2013 losses- rainbow baby making thread...

[karenh]

Misscalais, I hear you. It needs to be our turn now! I hate feeling so down and pessimistic whenever I hear about about someone else getting pregnant right away after m/c. I feel so selfish, too. I hope you feel better soon, and that your rainbow baby comes to take your pain away.

Karen, I know I already responded to you elsewhere, but I wanted to say again how sorry I am that your IUI didn't go very well. It's just not fair! Here you are moving heaven and earth and it's all just out of your control in the end.

AFM, I had my Day 3 ultrasound today. They said my ovaries look "quiet," so I don't have any cysts or anything to stop me from trying again this cycle. We've officially been trying for a year.

These meds are breaking our bank account and I think this might be our last shot using them. They've upped my dosage from 3 vials/night to 4 vials/night. We start tonight. The doc is hoping to get me two mature follicles instead of one this time. The doc assures me that our chances are up to 5% greater with injectables than without. He also said I should try IVF, but that is definitely out of the budget.

Then he recommended acupuncture to increase blood flow to the uterus, but when I called I found out it's not covered by insurance and that's another $88/visit I don't want to spend. Plus they make you go in first for a consult, so I wouldn't start treatment in time for this cycle anyway.

I keep telling myself that I did get pregnant my first try with injectables, so I just have to have faith. Can someone loan me some? *sigh*

*EDIT*
I googled alternatives to acupuncture, and apparently, acupuncturists sometimes recommend baby aspirin and castor oil packs (on the abdomen). Apparently can they aid in blood flow. I ordered a castor oil pack kit from Amazon.com. We'll see...

I am right there with you on the money thing. I really hope this cycle works for you. You really deserve it. Are you still on the Bravell?

 

[Kat S]

Thanks, Karen! yeah, still on the Bravelle. We priced it out, and since I still had a few vials left over, it was cheaper than the Gonal F. 4 vials a night starting tonight. I've ordered a castor oil pack kit from Amazon.com to aid in increasing blood flow since my doc recommended increasing it.

 

[karenh]

Thanks, Karen! yeah, still on the Bravelle. We priced it out, and since I still had a few vials left over, it was cheaper than the Gonal F. 4 vials a night starting tonight. I've ordered a castor oil pack kit from Amazon.com to aid in increasing blood flow since my doc recommended increasing it.

I really hope that works! Good luck! I will pray for you!

 

[Kasey84]

Utahutesgal, Peach Daisey, Blue stars, and AustinGigi, welcome to the group and I'm so very sorry for your losses.

TS1- welcome to you as well. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and the health problems your having to deal with on top of your grief.

It saddens me to see so many newcomers grieving losses, but I hope that you all find as much comfort here as I have. I also hope you all get your rainbows very soon!

GalvanBaby- I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother! I hope that you have lots of love and support. I hope AF arrives soon so that you can move forward with ttc.

Misscalais- I'm sorry you've had to go through another loss. It's simply not fair. I too have been so frustrated with my body at times. When I learned of my mmc, I felt so betrayed by my body. I was devastated that my baby had died and angry that body had not recognized it. Now I'm frustrated that my cycles can't seem to regulate! I so hope that you get your rainbow soon.

Karenh- I'm sorry your IUI didn't go as you hoped. It seems you're doing everything possible and I really hope that pays off for you soon! I wish it didn't have to be so hard

KatS- I hope the increased dose and castor oil packs help you get your rainbow!

Earthmama, Lucylake and anyone else in the TWW- best of luck. Hope to hear of some BFPs very soon!

Awesomesauce- it's so nice to hear from you. I hope all is well!

AFM, AF arrived a little earlier then expected on cd 33. My cycles are a little unpredictable so I'm happy to have opks to use this month. The instructions say to start using them on cd 5, which is Thursday!

and baby dust to all!

 

[sedgeez]

Hi ladies

I'm so sorry I haven't been on in such a while!
I've had quite a bad time mentally, some of you may know about my home problems and then also my mc.

I've not been very well so I had abit of a break from here. I did pop in from time to time, I have a lot of catching up to do. I see some ladies are expecting rainbows which is wonderful! Ill have to try to update our list when I have some free time.
Welcome all the ladies I didn't get a chance to say hello to.

I hope your all well

 

[bluestars]

Hi ladies

I'm so sorry I haven't been on in such a while!
I've had quite a bad time mentally, some of you may know about my home problems and then also my mc.

I've not been very well so I had abit of a break from here. I did pop in from time to time, I have a lot of catching up to do. I see some ladies are expecting rainbows which is wonderful! Ill have to try to update our list when I have some free time.
Welcome all the ladies I didn't get a chance to say hello to.

I hope your all well

I hope you are alright. I'm sorry for your loss and im sorry we meet under these circumstances. Hope you find the support you need here again.

 

[Kat S]

Hi ladies

I'm so sorry I haven't been on in such a while!
I've had quite a bad time mentally, some of you may know about my home problems and then also my mc.

I've not been very well so I had abit of a break from here. I did pop in from time to time, I have a lot of catching up to do. I see some ladies are expecting rainbows which is wonderful! Ill have to try to update our list when I have some free time.
Welcome all the ladies I didn't get a chance to say hello to.

I hope your all well

I don't know your story, but welcome back to the mad house! I hope your situation has improved or is improving, and that you get the support you need here and in real life.

 

[Kasey84]

Hi ladies

I'm so sorry I haven't been on in such a while!
I've had quite a bad time mentally, some of you may know about my home problems and then also my mc.

I've not been very well so I had abit of a break from here. I did pop in from time to time, I have a lot of catching up to do. I see some ladies are expecting rainbows which is wonderful! Ill have to try to update our list when I have some free time.
Welcome all the ladies I didn't get a chance to say hello to.

I hope your all well

Sedgeez- I'm so glad to hear from you! I've thought of you lots and wondered how you were. I'm so sorry to hear you been having such a hard time. How are you doing now? xo

 

[george83]

Hi ladies

I'm so sorry I haven't been on in such a while!
I've had quite a bad time mentally, some of you may know about my home problems and then also my mc.

I've not been very well so I had abit of a break from here. I did pop in from time to time, I have a lot of catching up to do. I see some ladies are expecting rainbows which is wonderful! Ill have to try to update our list when I have some free time.
Welcome all the ladies I didn't get a chance to say hello to.

I hope your all well

welcome back sweetie, in sorry things have been so tough for you but I hope your doing better now x x x

 

[Nimyra]

Hi Sedgeez,

I've missed you! Hope the next few months go better for you. I'm still a mess too, not as bad as I was when the loss first happened of course, but still grieving. I think a lot of my grieving was delayed, so sometimes it hits me pretty hard.

 

[EarthMama]

I didn't actually feel the full brunt of my loss until TTC again and not taking last cycle. Keeping more levelheaded about it this time. 6 days until aunt flow is supposed to come. Gonna wait and see. I had menstrual-type cramping on days 6/7 dpo.

 

[Aleeah]

I didn't actually feel the full brunt of my loss until TTC again and not taking last cycle. Keeping more levelheaded about it this time. 6 days until aunt flow is supposed to come. Gonna wait and see. I had menstrual-type cramping on days 6/7 dpo.

Hi,

I haven't been on for a while. But I'm with you with your comment. It's only been a few weeks since my mc and we started trying right away, which got me focussed. But I can tell I've still not ovulated and feel like it's not going to happen this cycle, dreading AF as think that's when it'll hit home.

It's so so sad all of us have ever had to go through this

xxx

 

[bluestars]

I'm still finding it hard. I think TTC again is a focus but it also gets harder when AF comes every month. Getting to close to due date and I don't think the stress will be helping. Really hope things work out for due date. I'm scared if it doesnt i'll have a break down. I'm getting more anxious as the months get on.

 

[Aleeah]

I'm still finding it hard. I think TTC again is a focus but it also gets harder when AF comes every month. Getting to close to due date and I don't think the stress will be helping. Really hope things work out for due date. I'm scared if it doesnt i'll have a break down. I'm getting more anxious as the months get on.

I feel your pain Bluestars, I really hope you get your BFP soon. Sounds like you've had an awful time of it, got my fingers and toes crossed for you. And will pray for you too xxx

 

[karenh]

It does get hard as the due dates get closer. Esspecially since I have a friend who is due 2 days after I was so I get to watch what should be happening to me.

 

[Kat S]

It does get hard as the due dates get closer. Esspecially since I have a friend who is due 2 days after I was so I get to watch what should be happening to me.

We will be here for you that day, Sweetie!!

 

[karenh]

It does get hard as the due dates get closer. Esspecially since I have a friend who is due 2 days after I was so I get to watch what should be happening to me.

We will be here for you that day, Sweetie!!

Thanks! I still have a few months.

 

[Raggydoll]

Sedgeez, it's lovely to see you back.

 

[Aleeah]

It does get hard as the due dates get closer. Esspecially since I have a friend who is due 2 days after I was so I get to watch what should be happening to me.

I'm so sorry for your loss. It is hard, especially when the dates were so close. Sending you tonnes of strength too xx

 

[EarthMama]

Feeling pretty emotional today, ladies. I have 5 days to go until AF does or does not come. I am putting off testing as long as possible. I might not even test at all and let my body tell me what the verdict is this month. The prospect of facing anther BFN really bums me out. I'm striving to stay positive and not leap to any conclusions, either way.

Yeah, the pain of my loss really resurfaced last month when I tried to get pregnant and didn't and when AF came, it reminded me of the miscarriage.

Oh well...just taking one day at a time at this point. My friend who got pregnant the same time as I did is now huge. And I do envy her big beautiful life-giving belly.

So just gonna attempt to reframe how I feel and stay positive, and see myself with a belly like that soon.