playing catch up again
bethany i dont want a totally natural birth but i def dont want an epidural, they can give me anything else ha ha after al thid i dont care if it induced , ceasarian or just me so long as it works out ok
i usde to think 2 kids but ive gone the opposite way to u bethany i just want one now, il never say never to more if its an option but i would be so gratefull for my precious one

not saying u arent gratefull, i totally know u r and i wouldnt rule out more after , im just gonna try and go one step at atime.
my mom had 12 , she reckoned she was addicted to babies

so u never know what will happen me once i have one. physhics before a few of htem told me i would have 7?????? i dont think so, i owuld really wanna start pumping um out ha ha
posey hi hon.
in answer to ur qs im trying for my first kiddie.
i had spotting at 7.5 weeks, very very slight. had agonising 3 weeks with a scan each week where they reckoned they couldnt see it all properly cos i have a tilted uterus and they werent sure if things were ok r not with my baba. 3rd scan they told me for sure i had lost lile


it was the worst day of my life, we had been trying since jan this yr and concieved on 3rd month in march, i was so ready to have her, i had thought it through so much. i miss her like crazy.

but i know she is happy. i was so excited i was pregnant i told everyone. i had told all at work about 2 days before i had spotting, silly me. but if i hadnt i would have told them i mc anyway so its not too bad, at least most people knew an di didnt have to keep explaining.
i was so sure nothing would go wrong, i have a few people in my family including me who get real strong gut feelings and get messages that we r so sure r right and usually are, we all felt things were fine, but this time we were wrong. its weird though im startin to see a purpose in it all already which i think is pretty fast to come to terms with it , but having sadi that im shedding a few tears writing this

but srying isnt bad , its not the gut wrenching crying anymore , it softer and just a little sad rather than real hard pain.
sorry im wfflin a bit , i got a bit carried away

but it felt good to get it out ha ha
this loss was horrible but it brought me all of ye, it brought way more empathy and understanding ( and i dont think i was awfull before ha ha ) and it gave me protectiona dn a friend for life in my lile xxxxxx