Megg33k
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Jonnanne3 - Sounds really interesting and would be the sort of thing i would think was pretty cool as weel. Its great news about the results as well.
josiejo - Congrates on the good news wishing you a very H & H 9 months ahead
AFM - Temps have gone down to 36.74 so only just above the cover line and my CM is stained a wee bit. Theis on her way in the next day or so i feel. I know it prob for the best to have an AF after a MC but its still a bit crappy. Had a rough night last night as well so hope everyone doesnt mind if i vent a wee bit?
When i first joined the forum i became part of a TTC group and it was a really nice group. Now however i am the only one that is still about and TTC everyone else has there baby or is in 3rd tri. After the first loss with every new person that moved on while i was happy for them it sent a little stab of pain to my heart. Since then with every failure and the new loss its been getting harder and harder to fight back against the jealously and bitterness that threatens to engulf and darken my soul. Last night i read that one girl is now expecting her 2nd while i am still trying to have my first and it was just too much and really upset me. I know i should be happy for her but it justs so hard to see others get what you so desprately want, my mind is screaming its not fair and when is it going to be my turn? Wheres my baby? Last night i really had just had enough of it all. Then i feel ashamed at myself for feeling this way.
Sorry for the long post but i just needed to get it of my chest with people that will understand.
I understand! 100%! I used to see pregnant women or people with babies and think "aww... that's sweet." Now I can't help but hear my brain screaming "Oh my god, I fucking hate you!" Obviously, I don't feel that way for the ladies in here. But, people I don't know in the store and stuff... I could just punch them in the throat for having what I want, tbh! Vent away!
Next step is doctor's appointment tomorrow at 1:30pm my time (7:30pm Brit time) to discuss further. Honestly, I don't know. We only made it about half way through the list of blood work that I wanted done. So, maybe some more of those tests? I really think its going to come down to my 7dpo progesterone test... and I just can't have it done yet. I would be surprised if I pass that one!
let us know how you get on xxxx
Thank yoU!!! Re-reading my post, it does sound kind of down... but it actually wasn't! LOL I'm really excited that someone is doing these tests, and I'm totally okay with the prospect of failing my 7dpo progesterone test. I'm almost excited to fail it. It would explain a lot of things and its easy to fix! I'm just annoyed that I likely have about 16-17 days left before 7dpo! I'm not a patient woman! 
I'm also very happy that I probably don't have an autoimmune disease. I was pretty scared about that. Hell, things might be looking up for me, atm! You all will definitely know anything I know soon after I find out... unless I'm watching a really good movie and playing charades! Then it might take several hours! 
Well he took the sample and looked at it under the scope to make sure my ewcm wasn't hostile and that that dh's swimmers were swimming in the right direction. Well they looked great! And best of all was I got to see them!!!!!!!!!!!! It was amazing and kinda gross all at the same time! 
honestly.....talk about stressing you out for no reason!!!! good to hear hun xxx
