TTC 1st child 35+ (Please spoiler any PG news/announcements).

[Jocr]

Skye - brilliant news! well done you, congratulations. I bet your so excited x

 

[HappyAuntie]

Hi ladies
Sorry for the lack of posts but have been busy with work and life and have also had my laparoscopy at long last. To be honest have been stressed to the max but am now working my way out of it

My lap was successful and I got the all clear. I didn't really get a chance to speak to the fertility dr after as I was still so out of it. We have to go back to see him in four months if we sent preg by then.
So it seems we have no reason not to get preg so fingers crossed. I have been told (via a pamflet) no sex for six weeks. I will be back at it in four weeks When I am next fertile. It's a shame that I cant actually get to speak to my fertility dr to get facts.
Had a lot of egg White these past few days and it's so annoying not being able to crack on now. So it's another month off for me.

I'm sitting at home recooperating back to work on Thursday.

Anyone else feel a bit spacey for a few days after having a lap?

My next acu is next week to help get rid of any unwanted anaesthetic out and generally rebalance me, looking forward to it.

I will try and get on top of what everyone has been up to and how you are all doing.

Big hugs to you all
Jo xx

Welcome back, Jo! Glad to hear the lap went well. Sorry you're still feeling dodgy, though. I've never had lap so I can't speak from personal experience, but the hard thing with any type of laparoscopic surgery it's easy to think you should be fine that afternoon because it's just three tiny incisions. But remember, even though the incisions are small, it's still pretty major surgery. They pump your abdomen full of gas so they can get a better view, and it just takes some time for you body to get back to normal. I remember when my mom had her gall bladder taken out (through her bellybutton - laparoscopy is amazing stuff)... about 3 days post-op when I went over to check on her, I caught her vacuuming! She said she was tired of laying around and wanted to get something done; I told her (jokingly) not to come crying to me when she was in agony the next day from disobeying dr's orders! Lo and behold, she was in agony for about the next three days! I gave her a good "I told you so!" and made sure to tease her about it incessantly.

It *is* terrible that you can't get in to the dr to ask your questions - is there any way you can speak with one of his nursing staff to get some answers?

 

[lavalux]

Jocr,
Glad to hear from you again and your lap was all clear. woo hoo! Definitely take it easy and focus on healing so you can resume the babymaking in a month.

LynnB,
That is such wonderful news! Congrats again! It is so nice to see you, MA, & Skye all recently pg! Very inspiriational! These are the stories that I try to focus on when I want to give up!

onmymind,
Sorry that nasty witch showed, but it sounds like you are in a good place and now you can focus on your next cycle. It is only a matter of time before you get your BFP.

To all the other ladies ... I need to rush off to work this morning so I can't respond to everyone, but know that I'm thinking about you all and praying for us all to have our healthy babies. Have a lovely week!

 

[onmymind17]

Hi Skye. Yes, I plan to go on total bedrest myself though I will be going to church on sundays "if" there isn't a problem. We are buying a dorm refrigerator to keep things cool and I think the ladies in the church will make a couple meals a week for us to help with that end.

We went out to pay on our nursery layaway at babies r us and I decided to purchase a couple of preemie outfits. When Jackson came early I was unprepared and so was the hospital. I'll refrain from sharing what they actually put him in but I was PISSED. He was still alive then too. So to be prepared I bought a couple preemie outfits and will look online for a micropreemie outfit. In all hopefullness I'm praying I wouldn't need ANY of them and will give them to someone who WILL need it. I believe God has his hand on this womb and that He will help us carry Amelia to a safe point, I just need to be prepared because I don't ever want to go through what I went through with Jackson. I felt like I was a terrible mother for not giving him the simplest of necessities. What mother prepares for something like that?! Anyways, we'll start shopping for regular infant clothes at wk 28 the end of July.

I've stopped cooking and sewing altogether.

We purchased a Mac today! Finally I can get rid of that terrible Microsoft and Explorer. I'm enjoying it already!!

Welcome to all the newbies! You'll love it here.

Love to everyone.

Oh oh!!!! I'm so out of it I've only just seen that we're waiting for Amelia!!!! That's SO exciting!!! You're always in my prayers xxx

Yup! We're waiting for Amelia! I can wait though for her to safely get here. We've been clearing out her nursery and I find myself going in there just to dream. A part of me is scared still with a funneling cervix already at only 19wks, but my goal is to get past the 22wk milestone, then the viability milestone at 24wks, then 28, then 36. I'm aiming high and trying my hardest. It's hard not to get down sometimes, my body just sucks and I feel as though with each dwindling measurement I'm letting her down. I know that's satan talking though and I need to focus on God is much more powerful. I think it's just the inability to control what's happening has me a bit depressed these days.

Anyways, it's time to come out of that pity party I'm in and focus on the good news that Amelia is right on target and looking forward to actually GETTING her to term.

Thank you for your kind prayers

I am sorry about the funneling, but your right you need to focus on God, and your little one will be just fine. I have a friend here at work, that lost her little one at 18 weeks, they found out she had a weak cervix, this time she is pg, and had the cerclage done, they wanted to wait, but she insisted, and its a good thing she did, right now she is at 25 weeks, and for the past two weeks she has been in the hospital on complete bedrest. In a matter of weeks, she went from slight funneling to it was down to the stitch. All is well so far, other than her being bored out of her mind in the hospital lol. You hang in there, take it easy, and if you feel the need you INSIST on the cerclage. Sending you lots of love and prayers, she is going to be just fine!!

 

[onmymind17]

Unfortunatly the evil witch showed saturday, but you know what its ok, right now my DH and i are going through a lot of stuff with both of our jobs, lets just say the stress level is through the roof right now, i have to say i am kind of glad i am not pg right now, we could be looking at the possibility of him or me losing our jobs, and then we would be in big trouble. Sigh.... I swear i think sometimes God hates us. How about you? any good news? I am keeping everything crossed for you!!!!

OMM!
Down with the witch! Booo Hisss! Sorry she showed her ugly mug to you, but if you're going through all that work stress, not really prime time for babymaking as you said. I hope your and your DH's jobs are safe - last thing you need is more stress, that's for sure! When it rains it pours. I often think God has it out for me too, so you're not alone in that thought.

Well, I still feel the witch circling and ready to make her descent, but she's not here yet. She will be soon, I'm sure of that. I caved in and tested Saturday (1 day after AF was due to arrive) and - OF COURSE - it was yet another . The 21st BFN out of 24 attempts. Depressing when I put it that way, isn't it? Anyhoooo...I'm not down and out about it, though I'm a little surprised because DH and I were like this cycle. I'm 3 days late now, but the progesterone always pushes AF late. I stopped taking it on Saturday, so I expect AF to land within the next 24-48 hours. I've been all crampy for over a week so now that I have a BFN I want AF to just get here already - sheesh! It's all ok, though...DH and I are creating self-imposed stress because we've decided (after 2 years of putting it off waiting for this non-existent baby to arrive) to finally put our house up for sale and move. I met with our realtor on Saturday, whom I love (I've known her for 10 years and she has gone through 4 miscarriages herself) ...so it is nice to have someone in my corner. I think (we all do - realtor, DH and I) that it's a good time to redirect my focus elsewhere. So if all goes well, we'll be ready to sell in a few weeks. YAY! We need a bit more space (this was supposed to be our "starter house" and 9 years later we're still living in it!), so baby or none, it's all good I think.

Thank you for all the crossed fingers and toes. Not our time this time it seems, but soon, definitely soon!

I really hope all works out with the jobs!! I will be sprinkling both baby dust and job dust your way!

And to all the other lovely ladies, welcome to the newbies, HURRAH for those who are preggo, and tons of to those who are waiting for their !!

I am so sorry for the BFN, i really hoped that it would happen for you, but i am so excited that your moving, maybe that is what God was waiting for you to do!!! We want to sell our home and move to Jacksonville FL, right now we live in Chicago, and we have had it with the winters and the outrageous taxes, unfortunatly with the housing market the way it is, we now owe more money then our house is worth, so we are waiting for that to go back up, hopefully in another 2 years we will be able to move. DH and i had a long talk last night, and i feel much better today, like you we are going to put the baby making stuff on the back burner and take some time for us again. After 3 years, we need to find each other and our laughter again. Stress at my job has lessened, and for now DH's job is still safe. I am so glad to see that i am not the only one that thinks that God has it out for them lol. I do know that one day, we will be mothers, he is just waiting for the perfect time.

 

[onmymind17]

Skye, I am still over the moon about your news! Its so good to hear about an IVF success story for all of us considering IVF. I would love for you to hang around this thread for a while. Your trip to Florence sounds wonderful! So jealous!

Dwrgi, I think its good you are considering all things before you start IVF. I've been going through the same thing lately. There are so many factors involved and its not an easy decision. Its a decsion only you should make because you are the one going through most of it. I think its a little unfair when the specialists try to force it on us because they don't understand what is going on in our personal lives.

BangBang, welcome! This is a wonderful group of supportive ladies. TTC is a very stressful thing. The hardest thing I've ever been through. Don't think you are a crazy woman because we all have exprerienced that more than once, I'm sure. Lord knows I have!

Onmymind, sorry AF showed. That witch! I understand about the job situation. Mine has been very stressful lately. Sometimes I think God hates me too but then I think that he has a plan for all of us. Like you said about the jobs right now, maybe he is waiting for yours and DH's job situation to get better and then you'll have a baby. I keep telling myself and God needs me to help DH with all the home improvement projects we've been doing lately and when we're done (which should be at the end of the summer) I'll get pregnant. I'm fx'd for both of us.

Hello Ginger, Luvvie, MA, Jocr, HA, FM, Lava, Nikki, Titi, Padbrat, Labrat, Jennifer and anyone else I missed.

AFM, I started clomid on Saturday and now I'm taking 100mg. I initiatlly started with 50mg for my 1st and 2nd IUI and 75mg for the 3rd one. I'm also supposed to be taking and extra half vial of Gonal-F this time too. The specialist said we would take a more aggressive approach this time so we'll see. This weekend DH and I were painting our bedroom. We went to put the bed back against the wall and the frame broke! The first thing on my mind was how we were going to BD with a broken bed! Then I started thinking that I wish we had broken the bed while we were BDing. Anyway, I thought I'd share a funny story with you all.

Thanks, and your right, i think now that God is waiting for us to get done what we need to get done and stop focusing on having a baby, thats what i am going to do now, just give it a break and relax and enjoy what i do have. Sorry about the bed, yea i dont know if i would have wanted to be BDing when it broke, now that could mess up the mood lol.

 

[missyt]

Twinkle, I feel let behind too. I totally avoid FB now and feel sorry for myself seeing my old classmates with 10 and 12 year olds. Then 3 friends my age recently had a baby or fell pregnant this year alone. Don't think of it as having an F though. If anything, we all have A's for effort. Serious effort. I think we all bring strength to one another and this is such a wondeful thread.

Lava, I'm loving your positive attitude. It sounds like that could be the exact thing you need to get that BFP. Do you think you IUI will be Friday? If so I think I'm a few days behind you this cycle. I go for a scan on Friday to find out if I need to take the trigger shot or not so my IUI will probably be Saturday or Sunday. FX'd for both of us!

Jo, I'm so glad your lap went well. That sucks about no BDing for 6 weeks! That will mean you'll be going like rabbits after the 6 weeks are up and surely should get a BFP.

AFM, I finish up my clomid tomorrow and I'll give myself the Gonal F injection that night and have a scan on Friday to see when I need to trigger. I'm curious to see how many and how big my follies are this time since they increased my clomid. I'm going to be sure to ask a lot of questions this time because it always feels like they don't tell me anything. When they call me that night to tell me if I should trigger or not I'm going to ask exactly how big my follies are and how many. Last time I think they could've waited one more day because I happened to see my chart and it said my biggest was 18 when in the first two IUI's I had ones that were 22 and 23. I'm not sure why they didn't have me do an extra day to let them grow a little more.

 

[Baby4MJ]

Baby4MJ – Are you testing again?

AFM, I know I haven't posted for a few days & that was because I had some spotting over the weekend & wasn't in a good place, so I didn't want to bring anyone down with me. I went for my scan yesterday expecting the worst only to see a perfect LO, who we've now nicknamed Iri, with a hb. No sign of blood in my urterus, my cervix is closed & Iri is measuring perfectly for my dates so I came home with 2 gorgeous pics and a date for my 2nd scan. I can't tell you how relived I feel.

First, I'm so glad to hear all is well with your LO ("Iri" ...that's lovely!). So scary, so I'm very glad it all went well

Baby4MJ – Are you testing again?

It's been only 4 days since AF was due to arrive and only 3 days since I stopped the progesterone. Also, by lower abdomen is all crampy and gurgling and bubbling so I really think the should be here soon. If she's not here by May 20th, I will test again. I have absolutely no symptoms of being PG (I had all the classic symptoms with my previous 3 pregnancies), so I am anticipating that the HPT will remain negative even if AF does not arrive. I hate being in this gray area. My acupuncturist sent me packing last night (though, kindly, saving me the $70 a pop by being honest with me) because he said he can't really move forward with treatment unless I'm definitively pregnant or until I have AF - which I am neither. ERGH.

As Tom Petty sings.."the waiting is the hardest part..."

 

[twinkle1975]

HA - glad you're back posting regularly honey - I was starting to feel like someone who'd been kept back a grade with lots of people who are lovely but haven't been hanging around behind the bike sheds for a year & ending up with an F like I have!! (I don't think that is quite what I mean but can't put it any better!!)

That is EXACTLY how I feel!!!!!


Seriously, that feeling of being left behind is a tough one to deal with, and there's just no way of avoiding it. It's in those moments that I contemplate moving over to LTTTC... but I can't bear to leave this thread and the friends I have here.

I know there were other things I wanted to comment on, but they've all left my mind at the moment. Oh well.

Time to go watch DWTS. Have a lovely evening, all!

Yeah I dabble over in LTTTC with 'Bellys to Bumps' but can't quite break away from here!!

Twinkle, I feel let behind too. I totally avoid FB now and feel sorry for myself seeing my old classmates with 10 and 12 year olds. Then 3 friends my age recently had a baby or fell pregnant this year alone. Don't think of it as having an F though. If anything, we all have A's for effort. Serious effort. I think we all bring strength to one another and this is such a wondeful thread.

Lava, I'm loving your positive attitude. It sounds like that could be the exact thing you need to get that BFP. Do you think you IUI will be Friday? If so I think I'm a few days behind you this cycle. I go for a scan on Friday to find out if I need to take the trigger shot or not so my IUI will probably be Saturday or Sunday. FX'd for both of us!

Jo, I'm so glad your lap went well. That sucks about no BDing for 6 weeks! That will mean you'll be going like rabbits after the 6 weeks are up and surely should get a BFP.

AFM, I finish up my clomid tomorrow and I'll give myself the Gonal F injection that night and have a scan on Friday to see when I need to trigger. I'm curious to see how many and how big my follies are this time since they increased my clomid. I'm going to be sure to ask a lot of questions this time because it always feels like they don't tell me anything. When they call me that night to tell me if I should trigger or not I'm going to ask exactly how big my follies are and how many. Last time I think they could've waited one more day because I happened to see my chart and it said my biggest was 18 when in the first two IUI's I had ones that were 22 and 23. I'm not sure why they didn't have me do an extra day to let them grow a little more.

Thanks petal - I needed some PMA!!

 

[HappyAuntie]

AFM, I finish up my clomid tomorrow and I'll give myself the Gonal F injection that night and have a scan on Friday to see when I need to trigger. I'm curious to see how many and how big my follies are this time since they increased my clomid. I'm going to be sure to ask a lot of questions this time because it always feels like they don't tell me anything. When they call me that night to tell me if I should trigger or not I'm going to ask exactly how big my follies are and how many. Last time I think they could've waited one more day because I happened to see my chart and it said my biggest was 18 when in the first two IUI's I had ones that were 22 and 23. I'm not sure why they didn't have me do an extra day to let them grow a little more.

Ask, ask, ask. And if you don't understand, say so. And if you think of something later, call back. Personally, I never go to a dr appt of any kind without a list of questions already written down so that I don't forget something I've wanted to ask. (Even when I go to counseling I bring a list of things that have been on my mind lately that I want to discuss!) I'm a huge proponent of asking. That's the only way we can become educated patients and become true partners in our own care.

Ask what their target size is. I was told by my RE that anything over 17 or 18 (don't remember which) will ovulate after the trigger, but I've also heard that with Clomid they shoot for bigger than that before triggering (I don't know why). So ask what their target is. And remember that they continue to grow after the trigger, 1-2mm before ovulation. But bigger is not always better - too big is bad, and I don't know how big is too big. If they get too big, the eggs are over-developed and are not likely to fertilize.

As for feeling left behind, I feel it more here than on FB - when I check in on the graduates and see that Pablo is 6 mos along, that MA is what, 18 weeks now, that Vicky and Rottpaw and a couple others who we started this thread with us have already delivered, and we're still here ttc. I am grateful that you and Twinkle and FM and a few other old-timers (meaning we've been on this thread forever, not age related!) are still here - definitely helps me feel less alone. But it's hard, I won't lie.

 

[twinkle1975]

AFM, I finish up my clomid tomorrow and I'll give myself the Gonal F injection that night and have a scan on Friday to see when I need to trigger. I'm curious to see how many and how big my follies are this time since they increased my clomid. I'm going to be sure to ask a lot of questions this time because it always feels like they don't tell me anything. When they call me that night to tell me if I should trigger or not I'm going to ask exactly how big my follies are and how many. Last time I think they could've waited one more day because I happened to see my chart and it said my biggest was 18 when in the first two IUI's I had ones that were 22 and 23. I'm not sure why they didn't have me do an extra day to let them grow a little more.

Ask, ask, ask. And if you don't understand, say so. And if you think of something later, call back. Personally, I never go to a dr appt of any kind without a list of questions already written down so that I don't forget something I've wanted to ask. (Even when I go to counseling I bring a list of things that have been on my mind lately that I want to discuss!) I'm a huge proponent of asking. That's the only way we can become educated patients and become true partners in our own care.

Ask what their target size is. I was told by my RE that anything over 17 or 18 (don't remember which) will ovulate after the trigger, but I've also heard that with Clomid they shoot for bigger than that before triggering (I don't know why). So ask what their target is. And remember that they continue to grow after the trigger, 1-2mm before ovulation. But bigger is not always better - too big is bad, and I don't know how big is too big. If they get too big, the eggs are over-developed and are not likely to fertilize.

As for feeling left behind, I feel it more here than on FB - when I check in on the graduates and see that Pablo is 6 mos along, that MA is what, 18 weeks now, that Vicky and Rottpaw and a couple others who we started this thread with us have already delivered, and we're still here ttc. I am grateful that you and Twinkle and FM and a few other old-timers (meaning we've been on this thread forever, not age related!) are still here - definitely helps me feel less alone. But it's hard, I won't lie.

Pretty sure I'll be hangign around here for ever - I'm never going to get IVF if I continue eating crisps like they're going out of fashion!!

 

[missyt]

AFM, I finish up my clomid tomorrow and I'll give myself the Gonal F injection that night and have a scan on Friday to see when I need to trigger. I'm curious to see how many and how big my follies are this time since they increased my clomid. I'm going to be sure to ask a lot of questions this time because it always feels like they don't tell me anything. When they call me that night to tell me if I should trigger or not I'm going to ask exactly how big my follies are and how many. Last time I think they could've waited one more day because I happened to see my chart and it said my biggest was 18 when in the first two IUI's I had ones that were 22 and 23. I'm not sure why they didn't have me do an extra day to let them grow a little more.

Ask, ask, ask. And if you don't understand, say so. And if you think of something later, call back. Personally, I never go to a dr appt of any kind without a list of questions already written down so that I don't forget something I've wanted to ask. (Even when I go to counseling I bring a list of things that have been on my mind lately that I want to discuss!) I'm a huge proponent of asking. That's the only way we can become educated patients and become true partners in our own care.

Ask what their target size is. I was told by my RE that anything over 17 or 18 (don't remember which) will ovulate after the trigger, but I've also heard that with Clomid they shoot for bigger than that before triggering (I don't know why). So ask what their target is. And remember that they continue to grow after the trigger, 1-2mm before ovulation. But bigger is not always better - too big is bad, and I don't know how big is too big. If they get too big, the eggs are over-developed and are not likely to fertilize.

As for feeling left behind, I feel it more here than on FB - when I check in on the graduates and see that Pablo is 6 mos along, that MA is what, 18 weeks now, that Vicky and Rottpaw and a couple others who we started this thread with us have already delivered, and we're still here ttc. I am grateful that you and Twinkle and FM and a few other old-timers (meaning we've been on this thread forever, not age related!) are still here - definitely helps me feel less alone. But it's hard, I won't lie.

HA, I know you are right and I need to ask more questions. It was so overwhelming at first and to get the medication dosages straight was making my head spin. I have never taken so much medication in my life in such a short time. Fortunately, you and other ladies on this thread helped me get more familiar with so many things as far as fertility and how our bodies work.

I guess when it comes to feeling left behind. On FB, I hate when an old acquaintance finds me and they post on my wall; "How are you? You look great. Any kids yet?". My heart sinks. I'm about to delete my account.

 

[Baby4MJ]

I guess when it comes to feeling left behind. On FB, I hate when an old acquaintance finds me and they post on my wall; "How are you? You look great. Any kids yet?". My heart sinks. I'm about to delete my account.

Hi missyt: I feel the same re: FB, although I'm more irritated when my FB friends complain and complain and complain about their kids in their wall posts and statuses...I just want to scream. They have no idea how lucky they are. NO...IDEA...

I had my 20th high school reunion in Sept. 2010 (right after my 3rd m/c, and on the exact date that my 2nd angel baby was supposed to be due: Sept. 25th) and wound up in the bathroom crying for the same reason...after the millionth "How are you? You haven't changed a bit! Any kids?" and then getting "that look" when I said "No, I don't have any children" without offering them any further explanation. By the end of the night I just wanted to put a big sign around my neck that said "I'm fine. Married happily for 11 years. No I don't have any kids, but I just miscarried my 3rd - does that count?" Awful, I know, but that's just how I felt. I knew I couldn't really expect them to know or understand, but still...it really was brutal to deal with.

 

[skye2010]

Onmymind, I'm really sorry that you are going through a rough time at work. Being in fear of my job was one of the most stressful things I have ever experienced. Dh lost his job twice last 5 years (credit crunch etc) and we couldn't function properly for a while. No bedding let alone TTC. I really hope it would just remain as a scare and you would both keep your jobs.

Of course God loves you but everyone has a stressful time at some point in their life. It's just life. DH has this close friend who was very lucky. Not only he kept his job through credit crunch but also got promoted. He met a lovely girl and married. He even bought a lovely flat and everything was looking up for him. He was grateful too, really sweet guy. When DH was down in the dumps about the prospects of finding a job he used to compare himself with him (has similar jobs) I used to tell him never to do that cause we could never tell what life will bring each of us. And he should just be happy for him. Anyway he just found out that he has a rare tumor in his thyroids. He needs an operation and it has risks. We are both worried about him now.

Missy biiiggg gooood luck with the IUI. I hope you would get pregnant before the end of summer. It's also very exciting to do house renovation but also can be pain. So is the bed fixed now.

Girls I haven't had time to read all and answer but promise I will catch up tomorrow. Now DH and I are going to watch a crime-thiller. (our latest obsession hahaha!)

 

[gingerbread]

skye sooo happy to see you & all the other girls who've recently put up pics! I hope you are feeling well & being pampered!!!!!

Missy so excited about your next iui. I have such a good feeling about this one. I cant wait to hear the results about your follies. love you hun!

To all the girls on the reunions..ugh. Never made a single one knowing all my friends have either older kids like Missy said or pregnant with their 1st 2nd or 3rd.

AFM the witch showed sunday. Had a good cry about five minutes ago just looking in the mirror in shock thinking that I never dreamed I would be going through this or for a second that I could be childless or be so stupid to wait too long. I always thought I had time. I dont want to think baby,see baby or talk baby the last couple of days. And of course at church we were surrounded by them(more than ever) and to see DH staring them down was heart breaking. At the end of the service a woman spoke about the loss of her baby at 25 wks and how she had nothing to put her in and how after she started a group who donate their time to knitting & sewing outfits for other women going through the same situation(MA I immediately thought of you) DH talked about how sad that was & I could only think of how nieve he is to the situation..not knowing how many of you & other women go thru it. We have planned to take a couple of months off before starting IVF but I dont know girls I'm starting to feel like I just want to throw in the towel and be done with this. I think I need a vacation(if I werent terrified to fly)

Anyway thats my rant & I love you all & am sorry to not have caught up on everyone else!

 

[prayingtogod]

hi ladies,
i'm just dropping in to let everyone know i'm back. Thanks for all the encouraging words. i'm in a much better place now. i'm ready to go at ttc head on. i'm still believing for an unassisted pregnancy.

i haven't had time to catch up and repspond to new postings. I'm only on page 416. I'll try to catch up in the next day or so.

To any new comers welcome and enjoy the thread.

Baby dust to all

 

[samwilson]

Sorry i didnt get you

 

[caroleb73]

Skye HUGE congrats my friend, I am so happy for you and your DH. I am wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months and look forward to your updates as your pregnancy progresses. When do you have your first scan to see how many you are carrying? Sorry if you have already posted this info I haven't been able to catch up yet as have been off line for nearly a week.

AFM I have had the most vile cold since Friday and today is the first day of feeling normal again. Its weird as this happened when I was downregging on my first IVF cycle and we put it down to being in cold UK in November but this time I am in 44 degrees in Bahrain so doesn't make sense. Anyways glad that I am now on the mend as stimming starts on Monday so need to be strong and healthy for that stage. Remembered all of your posts on the gatorade that helped Skye and bought a whole load yesterday so that I am fully prepared. Really looking forward to it now and have managed to deal with the negative emotions or worry over m/c. At the end of the day it may well happen again or it may not so there is no point in worrying too much about it. This whole TTC business is something that is out of my control and to me that has been the hardest thing to deal with as I make a very good living out of providing solutions to peoples day to day problems and yet I cannot solve my own. For me that was the big hurdle for me to overcome and accept that this is something that I cannot control to the degree I would like, we can all put in place plans to help things along but nothing is certain in this journey. Instead I have to have faith that my time will come and just hope and pray that it is soon.

Wishing you all lots of luck and hoping for a summer BFP explosion on this thread real soon

 

[caroleb73]

Hey HA I am with you on this thought I cannot bear to go onto the graduates thread as I should be 6months pregnant the same as Pablo right now and it is a very painful reminder of what I have lost. I try to find support from the ladies on here and remind myself that I will have another chance to get pregant with my next IVF. We have to believe that our day will come even if it is later than others it will come. I know that still hurts as it is so cruel to see everyone else get their BFP and we are still deperately fighting to get ours. All I can say is that life makes no sense at times. Big to you HA and hope to see your BFP announcement real soon.

 

[missyt]

MJ, I hate that we have to cringe and feel awkward every time we are asked about children. Its so heartbreaking. I know for each of us, it is the one thing we want more than anything. I can't even imagine how it is for you girls who have suffered a loss. Big hugs.

Skye, thanks for all your words of encouragement. DH temporarily fixed the bed. I am so lucky he is such a handy man and fix just about anything. He's also been quite frisky these last few days with I'm happy about. TTC has definately put a damper on what our romantic life used to be like.

Praying, so good to see you back!

Carole, I really hope this is your cycle and all works out for the best. Fx'd for you. And thanks to FM for the Gatorade advice. We all learned something.

Ginger, sometimes I feel like throwing in the towel too. I have also felt the same as you, I felt like I had time. My mom had me when she was 35 and I always felt like I could wait that long since she had me at that age. I met DH at 34 and we waited until a few months before we were married to TTC. I guess I'm just not as lucky as my mom. I don't blame you for waiting to do IVF. I truly think its something you have to be mentally prepared for. I'm rooting for you. Lots of love!

AFM, I'm working from home waiting for FedEx to deliver my gonal-f and ovidrel injections. Do any of you other ladies get your medication from Freedom Pharmacy? Its a discount pharmacy for fertility meds. It is a lot cheaper than the regular pharmacy.