TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[Xanth]

Just popping in with for everyone. Sorry I'm not around so much. xxxx

 

[dancareoi]

Finally got a BFN and I cheered!

Funny how life goes, in a couple of months time if I see that I will be sad!

I remember that moment!! Congratulations!

Double wammy for me today. I wake up on the day my LO would have been due only to find AF here.

 

[Creative]

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

 

[dancareoi]

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

Look to the future, not to the past!

Well my body has tricked me again!

My AF started yesterday, 5 weeks exactly after MC, but I needed to know when OV because I was to go for an NK killer cell test 7 days after OV, but I missed OV!

I have been taking temps and my temp dropped on mon 22 oct and have risen since then, but I have had the novovirus and a bad cold since then, so couldn't rely on temps to be accurate.

Wasn't able to rely on OPK as these had been positive for days and I didn't really have any other signs.

So this delays things again, but when I work it out, only by a couple of weeks and I suppose at least I know my body got back on track very quickly and it will now be easier to track my cycle this month, to get the test done!

Fell a little sad, because I wanted to try after waiting for 1 AF as this worked 3 years ago, I got Pg then first time of trying again, so I was hoping the same would work this time.

I suppose I am being silly, because it probably wouldn't have happened first time anyway.

I will use these extra couple of weeks to really get my diet sorted.

If I OV when I think my LP was 10 days, in the summer it was 9.

Something now for acupuncturist to work with now he knows where I am in m cycle.

I usually OV about day 18, he wants to bring that forward, so lets see if he can!

 

[crazymam]

Well at least you are back on track. I got my peak this morning with fertility monitor and positive opk. We went into work late today haha. Now just need to warch for my temp rising. Ovulation pains started about half hour ago . Well fingers crossed. Its day 15 for me today .

 

[Creative]

Wow, it's day 6. I've got a +opk and I can feel ov pain. I didn't believe you could OV that early, but apparently you can so Tonights the night!!

 

[crazymam]

Wow, it's day 6. I've got a +opk and I can feel ov pain. I didn't believe you could OV that early, but apparently you can so Tonights the night!!

That is early! Without these sticks i would have my timing all wrong

 

[dancareoi]

Having a down moment. Its 4 in the morning and I have been awake
For 3 hours and I feel terrible. 2 weeks ago I had the sickness bug that's
Going around and then last week a cold started which seems to be getting worse
Each day. I am sitting up in bed, unable to breathe (dh is spare room) mY right side
Is totally bunged up and won't shift and my right ear is so badly blocked I can't hear
I need it to pop, but it won't. I just feel totally down and sorry for myself and sitting
Here crying for my lost babies.
Why is life so cruel. I have 3 beautiful children and my youngest who is nearly 2 1/2 is
The best thing ever and I feel I am not enjoying him properly because of what a bad
Year this has been.
I just want my babies.

 

[crazymam]

chin up! I think because you are feeling so poorly its obviously getting you down. I really think you need some serious me time and some serious pampering. You have three lovely children too.
I have come to accept I have been blessed with four beautiful daughters, and if I am to be lucky enough to have a fourth baby great, but if not I still have my daughters and I am still so very lucky. x

 

[Oasis717]

Hi, hope it's ok to join you ladies, only just seen this thread, I'm 41 in a couple weeks with two recent losses and finally got my AF 5.5 weeks after the last loss, hoping for a bfp for Xmas but after 2 losses back to back am really nervous. Wishing everyone loads luck xxxx

 

[crazymam]

Hi, hope it's ok to join you ladies, only just seen this thread, I'm 41 in a couple weeks with two recent losses and finally got my AF 5.5 weeks after the last loss, hoping for a bfp for Xmas but after 2 losses back to back am really nervous. Wishing everyone loads luck xxxx

Hi, same here two losses back to back. Onto my second cycle after last one, ovulated mon/tuesday so everything crossed this time. Just have to wait now.x

 

[Oasis717]

Hi, hope it's ok to join you ladies, only just seen this thread, I'm 41 in a couple weeks with two recent losses and finally got my AF 5.5 weeks after the last loss, hoping for a bfp for Xmas but after 2 losses back to back am really nervous. Wishing everyone loads luck xxxx

Hi, same here two losses back to back. Onto my second cycle after last one, ovulated mon/tuesday so everything crossed this time. Just have to wait now.x

Hi hun, I'm so sorry, I understand exactly how you feel, trying to be positive!! 3rd time lucky for us? Everything X'd for you. Am due to ovulate around 15th so a bit behind you, let me know how you get on xxxx

 

[dancareoi]

Hi all, went to docs yesterday and now have antibiotics, decongestant spray, olbas oil and ibuprofen, I'm a walking chemist shop!

Welcome newbies. I too Am hoping 3rd time lucky. Good job in a way I missed my OV this month and couldn't have the biopsy, because we wouldn't have been able to try with all the drugs I am on.

Strange how things work, I was so miffed last week. Had missed OV and had to wait another 4 weeks to OV to have the test done, but as it turns out it has worked out for the best.

My mom always says everything happens for a reason! Makes you wonder sometimes but I have said this before, if I had not had mmc in July 09 my gorgeous little boy would not be here today, yes I would have another little one, but not this gorgeous little monkey who gives so much joy, this little person would not have had a chance of life.

So maybe when we do get our rainbows, we will see why we have had such heartache, waiting for that right little rainbow to come along!

 

[Oasis717]

Hi all, went to docs yesterday and now have antibiotics, decongestant spray, olbas oil and ibuprofen, I'm a walking chemist shop!

Welcome newbies. I too Am hoping 3rd time lucky. Good job in a way I missed my OV this month and couldn't have the biopsy, because we wouldn't have been able to try with all the drugs I am on.

Strange how things work, I was so miffed last week. Had missed OV and had to wait another 4 weeks to OV to have the test done, but as it turns out it has worked out for the best.

My mom always says everything happens for a reason! Makes you wonder sometimes but I have said this before, if I had not had mmc in July 09 my gorgeous little boy would not be here today, yes I would have another little one, but not this gorgeous little monkey who gives so much joy, this little person would not have had a chance of life.

So maybe when we do get our rainbows, we will see why we have had such heartache, waiting for that right little rainbow to come along!

What lovely words, had couple tears reading the end of that, I so hope we get our rainbows xxxxxxxx

 

[Creative]

I did the farmers market this morning and two ladies who I haven't seen for months (both separate) came up to my stall and said "Ooooo what did you have?"

I felt so sorry for both of them instead of for myself. They were both totally mortified.


Had a great morning other than that and took loads of Christmas orders, but was dissapointed that my story advent calendars didn't sell more But the local headmaster did buy one for the reception classes.

 

[dancareoi]

I did the farmers market this morning and two ladies who I haven't seen for months (both separate) came up to my stall and said "Ooooo what did you have?"

I felt so sorry for both of them instead of for myself. They were both totally mortified.


Had a great morning other than that and took loads of Christmas orders, but was dissapointed that my story advent calendars didn't sell more But the local headmaster did buy one for the reception classes.

That must have been hard for you and them.

Well I am still trying t get rid of my cold which I have had for over 2 weeks, on medication now and right ear is totally blocked, really fustrating now because I can't hear out of it.

Think I am building up to OV, have watery cm, so have started opk testing, so as soon as it happens I can get this biopsy sorted and then start trying again.

 

[crazymam]

i am now half way through my two week wait and slowly going insane. i am symptom spotting like an idiot, and think my mind is actually playing tricks on me now. trying very hard not to read too much into anything right now but i have stomach cramps now and back pain, tender boobs, felt nauseus and tired last two days. but i get like this few days before a period anyway so going to try and distract myself

 

[dancareoi]

i am now half way through my two week wait and slowly going insane. i am symptom spotting like an idiot, and think my mind is actually playing tricks on me now. trying very hard not to read too much into anything right now but i have stomach cramps now and back pain, tender boobs, felt nauseus and tired last two days. but i get like this few days before a period anyway so going to try and distract myself

I hate that 2ww, as you say everything little thing makes you wonder what's going on. Keeping everything crossed for you.

Had another acupuncture session today,meh stuck a needle n my arm to try and help my blocked ear!

He reckons I will OV any day and he says it will be from my right side!

I can then get this test done and start getting on with things. I feel sort of strange a the moment, in limbo about TTC and then having not felt for 3 weeks and not being able to hear properly from my right ear, feel like I'm in a bubble and everything is passing me by!

I usually love this time of year, the build up to Christmas, but this has been such a bad year and because how I have felt the last few weeks, I really feel like I can't be bothered.

Maybe once I'm better and the test has been done, things might start to pick up a bit!

 

[Oasis717]

Hope you feel better soon dancareoi, feel exactly the same way, I'm usually worse than the kids coming up to Xmas, but its been such a bad year for me too, I lost my dad suddenly on 14/08/11 so his birthday and anniversary of his death this year were so hard, especially as I lost my first angel in June, followed by another Sep, I also lost my darling nan in Jan this year, she was my second mum. Suffice to say I will be glad when year is over. Only positive was marrying the love of my life in March. I so hope you feel better soon. Xxxx

 

[dancareoi]

Hope you feel better soon dancareoi, feel exactly the same way, I'm usually worse than the kids coming up to Xmas, but its been such a bad year for me too, I lost my dad suddenly on 14/08/11 so his birthday and anniversary of his death this year were so hard, especially as I lost my first angel in June, followed by another Sep, I also lost my darling nan in Jan this year, she was my second mum. Suffice to say I will be glad when year is over. Only positive was marrying the love of my life in March. I so hope you feel better soon. Xxxx

Sorry to hear 2012 has been a s**t year for you too.

At least you have had one good thing in getting married

our good thing was my son doing well in the two 11+ exams he took and being able to go to Grammer School next year, so i suppose it hasn`t all been bad.

I have 3 angels now and have a little memorial type thing on a shelf in the lounge.

I have a very small teddy who is about 8cm tall, a Willow Tree figure called Forget-Me-Not and a credit card sized laminated verse in a photo frame called An Angel Never Dies, so I feel that my little ones are always there. Gone but not forgotton.