TTC 1st child 35+ (Please spoiler any PG news/announcements).

[Dwrgi]

Sorry Never, I know this is a hard process. I'll chime in this a "don't give up" either. It's SO darn frustrating when you get the bfn's month after month...I can honestly attest that it'll be worth it when you finally achieve that pregnancy. In the meantime I'll continue to pray for a little miracle soon. The wait seems so unbareable at times.

Skye, hey there stranger. You should pop into "Graduates" everyones been wondering and worrying about you. I mentioned I've seen you in here so I'm sure they know your well but would like to know from YOU.

AFM, not too bad. Today I'm tired. We went to church in bed. Haha We listened to last weeks sermon on podcast so it was pretty interesting to have church in bed but as we all know, God can reach us ANYWHERE. Not just in church. Church is a place to be fed and fellowship with others of like mind, but God is everywhere! I've been tired the past two days so it hasn't really mattered much that there hasn't been much to do. I'm in my second trimester so I thought lethargy had gone...all of a sudden I get it the past two days. May be the injection who knows but I'm rolling with it and getting the rest I need.

My Jack Russell is starting to show behavior signs. He looks right at me and pee's. I took a shower the other day and he literally pee'd on my side of the bed. Doug took the linens to be washed. I was miffed. I think he understands I'm pregnant now and that's why I'm dealing with his horrifying behaviors lately. He never did this before! His nickname is now....."Pee Diddy".

Other than that, not too much. I have a scan this week to tell if my cervical length went down anymore and make sure the stitch is holding the cervix closed. Today starts the milestone week. I'm 22wks. I can't WAIT to pass this week. Especially thursday which was when we lost Jackson last time. Freaks me out, but with the stitch and injections I think I'm headed for a more normal pregnancy. I'm not out of the woods obviously but I'm trying my best to keep bed rest and make sure she stays in AT LEAST until wk 37. Just praying over here for LOTS more time!

Dear Mommy, for my tuppence worth, I am positive that you will get through Thursday and go full term. I have a really hopeful positive feeling about your pregnancy. It must be so difficult for you, with so many fears to deal with, but hang on in there girl, and you'll sail through it!

Very naughty Pee Diddy-I love his new name! They must sense these things!

Enjoy your rest and keep thinking positive things!
Big to you!
x

 

[Mommy's Angel]

Sorry Never, I know this is a hard process. I'll chime in this a "don't give up" either. It's SO darn frustrating when you get the bfn's month after month...I can honestly attest that it'll be worth it when you finally achieve that pregnancy. In the meantime I'll continue to pray for a little miracle soon. The wait seems so unbareable at times.

Skye, hey there stranger. You should pop into "Graduates" everyones been wondering and worrying about you. I mentioned I've seen you in here so I'm sure they know your well but would like to know from YOU.

AFM, not too bad. Today I'm tired. We went to church in bed. Haha We listened to last weeks sermon on podcast so it was pretty interesting to have church in bed but as we all know, God can reach us ANYWHERE. Not just in church. Church is a place to be fed and fellowship with others of like mind, but God is everywhere! I've been tired the past two days so it hasn't really mattered much that there hasn't been much to do. I'm in my second trimester so I thought lethargy had gone...all of a sudden I get it the past two days. May be the injection who knows but I'm rolling with it and getting the rest I need.

My Jack Russell is starting to show behavior signs. He looks right at me and pee's. I took a shower the other day and he literally pee'd on my side of the bed. Doug took the linens to be washed. I was miffed. I think he understands I'm pregnant now and that's why I'm dealing with his horrifying behaviors lately. He never did this before! His nickname is now....."Pee Diddy".

Other than that, not too much. I have a scan this week to tell if my cervical length went down anymore and make sure the stitch is holding the cervix closed. Today starts the milestone week. I'm 22wks. I can't WAIT to pass this week. Especially thursday which was when we lost Jackson last time. Freaks me out, but with the stitch and injections I think I'm headed for a more normal pregnancy. I'm not out of the woods obviously but I'm trying my best to keep bed rest and make sure she stays in AT LEAST until wk 37. Just praying over here for LOTS more time!

Dear Mommy, for my tuppence worth, I am positive that you will get through Thursday and go full term. I have a really hopeful positive feeling about your pregnancy. It must be so difficult for you, with so many fears to deal with, but hang on in there girl, and you'll sail through it!

Very naughty Pee Diddy-I love his new name! They must sense these things!

Enjoy your rest and keep thinking positive things!
Big to you!
x

Thank you SO much for your kind words of encouragement!

 

[Neversaynever]

Ok, back to reality and short sharp slap has sorted me out

Padbrat...loving the PMA hun, and I see these banners all over the site

Lava...hope you're ok hun?

Lynne...I think you have a scan tomorrow...if so, fingers and everything crossed for you guys

Dwirgi... and back at you with all the it's pants isn't it

MA...just wanted to say that I truly believe that you will have Amelia in your arms and she will be a healthy baby that you get to the end of the road with. I'll be thinking of you all week and sending you lots of positivity, strength and I know it will be a tough week for you both but hang in there

Everyone else... and boo it's back to work for me tomorrow

XxX

 

[Baby4MJ]

Onmymind and 4MJ your grapefruit seed extract is really intriguing. I am gonna buy a bottle to keep in hand as soon as I'm back in UK. ))

I don't know how or why, but it really does work. The trick is to start taking it as soon a you feel the first shadow of a sore throat or sniffle and keep taking it until the symptoms are gone.

Baby4MJ OMG, your spotting can be 2 things. Ovulation bleeding but your cycle is usually 25 days. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed it's actually implantation bleeding. This is exactly what happened to another girl here 6 months ago, and she graduated Keep it positive girl you never know )) xxxxx

I hope upon hope that you're right, skye! The spotting is lightening up some today at 7dpo, but I have a raging headache. Was crampy from 5dpo through this morning, but cramps are about gone now. Truthfully I feel PMS-y, not preggo. Not that I can really remember what it feels like to be preggo anymore, the last time was so long ago now. Would like to think (believe) it's implantation spotting, but wouldn't know if that would last 3 days? I've been surfing the web for answers and I'm driving myself bonkers. (short drive...https://i129.photobucket.com/albums/p204/Richy74/Smiley/auto11.gif)

AFM I had a horrible trip 15 hours train journey to Italy. It was like being on a constant earthquake cause the Italian rail tracks was really shaky. Than I had to do another 1 hour drive to our hotel which is up in the mountains. Some of the roads being rugged and even stone roads. I had spotting in the end and a lot of pain. I freaked out a bit and took it out on DH for dragging me here. Now I'm all rested and the spotting is gone, just enjoying the wonderful vineyards view from the hotel. I'm sending you all sticky baby dust. I am very hopeful with all of you this cycle. Wish we could graduate all at the same time. xxx

Sounds like a hellish trip. UGH. I'm not a great traveler (as DH tells me "my people don't travel well". It's true. I'm good while at point A, and good once at point B, it's the space between where things go to hell. I'm still waiting for someone to invent that "beam me up Scotty" Star Trek travel system. That would be perfect for me. Glad the spotting subsided and you're able to enjoy Italy (I've always wanted to go to Italy). I would've freaked, too. https://i43.photobucket.com/albums/e367/gatsby6306/thsmiley_freakout.gif

 

[Baby4MJ]

Hey all,

Selfish post but I'm done for the month. I tested this morning 11 DPO and got a BFN. I have fallen off the whatever wagon in spectacular style again.

Hope everyone else is doing good... to you all

XxX

Not selfish at all. That damn wagon can be awfully slippery sometimes.

 

[Baby4MJ]

His nickname is now....."Pee Diddy".

Other than that, not too much. I have a scan this week to tell if my cervical length went down anymore and make sure the stitch is holding the cervix closed. Today starts the milestone week. I'm 22wks. I can't WAIT to pass this week. Especially thursday which was when we lost Jackson last time. Freaks me out, but with the stitch and injections I think I'm headed for a more normal pregnancy. I'm not out of the woods obviously but I'm trying my best to keep bed rest and make sure she stays in AT LEAST until wk 37. Just praying over here for LOTS more time!

Praying here too for you, MA, and that Thursday will get here and be gone in a blink.

 

[lavalux]

Hey Ladies,
Hope everyone had a relaxing weekend to recharge a bit. Sorry I couldn't get on here much this weekend. We were going a mile a minute. Friday we went to dinner to celebrate a little, but we didn't overdo it b/c we had to get up early on Sat morning for a 5K. DH ran & a girlfriend who was supposed to run/walk with me did it, but I copped out and chose to not even walk it. The race was over 3 miles, very hilly, and super hot. I just walked around the neighborhood myself and then went to the finish line to wait for the runners. We went to a festival and house party Saturday and today we had church, brunch, my 12 yr old god-daughter's birthday! I can remember when I held her as a newborn. Time flies.

Baby4MJ,
What is going on with your CBFM? Have you figured out what is going on with your cycle yet? I must say I'm perplexed but I hope you are doing well. I loved your little dominatrix emoticon. Crack that whip, like that Devo song from the '80's.

Never,
So sorry for your BFN. That sucks! There is little I can say to make you feel better, but I hope this helps a little Don't give up, hun.

Dwrgi,
I know that you feel AF coming on! I'm sorry. I'm sending you some your way as well. I wish I could give you one in person. Just hang in there! You will be holding your baby soon.

MA,
Glad you are getting lots of rest. I am praying there's smooth sailing past 22 weeks and onward to a healthy delivery. Love Pee Diddy! That made me laugh so hard, I thought I might pee on the carpet as well!

Lynn and Deb,
Aren't you both scheduled for scans tomorrow? Good luck!!!! Keep us posted. Lots of good PMA vibes headed your way!

Nikki,
How are you doing!? Have you tested yet?

Carole,
Good luck with your scan tomorrow as well!!

FM,
How are you feeling this weekend? I am so hoping you are PG right this very minute! When can you test?

AFM,
I'm going in tomorrow morning for them to check my numbers again and I'm a little nervous. I have been reading up about the 1st trimester and trying to process all of the information. I've also been taking some nice long afternoon naps this weekend, but I'm grateful since I won't have time during the work week. I've successfully cut out all caffeine so now more My RE called this afternoon to congratulate us. He said he was crossing his fingers for us that we would have a smooth easy pregnancy and is looking forward to seeing us next week for our scan. I thought that was very sweet of him to do that. Everything feels a bit surreal. Does that make sense? Honestly, if it wasn't for that POAS test and all the amazing celebrations and support you girls gave me for my BFP, I'm might doubt that this is all actually happening. DH is still very cautious, but he did download a pregnancy app for his iphone.

We all need to keep up our PMA mantras going strong! We will all have our little ones soon and the wait will be so worth it. Love to you all!

 

[Baby4MJ]

Baby4MJ,
What is going on with your CBFM? Have you figured out what is going on with your cycle yet? I must say I'm perplexed but I hope you are doing well. I loved your little dominatrix emoticon. Crack that whip, like that Devo song from the '80's.

Hi, lava! :wave:
Well, that's a very good question and I have absolutely no idea. Today is CD19 and the CBFM is still showing high fertility. I used my last stick today, so if it asks for another one, I'm SOL. I went to the pharmacy to buy more CBFM test sticks today just in case, but they were $56!! https://i709.photobucket.com/albums/ww91/pq7z4t/smileys/smiley-shocked025.gifThat's twice as much as I usually pay (on amazon.com), so oh well I guess. Still light spotting today, but no more cramps. I'll do an HPT next Sunday and I guess that will tell me all I need to know. If I'm not preg, then at least I can drink on vacation, right?...{sigh}...

AFM,
I'm going in tomorrow morning for them to check my numbers again and I'm a little nervous. I have been reading up about the 1st trimester and trying to process all of the information. I've also been taking some nice long afternoon naps this weekend, but I'm grateful since I won't have time during the work week. I've successfully cut out all caffeine so now more My RE called this afternoon to congratulate us. He said he was crossing his fingers for us that we would have a smooth easy pregnancy and is looking forward to seeing us next week for our scan. I thought that was very sweet of him to do that. Everything feels a bit surreal. Does that make sense? Honestly, if it wasn't for that POAS test and all the amazing celebrations and support you girls gave me for my BFP, I'm might doubt that this is all actually happening. DH is still very cautious, but he did download a pregnancy app for his iphone.

Good luck tomorrow! Keep us posted. And what a great RE you have! That's pretty incredible. I think the fact that you've worked so hard for your BFP lends itself to a big sense of "surreality". No doubt though that you will be holding a happy healthy bundle of loveliness in 9 months - and then the reality will really set in!

 

[caroleb73]

Morning Ladies,

Dwrgi and Never so sorry this is not your month but you have to keep going as your day will come. I know sometimes it feels like it never will but you just can't give up. I have gone through so many ups and downs in the last 2 years of trying but I just try and focus on how much my baby will know just how much its mummy and daddy wanted them when it finally arrives. So many kids enter this world as results of "accidents" at least ours will know that they came after after a battle and how we fought to have them. Our babies will be very special and lucky indeed as we will all be amazing parents

Rebekkah you are constantly in my thoughts my dear friend and I have complete faith that you will get through this week and this pregnancy but I understand how frightening this time must be for you. I am willing you on for everything to be fine and for little Amelia to join you and DH not earlier than 37 weeks. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Btw love the podcast sermon, very cool indeed. If only they did that here in Bahrain

Lava really can't wait to hear the news after your scan, so very exciting for you and DH. I am sure that DH will relax once he has seen the scan as it makes everything so much more real. Guys like to see the screen and the evidence as they cannot feel what we do inside our bodies

Skye I am impressed with you taking that trip as sounds exhausting just getting there. I hope you enjoy the beauty of Italy and the gorgeous food and that the trip back is a little better for you. When is your next scan? Dying to hear more news on baby bump

Pradbrat I am so happy that the spotting has now stopped and I hope and pray that all will be just fine when you have your scan. You will be in my prayers every day and I will be willing that baby to be strong and hang on tight

AFM had my scan last night and looking like we should get 12 eggs now which is great. The dr has delayed EC to Wednesday as the eggs in the right ovary are still a little small so I had one final injection last night to give them a boost and then tonight at 11.45pm I take my trigger shot. He was asking loads of questions on how I feel as I think he is worried about me overstimming due to the amount of meds I have taken but we will see how it all goes. I am just glad that I have made it to this point again and praying that we get a BFP again but this time for keeps. One thing for sure is that the next 17 days are going to be emotional.

Take care ladies have a wonderful day and hope to catch up with all your news later on.

 

[Dwrgi]

Morning Ladies,

Dwrgi and Never so sorry this is not your month but you have to keep going as your day will come. I know sometimes it feels like it never will but you just can't give up. I have gone through so many ups and downs in the last 2 years of trying but I just try and focus on how much my baby will know just how much its mummy and daddy wanted them when it finally arrives. So many kids enter this world as results of "accidents" at least ours will know that they came after after a battle and how we fought to have them. Our babies will be very special and lucky indeed as we will all be amazing parents

Rebekkah you are constantly in my thoughts my dear friend and I have complete faith that you will get through this week and this pregnancy but I understand how frightening this time must be for you. I am willing you on for everything to be fine and for little Amelia to join you and DH not earlier than 37 weeks. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Btw love the podcast sermon, very cool indeed. If only they did that here in Bahrain

Lava really can't wait to hear the news after your scan, so very exciting for you and DH. I am sure that DH will relax once he has seen the scan as it makes everything so much more real. Guys like to see the screen and the evidence as they cannot feel what we do inside our bodies

Skye I am impressed with you taking that trip as sounds exhausting just getting there. I hope you enjoy the beauty of Italy and the gorgeous food and that the trip back is a little better for you. When is your next scan? Dying to hear more news on baby bump

Pradbrat I am so happy that the spotting has now stopped and I hope and pray that all will be just fine when you have your scan. You will be in my prayers every day and I will be willing that baby to be strong and hang on tight

AFM had my scan last night and looking like we should get 12 eggs now which is great. The dr has delayed EC to Wednesday as the eggs in the right ovary are still a little small so I had one final injection last night to give them a boost and then tonight at 11.45pm I take my trigger shot. He was asking loads of questions on how I feel as I think he is worried about me overstimming due to the amount of meds I have taken but we will see how it all goes. I am just glad that I have made it to this point again and praying that we get a BFP again but this time for keeps. One thing for sure is that the next 17 days are going to be emotional.

Take care ladies have a wonderful day and hope to catch up with all your news later on.

Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement! I felt myself welling up a bit when you mentioned the battle to get pregnant, as that is such an apt description. It is a complete battle, and I know it will be worth it in the end. My only concern is whether my OH and I survive it as all we have done over the past week is argue, and REAL screamers too, not just minor tiffs. I know it is to do with my thoughts about his lifestyle as I really don't think he is prepared to adjust his daily schedules to a. take the necessary vits and b. cut back on the running to keep the little swimmers cool. I feel so resentful and can barely spend 5 minutes in his company at the moment. Anyway, sorry to go on, you have enough on your plate.

Twelve eggs sound fanstatic! Let's hope now that you get your well deserved BFP! I am sure the next 17 days will be difficult, but we will all be here for you! Good luck and stay positive!

Lots of love and ,
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[skye2010]

Nevernever The bad witch really sucks. I'm so sorry. TTC really is a waiting game which also sucks. But you will get there in the end and all this heartache will be forgotten instanatly xxx

Debs, pheeew it's good to hear from you. In case you didn't see my earlier post pls get your progestrone rechecked and if it is low (less than 200 no good, higher the better) ask your dr if he could prescribe gestone injections instead of the suppositories. Please don't be sad sweety. This baby will survive it. Tons and tons and healthy pink sticky dust for you.

MA Yaay for 22 weeks. Amelia is a good girl and she will make it all the way. We will all coooh on her pink cheeked pictures in 3,5 months I'm sorry I've been missing form the other thread. I was travelling and didn't have time to catch up with the grad girls. I will drop in for a quick update. But will properly lodge there once I come back from holiday I guess. )) Give a little cuddle for me for Peediddy. hehehehe. You know he might be a little peed off since you are spending all your time in bed and maybe he wants to play with you more. So maybe he did that to get you up and about. Never know what those furballs think sometimes. But they seem to have a purpose

Dwrgi double for you too. Sweety I promise you you will survive the TTC and you will forget all this misery. I can not explain the arguments we had with DH while TTC. We were almost on each others throats many times. In fact more like me on his throat on exactly all the reasons you mentioned: pills, bedding, lifestyle, having the doggies sit on his lap, taking a hot shower etc. I think I went crazy at some point snapping at him at all times. I got depressed and disgusted about my own behaviour but I just couldn't help it. Which confused him. He didn't know what to do with me. But at the time I felt like somebody was pouring hot oil down my head 24 hours a day. Cause babies, TTC and guilt (cause I couldn't get pregnant) was the only thing that occupied my head. But all these warped feelings go away. DH and I still are very much in love and all is forgotten. TTC is a tough journey. Many women experience these things more or less. I'm sure, you will feel a lot better once you start the tx. Also you have your holiday before that. Hope you can take your mind off TTC and have a complete relaxing break. (Although it is hard, I couldn't manage that in our holidays) Dunno what to suggest other than a manicure, massage or a haircut. Although last time you had a haircut it was worst that the TTc itself right. hahahahhaha

4MJ You have actually worked so hard bedding around the clock )) And covered all the left right middle corners. Your Dh has deserved a medal for good behaviour. Nothing else left to do but just to wait unfortunately. Also I wonder if changing those OPK's might help? Cause it is weird that you should have a positive for so many days. After all they show if you have an LH surge and you can't have it for that many days. I wonder if that batch was faulty or sthg? Anyway, you couldn't have done more to have a BFP so jump back on the whatever's wagon if you can.

Carole 12 is a great number ) Hope all the little follies catch up and give you wonderful juicy beautiful healthy eggs. After the egg collection they gave me a serum called Albumin. Which apparently helps prevent OHSS. Mention it to your dr and see what he says. And keep on drinking and peeing. Especially after trigger very very important. You must drink 1-2 glasses before you go to bed which forces you to wake up during the night for toilet than you have another glass. If you don't wake up you can get an alarm. Make sure you drink and pee at least twice a night. Also keep up the proteins, helps the eggs to grow. Good luck hon. We will hopefully be cheering and jumping for you very soon. xxxx

Lava, your dr is really sweet. Can't wait for your 6 week scan I've been having afternoon naps lately. Can't help but just keep dosing off so it's all good that you rest as much as you can xxx

AFM I am overdosing on pasta )) It's so delicious. Will have a short cooking class this afternoon learning how to make fresh pasta. DH thought it might be a good investment for his appetite

 

[Dwrgi]

Nevernever The bad witch really sucks. I'm so sorry. TTC really is a waiting game which also sucks. But you will get there in the end and all this heartache will be forgotten instanatly xxx

Debs, pheeew it's good to hear from you. In case you didn't see my earlier post pls get your progestrone rechecked and if it is low (less than 200 no good, higher the better) ask your dr if he could prescribe gestone injections instead of the suppositories. Please don't be sad sweety. This baby will survive it. Tons and tons and healthy pink sticky dust for you.

MA Yaay for 22 weeks. Amelia is a good girl and she will make it all the way. We will all coooh on her pink cheeked pictures in 3,5 months I'm sorry I've been missing form the other thread. I was travelling and didn't have time to catch up with the grad girls. I will drop in for a quick update. But will properly lodge there once I come back from holiday I guess. )) Give a little cuddle for me for Peediddy. hehehehe. You know he might be a little peed off since you are spending all your time in bed and maybe he wants to play with you more. So maybe he did that to get you up and about. Never know what those furballs think sometimes. But they seem to have a purpose

Dwrgi double for you too. Sweety I promise you you will survive the TTC and you will forget all this misery. I can not explain the arguments we had with DH while TTC. We were almost on each others throats many times. In fact more like me on his throat on exactly all the reasons you mentioned: pills, bedding, lifestyle, having the doggies sit on his lap, taking a hot shower etc. I think I went crazy at some point snapping at him at all times. I got depressed and disgusted about my own behaviour but I just couldn't help it. Which confused him. He didn't know what to do with me. But at the time I felt like somebody was pouring hot oil down my head 24 hours a day. Cause babies, TTC and guilt (cause I couldn't get pregnant) was the only thing that occupied my head. But all these warped feelings go away. DH and I still are very much in love and all is forgotten. TTC is a tough journey. Many women experience these things more or less. I'm sure, you will feel a lot better once you start the tx. Also you have your holiday before that. Hope you can take your mind off TTC and have a complete relaxing break. (Although it is hard, I couldn't manage that in our holidays) Dunno what to suggest other than a manicure, massage or a haircut. Although last time you had a haircut it was worst that the TTc itself right. hahahahhaha

4MJ You have actually worked so hard bedding around the clock )) And covered all the left right middle corners. Your Dh has deserved a medal for good behaviour. Nothing else left to do but just to wait unfortunately. Also I wonder if changing those OPK's might help? Cause it is weird that you should have a positive for so many days. After all they show if you have an LH surge and you can't have it for that many days. I wonder if that batch was faulty or sthg? Anyway, you couldn't have done more to have a BFP so jump back on the whatever's wagon if you can.

Carole 12 is a great number ) Hope all the little follies catch up and give you wonderful juicy beautiful healthy eggs. After the egg collection they gave me a serum called Albumin. Which apparently helps prevent OHSS. Mention it to your dr and see what he says. And keep on drinking and peeing. Especially after trigger very very important. You must drink 1-2 glasses before you go to bed which forces you to wake up during the night for toilet than you have another glass. If you don't wake up you can get an alarm. Make sure you drink and pee at least twice a night. Also keep up the proteins, helps the eggs to grow. Good luck hon. We will hopefully be cheering and jumping for you very soon. xxxx

Lava, your dr is really sweet. Can't wait for your 6 week scan I've been having afternoon naps lately. Can't help but just keep dosing off so it's all good that you rest as much as you can xxx

AFM I am overdosing on pasta )) It's so delicious. Will have a short cooking class this afternoon learning how to make fresh pasta. DH thought it might be a good investment for his appetite

Thank you so much Skye, and I could hug you! So I shall send a virtual iconic instead! You have reassured me so much! I read somewhere today that the stress of infertility is akin to that experienced by those suffering serious diseases, and I can empathise with this as it is so overwhelming. OH and I need to sit down and air our grievances but I can't talk to him at the moment as he just 'flies off the handle'-maybe he is feeling guilty as it's more than likely his swimmies that are to blame! The best thing I can do is email him and then let him digest what I am saying, and discuss the email when we are both feeling calm.

I was supposed to ring the clinic last week to organise dates for treatment, and I haven't! I think this means that I'm officially putting it off. I just have this block about the treatment, especially as my AMH was low (2.9) and the doctor thinks I will produce, at most, 5 eggs and more than likely 1-3. So, I guess that in my mind, I have already decided it will fail so why bother???

Anyway, enough of me and my woes. The pasta class sounds fantastic-it sounds really amazing! I love Italy-I am so jealous of you being there! I must plan our get away, but I'm up to my eyes in exam marking so have no time to do anything (198 scripts down out of a total 391). I am sure that your DH will appreciate your new found cooking skills!

Enjoy your day and buon pomerioggio!

 

[HappyAuntie]

Hey all,

Selfish post but I'm done for the month. I tested this morning 11 DPO and got a BFN. I have fallen off the whatever wagon in spectacular style again.

Hope everyone else is doing good... to you all

XxX

Falling off the wagon? I thought it had seatbelts to strap us in!! Hope you feel better soon - there's always room for more on the whatevs wagon.

AFM had my scan last night and looking like we should get 12 eggs now which is great. The dr has delayed EC to Wednesday as the eggs in the right ovary are still a little small so I had one final injection last night to give them a boost and then tonight at 11.45pm I take my trigger shot. He was asking loads of questions on how I feel as I think he is worried about me overstimming due to the amount of meds I have taken but we will see how it all goes. I am just glad that I have made it to this point again and praying that we get a BFP again but this time for keeps. One thing for sure is that the next 17 days are going to be emotional.

Take care ladies have a wonderful day and hope to catch up with all your news later on.

12 eggs!!! That's great news, Carole!! So glad your follies finally decided to get on board! We'll be right here with you for the next 17 days to help you through.

Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement! I felt myself welling up a bit when you mentioned the battle to get pregnant, as that is such an apt description. It is a complete battle, and I know it will be worth it in the end. My only concern is whether my OH and I survive it as all we have done over the past week is argue, and REAL screamers too, not just minor tiffs. I know it is to do with my thoughts about his lifestyle as I really don't think he is prepared to adjust his daily schedules to a. take the necessary vits and b. cut back on the running to keep the little swimmers cool. I feel so resentful and can barely spend 5 minutes in his company at the moment. Anyway, sorry to go on, you have enough on your plate.

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time lately. DH and I had a huge screamer last week on Wednesday night - we've only had two screamers in our entire marriage, so it was really upsetting. Fortunately for us, I had my weekly counseling appt already scheduled for the next morning anyway! So DH came with me and it really helped a lot.

If you're feeling resentful about your DH's lifestyle etc, may I suggest talking with your dr about when your DH isn't around - tell your dr your concerns. He may be able to put your concerns about running and vitamins to rest. Or if he says yes the running and vitamins are a problem, have HIM tell your DH so that it's coming from an official and not from you - I think most men are more apt to follow a dr's instructions than a wife's "suggestions" because apparently they think we're all harpies and nags when you get right down to it.

This TTC stuff is HARD. We all deserve medals for getting through it. And get help if you need it - the right counselor can make a world of difference.

I was supposed to ring the clinic last week to organise dates for treatment, and I haven't! I think this means that I'm officially putting it off. I just have this block about the treatment, especially as my AMH was low (2.9) and the doctor thinks I will produce, at most, 5 eggs and more than likely 1-3. So, I guess that in my mind, I have already decided it will fail so why bother??? [/COLOR][/FONT]

I am the QUEEN of putting things off!!!! Today we have workmen here to install a new sump pump in our basement - we've had water in the basement since DECEMBER!! I just had so much anxiety about how much the repairs were going to cost that I couldn't even bring myself to make the phone calls to get some bids. I COMPLETELY know how you feel. That said... don't worry about what the dr thinks your egg production will be until you get there. Even HE has no idea how you're really going to respond until you get into it and check with a scan. So don't let his predictions put you off. If he didn't think IVF was a good option for you, he wouldn't do it at all.

AFM, round two of houseguests is gone... round three arrives on Wednesday. We had to empty the basement yesterday so they can tear up the floor today and tomorrow. My life is a circus this month.

Happy Monday all! Can't wait to hear how those scans go today!

 

[Dwrgi]

Hey all,

Selfish post but I'm done for the month. I tested this morning 11 DPO and got a BFN. I have fallen off the whatever wagon in spectacular style again.

Hope everyone else is doing good... to you all

XxX

Falling off the wagon? I thought it had seatbelts to strap us in!! Hope you feel better soon - there's always room for more on the whatevs wagon.

AFM had my scan last night and looking like we should get 12 eggs now which is great. The dr has delayed EC to Wednesday as the eggs in the right ovary are still a little small so I had one final injection last night to give them a boost and then tonight at 11.45pm I take my trigger shot. He was asking loads of questions on how I feel as I think he is worried about me overstimming due to the amount of meds I have taken but we will see how it all goes. I am just glad that I have made it to this point again and praying that we get a BFP again but this time for keeps. One thing for sure is that the next 17 days are going to be emotional.

Take care ladies have a wonderful day and hope to catch up with all your news later on.

12 eggs!!! That's great news, Carole!! So glad your follies finally decided to get on board! We'll be right here with you for the next 17 days to help you through.

Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement! I felt myself welling up a bit when you mentioned the battle to get pregnant, as that is such an apt description. It is a complete battle, and I know it will be worth it in the end. My only concern is whether my OH and I survive it as all we have done over the past week is argue, and REAL screamers too, not just minor tiffs. I know it is to do with my thoughts about his lifestyle as I really don't think he is prepared to adjust his daily schedules to a. take the necessary vits and b. cut back on the running to keep the little swimmers cool. I feel so resentful and can barely spend 5 minutes in his company at the moment. Anyway, sorry to go on, you have enough on your plate.

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time lately. DH and I had a huge screamer last week on Wednesday night - we've only had two screamers in our entire marriage, so it was really upsetting. Fortunately for us, I had my weekly counseling appt already scheduled for the next morning anyway! So DH came with me and it really helped a lot.

If you're feeling resentful about your DH's lifestyle etc, may I suggest talking with your dr about when your DH isn't around - tell your dr your concerns. He may be able to put your concerns about running and vitamins to rest. Or if he says yes the running and vitamins are a problem, have HIM tell your DH so that it's coming from an official and not from you - I think most men are more apt to follow a dr's instructions than a wife's "suggestions" because apparently they think we're all harpies and nags when you get right down to it.

This TTC stuff is HARD. We all deserve medals for getting through it. And get help if you need it - the right counselor can make a world of difference.

I was supposed to ring the clinic last week to organise dates for treatment, and I haven't! I think this means that I'm officially putting it off. I just have this block about the treatment, especially as my AMH was low (2.9) and the doctor thinks I will produce, at most, 5 eggs and more than likely 1-3. So, I guess that in my mind, I have already decided it will fail so why bother??? [/COLOR][/FONT]

I am the QUEEN of putting things off!!!! Today we have workmen here to install a new sump pump in our basement - we've had water in the basement since DECEMBER!! I just had so much anxiety about how much the repairs were going to cost that I couldn't even bring myself to make the phone calls to get some bids. I COMPLETELY know how you feel. That said... don't worry about what the dr thinks your egg production will be until you get there. Even HE has no idea how you're really going to respond until you get into it and check with a scan. So don't let his predictions put you off. If he didn't think IVF was a good option for you, he wouldn't do it at all.

AFM, round two of houseguests is gone... round three arrives on Wednesday. We had to empty the basement yesterday so they can tear up the floor today and tomorrow. My life is a circus this month.

Happy Monday all! Can't wait to hear how those scans go today!

Thank you so much for your help-I'm really struggling at the moment and sooooooo despondent. I think it is a good idea to seek counselling-I really feel we need a mediator as I mis-interpret everything OH says and he misinterprets everything I say. We just can't talk without arguing.

I'm sorry that you and your DH had a bad row last week-they come from nowhere don't they?? But, I'm glad you were able to see a counsellor together-what brilliant timing!

Good luck with draining the basement, that sounds like a nightmare! And also good luck with your houseguests! What did I hear once? Visitors are like fish-they go off after a few days!

You're also right about the IVF scenario-I just CANNOT get my head around it and I know that Skye is right-that I'll feel better once the treatment starts but I keep stalling!

Thanks again and I'm sending you big hugs for being there!

Take it easy, take care,
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[missyt]

MA, your day at the clinic with all the irresponsible parents sounds like a nightmare. I know exactly how you feel. It really sickens me too. I know you'll get past Thursday. Just don't stress yourself out too much. Think of all the joys baby Amelia will bring you and how happy you will be when you hold her in your arms for the first time. I'm still praying for you because I know we don't just need prays to get our BFP, we still need prayers when we are pg too.

Never, big hugs

Dwrgi, I feel for you about you and DH fighting. Its bad enough marriages are challenging regardless of TTC. Look at the couples that split up that can have children easily (my brother is an example with 3 kids). TTC just adds an extra stressor in the mix that makes us fight. It happens to the best of us and as we all know, communication with men is difficult in itself. I'm miffed at DH at the moment. One of his sisters has been notorious for making stupid, insensitive remarks. He knows that I want her to know anything about our TTC because last year she made a comment about how we know DH isn't the problem since he already has a kid. DH knows how much that hurt me and I told him I don't want to talk to her about TTC anymore. Well, we went up to visit the in-laws yesterday and what does she do but bombard me with questions about my "procedure" and when I'm supposed to test. I played dumb and then she showed me the texts between her and DH about how I just had another IUI. I can't believe he told her. I gave him an earful this morning and told him that I didn't want her to know I ever even had an IUI before. I sent him a few nasty texts after that and I'm still fumimg that he was so insenstive. I just feel betrayed. I get resentful too because I feel like he doesn't know what I'm going through at all because he already has a kid. I guess I'm just not in a good place right now either.

Carole, 12 eggs! That sound great! Best of luck to you on your EC! Fx'd for you.

AFM, I went in for my test this morning. I'm not feeling positive and I'm preparing myself for the negative results phone call this afternoon and realizing I've had another failed IUI. I wish I would've just tested at home yesterday so I could've had my cry at home instead of at work. I just hope I can hold it together.

 

[onmymind17]

AFM, I went in for my test this morning. I'm not feeling positive and I'm preparing myself for the negative results phone call this afternoon and realizing I've had another failed IUI. I wish I would've just tested at home yesterday so I could've had my cry at home instead of at work. I just hope I can hold it together.

Oh honey, i know exactly how that feels, i am praying that you get your surprise bfp, remember, and i know this from experiance, the one time i was pg, i was so sure it did not work, i almost did not go for the blood test, and i was so shocked when they said it was positive!! Hang in there honey, either way, dont give up, but i have a good feeling your going to be super happy later today

 

[labrat44]

Labrat loveley happy pict of u and DH. You look more like country girl than a labrat )) hahahaha Sorry about all the exwife problem. She sounds like a mean woman. This sort of behaviour always comes back she will realise. She is actually harming her own dughter. I hope your daughter in law could get over her negative influence. No idea about your symptomps. Can it be stress related?

Thanks, Skye! yes, she is a mean woman, but her mom is worse! I think the ex actually does care about SD, but gramma is only concerned with ruining my husbands life. They are both bitter that he survived the divorce, as she left because they were having money problems (of her doing - she was hiding tax bills, and medical bills....) Surprise, surprise, she's still having money problems and we aren't.... huh.

I think you are right, probably stress related! This morning I feel hungover, but I know I'm not, because I just had one drink yesterday, but we've been baling hay and dealing with equipment problems, and I think it is stress and allergies. woo hoo! So, yes, I'm country, too! That pic has DH with a 'natural' expression - I can't get him to smile in a picture for the life of me! He always looks like he's at the DMV getting his license pic!

I've just caught up on all the posts, and can't wait to see how those in the TWW are faring - there have been a lot of BFPs here lately, and hoping for more!!

 

[caroleb73]

Morning Ladies,

Dwrgi and Never so sorry this is not your month but you have to keep going as your day will come. I know sometimes it feels like it never will but you just can't give up. I have gone through so many ups and downs in the last 2 years of trying but I just try and focus on how much my baby will know just how much its mummy and daddy wanted them when it finally arrives. So many kids enter this world as results of "accidents" at least ours will know that they came after after a battle and how we fought to have them. Our babies will be very special and lucky indeed as we will all be amazing parents

Rebekkah you are constantly in my thoughts my dear friend and I have complete faith that you will get through this week and this pregnancy but I understand how frightening this time must be for you. I am willing you on for everything to be fine and for little Amelia to join you and DH not earlier than 37 weeks. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Btw love the podcast sermon, very cool indeed. If only they did that here in Bahrain

Lava really can't wait to hear the news after your scan, so very exciting for you and DH. I am sure that DH will relax once he has seen the scan as it makes everything so much more real. Guys like to see the screen and the evidence as they cannot feel what we do inside our bodies

Skye I am impressed with you taking that trip as sounds exhausting just getting there. I hope you enjoy the beauty of Italy and the gorgeous food and that the trip back is a little better for you. When is your next scan? Dying to hear more news on baby bump

Pradbrat I am so happy that the spotting has now stopped and I hope and pray that all will be just fine when you have your scan. You will be in my prayers every day and I will be willing that baby to be strong and hang on tight

AFM had my scan last night and looking like we should get 12 eggs now which is great. The dr has delayed EC to Wednesday as the eggs in the right ovary are still a little small so I had one final injection last night to give them a boost and then tonight at 11.45pm I take my trigger shot. He was asking loads of questions on how I feel as I think he is worried about me overstimming due to the amount of meds I have taken but we will see how it all goes. I am just glad that I have made it to this point again and praying that we get a BFP again but this time for keeps. One thing for sure is that the next 17 days are going to be emotional.

Take care ladies have a wonderful day and hope to catch up with all your news later on.

Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement! I felt myself welling up a bit when you mentioned the battle to get pregnant, as that is such an apt description. It is a complete battle, and I know it will be worth it in the end. My only concern is whether my OH and I survive it as all we have done over the past week is argue, and REAL screamers too, not just minor tiffs. I know it is to do with my thoughts about his lifestyle as I really don't think he is prepared to adjust his daily schedules to a. take the necessary vits and b. cut back on the running to keep the little swimmers cool. I feel so resentful and can barely spend 5 minutes in his company at the moment. Anyway, sorry to go on, you have enough on your plate.

Twelve eggs sound fanstatic! Let's hope now that you get your well deserved BFP! I am sure the next 17 days will be difficult, but we will all be here for you! Good luck and stay positive!

Lots of love and ,
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Hey Dwrgi hang in there with the DH situation as believe me there have been times when I thought that it would be the end of me and my DH. To say we had heated arguments would be an understatement at times but somehow you do come through and stronger. I think that guys find this situation so much harder to deal with than us even though it is our bodies that take a beating each month. They feel it is a knock to their sense of self as all guys are supposed to be super virile and produce with ease, then there is the fact that they see you go through so much yet there is very little they can do and it makes them emotional but they find it so hard to share that emotion. They also see it as taking life over and they long for things to be just "normal" again with normal non-baby making sex. Like hey don't us girls wish for the same!!! But we just deal with it differently.

I know my DH has found it hard to see me so upset and at times has wanted us to stop going just because he felt that if we stop trying then there will be no more monthly disappointments when the witch gets me. It took some time for him to totally understand that right now I can't stop trying as this pain won't go away until I get my BFP for keeps. He now does get it and is great but I am sure that if IVF doesn't work this time then we will hit another rocky patch on the TTC subject as he will be extremely hurt and raw for a few months.

As I said this TTC thing is a battle and as with all battles you gain some margin in some areas and lose in others. There are highs and lows and it is how you deal and cope with those that makes the difference. Have your bad days when you cry and scream and just can't cope and seem to hate each other but just make sure you have more upbeat days with laughter and smiles. Maybe think about things you guys use to do before TTC came into the picture that you love and organise it as a surprise, he needs to know how much you do love him but that this is really important to you and why. For me it was telling my DH that I had never felt that I had wanted kids until I met him, everything changed and I wanted a family because of him and how he made me feel.

Hang in there and I am sure things will improve, just remember most guys just aren't good at the emotional stuff at all. Sending you big

 

[missyt]

AFM, I went in for my test this morning. I'm not feeling positive and I'm preparing myself for the negative results phone call this afternoon and realizing I've had another failed IUI. I wish I would've just tested at home yesterday so I could've had my cry at home instead of at work. I just hope I can hold it together.

Oh honey, i know exactly how that feels, i am praying that you get your surprise bfp, remember, and i know this from experiance, the one time i was pg, i was so sure it did not work, i almost did not go for the blood test, and i was so shocked when they said it was positive!! Hang in there honey, either way, dont give up, but i have a good feeling your going to be super happy later today

Thanks so much. It really does help reading your words of encouragement. The one thing that has made me feel better today is knowing that I can vent to you girls and you KNOW what I'm going through.

 

[FutureMommie]

Baby4mj- Thank you so much for thinking of me and rooting for me!

Caroleb- 12 eggs Yay I hope everything goes perfect, that you don't overstim and that you end up with a bfp and sticky beans!

Skye- Thanks- your trip there sounds horrid but it sounds like your are enjoying it and that it's beautiful! I'm slightly jealous, I hope I can make it to Paris for my 40th birthday!

Never- Sorry that AF showed but please don't give up! Its going to happen for us!

Pad- Loving the PMA Good luck with your scan I can't wait to hear about it.

MA- I'm sorry that you are so fatigued but all that matters is that Amelia is safe and snug in there.

Dwrgi- Sorry AF got you too. You are so right that TTC is a battle, and it can take it's toll on a marriage, there are times when my dh and I argue constantly about ttc. Hang in there, I know you guys will get thru this. Maybe a serious conversation over dinner with dh is needed to let him know how lifestyle changes and vitamins can make the difference.

Lava- Can't wait to hear those numbers, I hope they are thru the roof. Your weekend sounds like it was lovely!.

Missyt- Sending major hugs your way. I don't know what the outcome of your test will be and ofcourse I'm hoping that it will be a bfp but if it isn't you can't give up, have your cry and then jump back in the saddle, we are going to have a baby!!!!!! Sending Loads of PMA.....I wish there was a smiley for that.

AFM- I'm feeling better today and what I found out after much prayer was that my nasuea has nothing to do with pg but everything to do with me stressing and worrying about how I was going to feel on my trip to San Francisco (vacy begins tomorrow!) What I realized thru prayer was that I was making myself sick. My DH and BFF bought it to my attention on Saturday after several days of suffering, and increased blood pressure. I believe God answered my prayers thru them. After relaxing and making the decision to enjoy the trip regardless, my appetite has returned and the naseau is goine. I've spent so much time worrying over the past week that my 2ww is almost over, I couldn't really focus on symptom spotting. I will say that I got a little crampy yesterday and had to lay down for a while and afterwards the cramping was gone. Today I am officially 10dpo. I took an opk this morning and it had 2 lines but the control line wasn't really dark, so I guess that means there is some HCG still left in my system? I haven't taken a pg test yet, I haven't decided if I am going to test on my trip or just wait and see what happens. I'm still a little crampy today so not really sure what to think . I will keep you guys posted. I leave tomorrow afternoon so I may not be on a lot over the next week but I will try to pop in and if I get my BFP while I'm away I will certainly let you ladies know, you will be next after me and DH.