him 10 minutes after he's gone then as soon as he gets home wonder why he didn't go for longer as the house is a mess!

 

[aknqtpie]

Emmy -

Viet - I was an anomaly, but it is good that HCG is out.

 

[vietmamsie]

Hi! Getting quiet around here again....

I had my doctors appointment and they seem to think I have had so many miscarriages because I either had rubella or carry rubella. I still don't know why they think this, but I had all the rubella tests done to see whats going on. While I was there I asked them to do ALL the tests they can possibly do on me NOW rather than waiting for another miscarriage to do the next set. After a rather large bill and 7 vials of blood + a jar of urine, I'm feeling confident we'll have some answers soon.

However, today is a hard one. I had the baby out 3 weeks ago today and this is proving to be much tougher than I thought. I just CAN'T MOVE ON. This time is so much harder. I feel so alone in this battle and have no one to talk to, yet all I want to do is talk about it.... it's just so painful.

On a positive note, it looks like I ovulated 2 days ago, which means my body might be back in business sooner than I thought. We're going to forgo my doctors orders of waiting 2 cycles and start on the next one. I want this so badly.

 

[Libbysmum]

Viet...take your time I have only had the one loss that I know of and found it very hard. Do you know of any loss support groups in your area? The one I found helpful here is
https://www.sands.org.au/ they are a not for profit one and based mainly with volunteers who have usually had losses of their own so understand what you may be experiencing.
Big hugs, take care x

 

[vietmamsie]

Thanks! It's hard because I am an ex-pat living in Asia, so i don't really think they have those sort of things where I am. I will look into it though!

 

[Starry Night]

viet - hope those tests get you the answers you need. And . Sometimes grief hits us in different ways. I've been impacted by my own 3 losses to different degrees and had various emotions. My first loss was DEVASTATING and I cried all the flippin' time. My second loss I was in complete denial and pretended it never happened until about a year later because I kept having nightmares about it. But I do feel the least emotional upset over this loss and think about this angel the least (and I do feel guilty about having favourites among my angels) My latest loss has mostly brought out anger in me.

 

[vietmamsie]

Yeah, grief is strange, it really does hit us differently. This time it is pure disbelief. I just can't believe that my greatest fear is happening to me and I might never be able to have kid. I can't help but go over the past and everything I did wrong to my body to have gotten me to this point. I emotionally exhausted of ttc and don't know if I can go through another 2ww, get another bfp and then have the waiting game to see the heart beat, then the waiting game to have a baby.

Maybe it didn't help that last night I saw that pg friend again for the first time in 2 months (maybe you remember, she announced her pregnancy to a table full of people at 5 weeks, just a few weeks after my mc.) She is 20 weeks now, with a perfect little bump and told me that they just found out its a girl... totally unplanned with her boyfriend of less than a year. All she could tell me about last night was how broke they are. Here I am with all the money sitting in my savings account, and the stable relationship and good home life and no baby.

 

[sherstan]

Hi everyone - I just wanted to pop in to this group and say hi. I was posting in here after I had my mc back in July 2012. I just wanted to say that I am now pregnant again, and so far so good! There is hope after mc. It may take a few months, or it may happen right away. But, chances are, it will happen! GL!!

 

[aknqtpie]

Viet - Sorry you are going through all of this, hopefully you can get answers soon.

Are they saying if it is related to Rubella that you won't be able to carry to term?

 

[xxemmyxx]

Viets hope the tests help you get closer to the answers xx

 

[vietmamsie]

aknqtpie - I actually have no idea what they mean, there is a language barrier with my doctor and it's hard to get all the information that I need from him. Basically, I'm thinking the Rubella was something he threw out there based on some slightly off blood tests... just something to start with. Honestly, I question if he just pulled it out of his ass as I had that vaccination when I was a kid. I have no idea what it would mean, and am staying away from Dr. Google until I get an actual diagnosis based on blood tests. Think I need to start stalking my doctors office hotline... i should have results in a few days!

 

[aknqtpie]

I googled it (because I was curious) and from what I read, it only looks like if you currently have it, it can be an issue. But it didn't say anything about longterm effects. Hopefully they can figure it out.

I never asked.. Where are you from originally, and what brought you to Vietnam?

 

[mummy2o]

Viet: I'm sorry your having such a hard time with your doctor. hopefully you'll be sorted out in no time.

AFM my bloods came back fine. There was no issue, minus a slightly raised one, but they put that down to my asthma so not concerned. She basically said redo bloods in 3 months and come back in 6 months for more tests if not pregnant.

 

[vietmamsie]

I'm from the states, from the west coast, but have been living abroad for almost 5 years. My husband and I moved out to Vietnam for a change of scene in 2010 after a few years in Europe. Love it out here! Asia is addicting! So many wonderful places to travel to! We both taught English at first, but we're starting to venture into other fields. I'm working as an English speaking kindergarten teacher at a bi-lingual school, but I am studying for my teaching credentials at the moment and hope to be at a proper international school next year - that is if we don't take a few months off to travel!

 

[Libbysmum]

That is awesome. I taught at an international kindergarten in S.Korea for a few months before getting married. I loved it. I never imagined myself in Asia but once I got there fell in love with the people and the place. And not to mention the kids in the class were adorable. Being an international school there was about half expats kids and the other half brilliant little Korean kids.

 

[vietmamsie]

yea, the kids are pretty cute here too! I have many kids that are mixed Vietnamese and European or American, and the rest are all Vietnamese... all of the are really cute! I love them to death!

 

[aknqtpie]

I wanted to try to get over to Japan and do the JET program. In Anchorage, AK they have a Japanese Immersion Program, and I got to go through that. It was pretty cool (don't speak it very well now.. it's been close to 10 years since I have used it.. :-/) Would of loved to travel to Asia more, and hopefully one day I will get to go over there again. Decided to have kids first, and then when they get old enough, we can take them

 

[vietmamsie]

We plan to continue our life style and live abroad with kids. I think we might have to tone down our holidays until the kids are a bit older (no more jungle treks and wild boat rides!) but we don't plan to stop traveling!

I actually want to move to Japan next! I have heard its hard to get a job there, but I think this summer we might start applying!

 

[aknqtpie]

You should look into the JET program. I bet you would be a good fit!