TTC #1 AL Buddies 2016 Newcomers Welcome

[MissYogi]

Hi ladies, can I join in here? I have been really needing to chat with other ladies who have also experienced a loss and are trying again. I've been really struggling through this month and I know that so many others have experienced the same and are able to help it. I just had my loss at 5+3 on September 8th so it was really early and I now I should be just moving forward but it's really hard not to let it make me give up hope. Sorry, I don't mean to jump in off topic but I could totally use the support of you ladies!

 

[Starlight288]

Ayala that's wonderful news. Hope this move is just what your family needs!!!


I'm trying to keep busy this week, our due date would of been this Friday. Seems crazy to think this much time has passed.

 

[BronteForever]

Starlight - so sorry your due date is coming up. Hugs. It's definetly a hard milestone to reach.

MissYogi - you are welcome to join the group. I'm so very sorry to hear about your loss. Big hugs to you. And don't feel bad for grieving the loss in anyway possible. Everyone handles it differently. Definitely don't feel like you have to move on mentally right away. Losing a pregnancy is a very hard thing to go through, no matter how early in the pregnancy it was. Are you back trying again? Good luck in healing and as you start TTC again. Try not to lose hope yet, I know it's hard though.

 

[lesondemavie]

So sorry to see you here MissYogi. TTC after a loss is so hard. Hoping your journey after is short

Star - A good distraction is in order. Will be thinking of you

 

[beccabonny]

aayla, glad you guys had a great time in vegas! those casinos are difficult with all of the smoke, i hate it! i still remember (back in my day...) the bars used to all be smoking establishments and i'd go home reeking of it despite being a non smoker...*shudder* casinos are still like that.

and wow, scotland! that's amazing. i have family there - any specific idea where you may be moving?

Welcome, yogi! i'm glad you found this thread, it's been a wonderful place of comfort i'm so sorry for your loss. it was so heart wrenching already being witness to your wtt/ttc story, i was and still am gutted for you

Star - milestones are something, aren't they? I hope your week passes by quickly.

 

[MissYogi]

Thanks for the welcome ladies. I've decided to stop temping because it was just feeling like too much stress to always be thinking about it. I feel like I might have ovulated on Saturday though so I'm eating pineapple core every day for a few days. Last month I was so excited about the whole thing, this month I just feel scared. I miss my innocence about the process.

 

[Aayla]

Becca: we have settled on the town Falkirk. Perfectly placed between Glasgow and Edinburgh for commuting if we don't get jobs within Falkirk itself. We commute by transit here so doing it there is no issue. Especially with the frequency and how quick it is. Just have learn more about it.

I am hoping we can save enough money. It will look like early 2018 will be when we move. I would like to have 3 months expenses saved up as well as air fare to get there. We are looking at getting a letting agent to help us find a place deal with all the rent and deposits etc.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Aayla - although I've commented in your journal, woop for moving to Scotland!! So exciting!

Becca - can't believe you're almost 10 weeks! Where has that gone?

Star - that has the to one of the hardest milestones. Hope you manage to keep busy. Thinking of you. X

Gagirl - sending lots of luck your way this cycle.

Missyogi- I'm so sorry for your loss. Getting back to TTC can be really difficult at times Stopping charting is a good idea, I found it stressed me out after my loss. I also know what you mean about losing the innocence, or the faith in it all. It's very frustrating that it changes you and your outlook on TTC. I found that trying to just accept that it has changed things helped me. I hated it and was very angry but eventually I got there. Sending you lots of luck and I hope you don't have to wait too long.

bronte & les - always thinking of you both

Km - hope you are doing ok and the second tri is treating you well.

(Sorry I haven't commented on here much recently. I check in on you all the time but I know some days are hard and the last thing I want to do is upset someone. Xxx)

 

[kmpreston]

Aayla - although I've commented in your journal, woop for moving to Scotland!! So exciting!

Becca - can't believe you're almost 10 weeks! Where has that gone?

Star - that has the to one of the hardest milestones. Hope you manage to keep busy. Thinking of you. X

Gagirl - sending lots of luck your way this cycle.

Missyogi- I'm so sorry for your loss. Getting back to TTC can be really difficult at times Stopping charting is a good idea, I found it stressed me out after my loss. I also know what you mean about losing the innocence, or the faith in it all. It's very frustrating that it changes you and your outlook on TTC. I found that trying to just accept that it has changed things helped me. I hated it and was very angry but eventually I got there. Sending you lots of luck and I hope you don't have to wait too long.

bronte & les - always thinking of you both

Km - hope you are doing ok and the second tri is treating you well.

(Sorry I haven't commented on here much recently. I check in on you all the time but I know some days are hard and the last thing I want to do is upset someone. Xxx)

This is why I don't comment much in here anymore either . Second tri definitely better in terms of tiredness, not so much with sickness

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Thanks for the prayers.. Hoping our rainbow baby comes soon..

 

[BronteForever]

Thanks ladies for being respectful. For me, I honestly don't care, but I'm so used to seeing pregnant people and hearing about it that it doesn't phase me much anymore. So I like that you check in on here!

Wish you all lots of luck. I really hope we get another BFP boom in here soon!

I'm really starting to think after our next IVF cycle we might be done trying for awhile and will probably wait awhile before pursuing adoption, if at all. This process is really starting to wear on me and I'm not sure how much longer I can take. I think I need another extended break. We shall see though. I asked my husband if he wanted to try this month and he basically said no, that he thinks it will just frustrate us more, which is kind of true. Though, I think he's unrealistically putting his hopes on the next IVF cycle working, which I'm not really anymore.

MissYogi - losing your innocence is a really good way to put it and unfortunately it's very true. So sorry you've had this happen to you, but you really do sound like you are moving forward well and that takes alot of guts and courage. Good luck to you!

Aayla - sounds fabulous and now I must go look up that Scottish city!

 

[mrs unicorn]

bronte I think we are all hoping and wishing so much that your next IVF cycle is the one. You have had such a long journey. It's sad that you are having to think about what happens if it doesn't work, but of course it's completely understandable. Like you are saying there is no need to rush into any decisions straight away anyway. Hope the healthy lifestyle plan is still going well. X

 

[BronteForever]

Thanks Mrs U - it does suck having to think about what to do if it doesn't happen. But realistically it would be foolish to do another IVF cycle if I don't see any improvement. I keep reading people's stories over and over and there are very few people I've seen that had the amount of eggs I had retrieved and none made it. My doctor didn't seem too confident in our follow up meeting and I'm not hugely confident either. And we just can't afford much after this so taking an extended break before potentially pursuing adoption so we can try to pay off our IVF loan and maybe save up more is probably the smartest thing to do. It does suck. A small part of me is hopeful all these things will work. I only need one good egg darn it but it's honestly getting a smaller part that's remaining hopeful.

And healthy eating is going good but I had a big event today so I've been busy all week and eating bad because of it. But I've been doing so much furniture moving and walking that hopefully I've made up for it. Now I'm resting my feet for the rest of the day. Ahhhhh...

 

[lesondemavie]

RE appointment went well. Full update in my journal. Basically she thinks it's a corpus luteum defect which means I also need to be on estrogen after ovulation. Doing that, blood work for thyroid, prolactin, and vitamin D, and an hsg this cycle.

 

[Starlight288]

Glad you had a positive appointment Les!! Hoping this is the fix you need to bring home that baby!!!

 

[lesondemavie]

Another update. Looks like I may be in the early stages of hashimoto's, and that could be the cause of my low progesterone and our losses. RE just called tonight at 8 pm and left a voicemail saying she wants me on thyroid medication. She's going to call tomorrow to touch base. The more I read on hashimoto's the more it makes sense. Feels like all the puzzle pieces are falling into place. I really think we may get to keep our next baby 😂

 

[Starlight288]

Such amazing news!!! So happy for you! So glad to hear this doctor is really helping you.

 

[BronteForever]

Les - really hoping the thyroid meds help even out all your hormones!

 

[MissYogi]

Les- That's awesome to finally get some answers! Hoping it all works out now!

I finally started spotting last night which is such a relief. I had been in this limbo of knowing I was so not likely pregnant, but also my next cycle wasn't started so I couldn't move on. It was like my body was saying "Hey, remember that time you had a miscarriage? Wasn't that fun? Let's keep thinking about every day that you realize your period isn't here and have to remember why. Won't that be fun?" AF isn't actually here yet, but the spotting was a solid sign that it's probably not just that my body has decided on early menopause to save me from future heartbreak.

 

[EBAUERHAUS]

Anyone out there trying for your first after a loss? My very first pregnancy just ended in a MMC at my 8 week ultrasound. We're still just recovering, but plan to start trying again as soon as we're cleared by the ob. I've had such amazing buddies and support from the day I started ttc#1, but now I'm not sure exactly where I fit. If there are a few more of you out there, who sadly like me, lost your first and are still hoping and wishing for that day that you get to hold your precious, crying baby in your arms, please join me. I know I'd love to have your support, and also to support you on this journey!

We want babies not just BFPs!!!

I lost my first pregnancy in September. My husband and I weren't going to start trying until October, so the fact that we got pregnant in August was a surprise - but we weren't actually trying to prevent pregnancy, either.
It is now October and I think I've just had my first period post-miscarriage and I can't wait to start TTC.

Now that I've put my two cents in, I'm going to go catch up on the post itself.