TTC 1st child 35+ (Please spoiler any PG news/announcements).

[chickenchaser]

Hi Ladies sorry I haven't been about for a couple of weeks, I needed some time away from B&B and as it is holiday time we headed off beautiful Mexico. We had a wonderful time and renewed our relationship while we were there.
So much has happened while I have been gone so please forgive me if I miss you off as always love and hug to you all,

Butterfly - Special big hugs for you you have obviously been doing a lot of soul searching. I hope adoption works out for you, there is a very lucky child out there waiting for you

Dashka - Hope you have had a lovely holiday.

Viccat - Fin is beautiful I love him I lost my 2 beautiful dogs only a couple of months ago. My 16 year old springer followed very quickly by his shadow our 14 year old cocker. I miss my both with all my heart. I'm left now with 3 feathered babies, which are not so cuddly but still very funny.

dr h, Lady H & Nessaw- Sorry about BFN

Dwrgi - I have all my fingers crossed for you that this will work, you have been through so much. You are amazing, We have already decided not to put ourselves through what many of you girls are doing. Poorly because I'm not brave enough, I hope I don't regret it. That also goes for all you other ladies that are will and able to give up everything to have a child, I take my hat off to you

Honeybee - I also feel I'm not able to contribute to what some of these ladies are going though but then I also know that just knowing that there is someone there willing to listen helps more than we know sometimes. And a always help, well for me anyway

nessaw- Cheesecake Is always a gift.

DrS - So happy for you

froliky - for you hun, I hope everything is going well for you.

Ksluice and Maddy - Welcome

I am struggling to keep up with you ladies and I'm very jetlagged so I'm going to sign off and will do more tomorrow.

Hugs to all.

 

[Lady H]

I'm lurking, cheering you all on over here.

 

[drsquid]

oy freaking out today... brown blood this am... no red, no real cramps.. i know it is common but... yikes

 

[Lady H]

oy freaking out today... brown blood this am... no red, no real cramps.. i know it is common but... yikes

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hun, I guess with two in there it's not uncommon

 

[ksluice]

oy freaking out today... brown blood this am... no red, no real cramps.. i know it is common but... yikes

to you squid! i wonder if its more common with twins?

 

[HappyAuntie]

Extra big squishy for Dwrgi and Tiger this week!!!

 

[padbrat]

Dwrgi and Tiger all the very best for this treatment... sometime being chilled out is the key to it working...

Hey hit and Chicken..

DrH and sooooo with you... it is depressing isn't it...

DrS.... I am no expert.. I won't pretend I am. You are a medical expert ... but sometimes the fear in your heart overcomes the knowledge in your mind. Have all crossed that this is nothing to fear x

Dash hope you are having a lovely hol!

Lady H and Twinks I am feeling a lil lurkey myself...

Butterfly don't forget to let us know how you are doing with the adoption plan...

Fro how are you?

I haven't moved yet, had a lil melt down but then took a grip of myself (must have been your cutches Dwrgi) and am back in control...

However, especially our resident medics (Drh and Drs and Purps)... how have I have highs on CBFM for 12 days straight and no peak and no ov showing on FF despite loads of EWCM??? I really don't understand... am I going to be menopausal... is this a sign???

 

[purplelou]

firstly good luck Dwrgi today the uss let us know how you got on??

big loves xx

 

[purplelou]

DrS - oh big get yourself checked out because there's nothing worse than worrying chick!!

Tiger - good luck for tomorrow with the injections

hitthejackpot - I thinkit's very wise to think if your FS is the best one for you, especially when you can choose!! because you need to have someone who is working with you in partnership. you should have a look at HappyAunties journal because her FS and his team sound amazing...alll doctors should be like hers!!

chicken - welcome back lovely, Mexico sounds lovely! everyone needs a little break now and again

 

[purplelou]

However, especially our resident medics (Drh and Drs and Purps)... how have I have highs on CBFM for 12 days straight and no peak and no ov showing on FF despite loads of EWCM??? I really don't understand... am I going to be menopausal... is this a sign???

ok, this might be a long answer....

firstly - in the first months of using the cbfm - it is "learning you" so you don't always get peaks.

if your luteal phase is short, sometimes the cbfm can miss it - it happened to me on one occasion, I had the ewcm and then the temp rise so I knew I ov'd but the machine just kept giving me highs cos it missed the peaks (probably happened right after I tested, and was over before the next test) - in this case - always trust your body, if you are getting ewcm - consider it time


the cbfm - will keep giving you Highs until it sees a peak, and if it doesn't see the peak, it will give you highs until your period

I wonder if your FF is a bit odd because you are a restless sleeper???? - just a thought , but if you are moving lots or whatever, you wouldn't be getting that 3 hours of "still" time that gives you a stable temp.....

Pad I hope that helps, don't worry about menpause etc based on the cbfm big loves

and ps - meltdowns are most defintely allowed! big loves xxx

 

[purplelou]

and big to everyone I haven't names already. I hope Wednesday treats you well!

 

[Dwrgi]

HTJ-so lovely to see your post, and very glad to hear that you are consiering a different doctor. I know for a fact that my clinic says that we ovulate on average when follicles at 20mm. It looked as if your RE just let them cook for too long which is really annoying, as you invest so much in treatment, emotionally and physically. Hopefully, you'll get a better doctor in the Autumn. Good luck!

Chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiicken-was worried about you!! And there you were sunning yourself on a Mexico beach! Phut! That'll learn me to be anxious about people MIA!! Sounds like a great holiday and good to renew your relationship-was that like an official thing or just getting back to discovering each other??? Sounds good anyway!!! Thanks for the vote of confidence-shucks!!

Lady H-how are you??

Pad-I hope that you manage to get some help from that CBFM. It sounds like it's just teething problems. GL with the move and the job-glad you took stock, not good to be anxious or stressed. Here's lots more coming right at ya!!

HA-thanks for the GL!! I am thinking of you and the Sunshine Band, and hope they're getting all snuggly. Big

Ksluice-have you started stimming yet? Can't remember what you said....

Dr S-am sure it's nothing to worry about, especially as it was brown.... Hang on in there, Axx

Owl, Twinks, Maddy, Tiger, Lil, Butterfly, Asry, Bear (I saw your Thanks-how are you hun???), Dashka, Dr H, and everybody I haven't mentioned, a big and

Baseline scan went well-nice thin lining and no cysts, etc. Also managed a chat with the suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper adoooooooooooooooorable Lovely Lyndon.................. sigh........................!! Start stimming tonight-375 of menopur. Reduced dose, see if it makes better eggs. Bit of a gamble....

Also, am going to change my NHS doctors because they are CR&P with capital letters (in case you didn't spot the capitalisation yourselves). No idea of customer care and completely ignorant morons.... Rant over, I am now going to go back into that state of caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllmmmm!!!!

Love to you all, Axxxx

 

[purplelou]

that sounds like all good news Dwrgi _ I happy and rooting for you!!

 

[twinkle1975]

Sounds good Dwrgi - yay for the lovely Lyndon!

Pad - hope Purps' advice has reassured you a bit.

HTJ - I know what it feels like to hear the clock ticking - I keep trying to think about all the other ladies from here who have got their BFP's & are older than me!


Love to the rest of you xxx

 

[ksluice]

HTJ and Chicken--Howdy :wave: thanks for the shout out and nice to meet you both!

DrS--Wondering how you are and sending you lots of

Purple--:howdy!: Hope your Weds is fantastic.

Dwrgi--SO glad for your great US!! When is your next scan? I really know nothing of how stimming processes, but just thinking/wondering if the possibility of upping things around day 5 might make it less of a gamble?...GL with starting stims tonight, and lots of to you!!!

I am supposed to start stims a week from Sat (the 28th). Right now, I'm just sitting here absorbing my Lupron this morning (I would usually put a smiley next to a statement like that, but i am not feeling friendly to the Lupron.) Also feeling crampy and wondering if AF will put in a showing. Yesterday was so zany I am rather hoping it will, maybe smooth out the hormone ride.

One bonus of the IVF process, the hubby is going to work from home one day coming up here, and maybe even tomorrow, b/c he has to go for his infectious disease panel and the lab closes at 5:30. So that is nice. I like it when he hangs around even if he's on the computer all day

 

[LilSluz]

OK, I think I’m back now??? Am I? Sorry ladies – needed a breather & needed to take care of loads of stuff (of which I only got about 30% done, but isn’t that always the case?). I swear drama just came out of the woodworks in the last month… ANYWHO, onto YOU (beware, its loooong!):

Dwrgi – Aw I missed you too!!! Yay for scan today & LL!!! As for your posts about “not being into it”, I PM’d you a few times, but I hear you & sympathize as well. Perhaps I should have PMA’d you? Yay to PMA, though! Whether or not it helps fertility physically is one matter, but your spirit/soul? That’s a whole other story as it is always part of you & tending to it can make all the difference in your daily happiness & way of looking at life… Also, I say throw everything you at it that you can – espec if it doesn’t hurt (see AFM)!

Dashka – Can you tell me how to get to Sesame Street? Actually…you could! Hope you are having a blast! And hope AD & DH can keep up with you Tell mr. Snuffalumpugas (sp???) I say Hi! Does he do autographs? I too think you O’d on CD 12 – you can override FF to help you better keep track (under Ovulation detector, click on Tuning/Override…) Big !!!


Butterfly - yay for journal! Don’t you dare go cocooning on us, you have to stick around & keep us up to date on your progress! I am very interested in how it all goes & since you are the first I know branching out & doing the adoption, perhaps it will help one of us if we choose to do the same one day??? So many different things said about adoption, & I guess it depends where/how you do it, etc. so very interested… and of course interested in your well-being above all else!


Purple – How dare you mis a day like that? You’re so funny - can we have Purple day today please? I know – that’s SO last week! Hope you are doing well, honey. I really hope the maint chemo keeps your dad in check & feeling well as can be expected. He’s been given a whole new reason to live (ok, teary-eyed, better stop…now)

LadyH - So sorry you are feeling down. Very happy that DH getting SA results soon tho – something to look forward to? You come back when you are ready, honey.

Asry – How you doin, honey? I hope you are doing “Fin” Ok, they are bad today…

Fro – How you doin lil Fro Rida? You are so awesome with your posts! You get everybody – must take you hours to catch up & then write all that?! I hear you with BFP is only the beginning… After 4 mc’s now, I am hoping that they can put me into a medically-induced coma for the remaining 8 months!!! But I have every confidence in you & I think of you often – sending ;hugs: to clear away those bad, nasty nightmares!

HTJ – if you are lurking at all, I hope that you get really nice & healthy & come back on here ready to kick some a$$! And hopef with a new RE that will catch the O growlmad: )!!!


Pad – You are allowed to be down/out of sorts, chickie! If you didn’t every once in a while, I’d worry… You got me baffled about the chart situation, but I see there are some crosshairs now? Also, if CBFM is anything like OPK’s as far as “when” you catch the pee, I went 9 freakin months with no +OPK, although I was defin ov’ing (CD 21’s). I now have to POAS 2x/day at EWCM for OPK’s – sometimes 3x/day to catch the surge! I only happened to “have a feeling” & POAS 2 nights ago – way before my ov time - & got +OPK – yikes! But I dunno if LH surge happens quickly what that would translate into for a CBFM? (maybe do CBFM at lunch & OPK at dinner??? Sorry – tea?) I am still hoping & praying for a pink sticky! Sending you some

Tigerlilly – I, like you, Dwrgi, Owl, Viccat & HA, am in that position too, & do understand when TTC gets to the “going through the motions” point You know that time is running out & God-willing you won’t have to look back one day in regret that you didn’t do everything you could…because regret SUCKS big hairy arses! I hope you are hanging in there this cycle & that this ends up being it for you!

HA – I haven’t been on much & haven’t stalked in a while, but lurked on your journal & just wanna say I am pulling for the Sunshine Band! And that’s just the way uh-huh, uh-huh, I like it!

Bumble – so sorry honey – damn Fri 13th! But really glad you had talk w/DH & that “perhaps” you can see each other more often??? Your other choice is IUI if you can’t you know…they can just make him into popsicles & thaw him when its time? (men have it wayyyyy too easy )

 

[LilSluz]

Part 2! (hey, its been a while, cut me some slack!)

DrS -

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So over the moon for your 2 lil twins how wonderful!!! Don't worry about a little bleeding - I know easier said than done, but Fro had lots & she only has one... Somehow I think you'd handle 2 just fine... with a nanny Or you could give one to me!!!

DrHouse – So sorry came & came early… But you definitely made me laugh on the red wine comment… you are speaking my language now… I hope that maybe the next 1.5 months “off” maybe you can get into the health groove to keep you occupied? Easier said than done, I know!

Chicken – So you flew the coop to Mexico, good for you!!! Get some sleep – your trip & making up w/DH sounds lovely!!! (funny how just leaving your city can sometimes do that???)

Manuiti - How are you doing hun? I hope you are coping as best as you can & hoping hcg out fo your system now. Are you planning your next cycle yet or just taking it easy?

Twinks – Maybe getting back to that raw nature can do the body some good, IYKWIM!? (think Tarzan...in the wild...ok, I'll stop!) If you got a kick out of Wenglish then you’d love Spanglish, too… I get it often!

Mirium - yup, I know what the “whatever” feeling is like – espec this cycle. You go through the motions but not expecting much… However, you know what they say about things happening when you least expect them? Let’s hope for all our sakes! But I do hope Femara & IUI work this cycle, where are you in your cycle? If it doesn’t work, then maybe laprascopy is the way to go? (wait, lap is the weight loss band thingy right? Hope I’m getting this straight… )

Nessaw – You should be ending your term now right? YAY!!!!

Viccat – Love the pup! You in 2WW now? Maybe can all the new people pretty puhleeeez (w/sugar on top) put in some deets on your siggies & maybe get a ticker? I feel like an idiot asking the same questions over & over, but it’s entirely up to you, no pressure, it just helps us help you better! (& a chart’s always welcome , ***stalker alert***). GL & !

Owl – So very happy that you found a Dr that is prescribing exactly what YOU feel you need! I know there are no guarantees, but there is something to be said about our own intuition… “they say” that the answers are all inside of us (hence therapists being paid exorbitant amts to ask us questions). I just got done pimping out 3 dr’s at once & then taking what struck a chord with me & going to the Dr I could push over the most to get him to do what I want . Hey, a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do! GL & FX this is it for you!

ksluice – Welcome & best wishes on your IVF!!! I’ve heard of anti-b’s! I don’t think its necessarily a “common” thing (which is also not a bad thing – espec after 2 mc’s – throw what you can at it I say!) but some Dr's & women swear by it & it totally makes sense to me? If I had some I'd probably take them - right now. Good luck & so hope that works! Can’t hurt, right?

Maddy40 - Welcome to our thread! I hope your stay with us is short, but sweet! Did you really read the entire thread???

Hi to Bear, Porn, FlyFlorida, CaroleB, Ella, Never, Nikki, Jules, Madeline, & anyone I have missed! I missed all of you ladies so much!!!

AFM - I pimped out 3 Dr's while gone & got some good ideas from each one. SOOOO, now back at my orig Dr as he is the one who (a) takes insurance, (b) has a history w/me & (c) will do anything I ask at this point as long as it won't "hurt" me. SO, I have been injecting Lovenox daily for my compound hetero MTHFR (2nd worse kind) - just refuse to ignore the fact that baby aspirin is reason I got pregs in April & May after 1.5 years of nothing AND that others I know w/RMC had only success w/heparin/lovenox when during entire preg...

Also, since my NK Cells were "normal" for normal-people standards, but borderline for fertility standards (huge diff ladies 25% vs 12%...), one Dr really thought it was immune isues. Also bc I keep mc'ing earlier & earlier as if immunes building up. He wanted to retest "out of pocket", I said F that! And asked if I could just do intralipids (like Dwrgi - thank you Dwrgi ). He loved that idea - $180 and it won't hurt (just egg yolk/soy/fat emulsion). So ordered that last week & got it delivered & infusion on Monday. Gosh, you really can get anything delivered in America?! "Yes, can I order a pack of intravenous intralipids for delivery, please? Oh & a pizza & diet coke?"! You should do intralipids a few days before ov, but I can't control that I had a hard time getting the non-bed-ridden kind (with PTN?) & I o'd earlier than normal, so kinda happened the day before ov That sounds bad now that I wrote it out... Oh well...

So, FX & probably in 2WW now??? OH, also taking progesterone suppositories this time, even though my prog was always fine. Just in case measure... I'll start tomorrow. But like many of you, I'm just doing it to say I really did "try everything"... & big cwtchs to the Welshians!

 

[Butterfly67]

Hi Lils good to have you back sounds like you are really going at it with everything you have Keeping my fingers crossed for you

Dwrgi, glad to hear that the scan went well. Step 1 box ticked

chicken sounds like you had a lovely break

purple - I've had a few purple days recently

So as a few of you have asked and I have been lurking a bit, not really knowing whether to post, the first step in the adoption process is to go to an information meeting - they have them once a month - so I have put my name down for next Monday and had a confirmation letter today to say that was OK. At this stage I guess I am 90% sure it is what I want to do I keep worrying about whether I can really do it but not only that if it is really what I want - to give up all of my freedom and independence I guess. But then I have to keep telling myself you only get one life and I need to just put those fears to one side and go for it. Anyway, hopefully things will be a bit clearer either way after the meeting next week

Other than that I am keeping busy working on my house renovation which is really good fun (at the moment, until it gets stressful ).

 

[viccat]

Viccat – Love the pup!  You in 2WW now? Maybe can all the new people pretty puhleeeez (w/sugar on top) put in some deets on your siggies & maybe get a ticker? I feel like an idiot asking the same questions over & over, but it’s entirely up to you, no pressure, it just helps us help you better! (& a chart’s always welcome , ***stalker alert***). GL & !

Hi LilSluz! He is a sweety isn't he? Just started the 2WW today. Quick question - is it possible / worth it to do a chart when I'm not temping?

 

[Lady H]

Lil aaaaaarrrrrrrgggggggg yeeeeeeeeeee you are back! All is well in the world again!