Hello ladies,
I dont know if you remember me, its been quite a while since i had been on here, i have checked in and wanted to offer
and love to Happy Auntie, and Dwrgi, my heart just breaks for you ladies.
to all you other ladies, and Purple congrats honey i am so happy for you!!
AFM, i totaly stopped thinking about TTC all together, i was not on any message boards, and had made peace with the fact that we would never have a child. On St. Patricks day i realized that i was late for AF by a couple of days, i figured it was just my body being stupid, but since i am taking diet pills, i figured i would check to be sure, i took the test and hopped into the shower, when i got out, i checked the test and there were two lines. You could have knocked me over with a feather, after 3 1/2 years we got pg on our own, unfortunatly the good news stops there, Saturday we had a positive test, by monday night it was negative, and on tuesday i started to bleed, we lost our 5th little one. Two good things came out of it, one is that we can do it on our own, and i do believe for me the stress of TTC was stopping me from getting pg, and two, my OB and I have figured out that I have a Luteal Phase Defect, he said if it was chromosonal issues we would vary the week that we lost the baby, for me its positive, then negative two days later, he said what was happening is the baby implants, but by the time it does my lining is already breaking down. So now i am on progesterone cream after i ovulate, i am also on Zinc, DHEA, Maca Root, and Royal Jelly, i refuse to go back to all the planning and hoping, honestly i really dont think it will happen again, but i want to at least give the little one a chance of sticking if it happens. Right now i am concentrating on remodeling our kitchen, i am fianlly going to have a dishwasher
and we are going to go away for a few days in September for our 5 year anniversary, we also have plans to go on a cruise with our friends next year, so that is what i am looking forward to. I just wanted to pop on and say hi to you ladies, i think about you all the time, but i just had to get away from all of it. When we found out we were pg 3/17, and we lost it, i was so mad, not because we lost the baby, but because I had finally let it go and was happy, after the positive test i went right back to that mind set for a while, and now have finally gotten myself out of it again. My thoughts are with you ladies, i love and miss you!!