Thanks girls , I know it sounds awful , but I haven't cried , I didn't get upset or anything and I'm still not , I don't know if I've just become cold hearted and unable to feel emotion about it or if it's not sunk in yet , but I feel like I don't care , how horrible does that sound ? I'm going to temp from my next period , but only to avoid getting pregnant and know when my next af is coming cycle to cycle , I've decided somebody in the sky has decided I'm not meant to be a mum , and if that's the case , am I hell going through this over and over again when all the young girls in my area are getting pregnant With whoever they feel like it , I'm not doing it again xxxx