Smille: Don't be crazy! You are not selfish or rude. So what if we talked about your feelings? Are you not allowed to talk about feelings too? We all do
and we're all here for you. I'm glad you're feeling better.
Bla: Sorry you're suffering. I hope it isn't long before you get your meds again.
Texas: Your chart is looking great and your symptoms sound amazing! I really think this is your BFP month.
I am pretty excited by my chart to be honest, though I'm pretty worried it'll drop down again tomorrow. So I think I'm going to test tomorrow on 10dpo. That'll be 12 days past trigger and last cycle the trigger was gone on an FRER by 12 days past the trigger. I did an FRER today to test whether the trigger was still in my system and got a super faint line just like last cycle on 11 days past trigger, so by tomorrow that line will most likely be gone, but perhaps, if I am finally one of the lucky ones myself, it'll be darker. 10dpo could also be early for a BFP for me, so I won't feel too pressured if it's negative. I also found a buy one get one free deal in town today on FRERs, so I stocked up
My husband said the most beautiful thing to me today. So all this time, the whole trying for a third child thing, has been something he agreed to, but didn't want. He knew it was way too important for me to let go and as I do the lion's share of the kid's stuff, he felt that he could put his own feelings aside for mine, which was amazing. However, I always felt this guilt that by me wanting this third child, I would be making him feel anxious and miserable. He suffers with depression and for a while there it was making me seriously consider not having this last baby that I desperately want. In the last month though, my husband has hit a major breakthrough in why he feels the way he does (to do with his childhood) and he has been a changed man. He's happier than he's been in years and years. He was always a good dad, but I know that he put up barriers between his feelings and while he loved his children, he didn't let himself enjoy being a dad (big childhood reasons!). Since really delving into his issues with his therapist, he's now broken down those barriers and is a changed man. Well this morning, over breakfast, I told him that over the next few days I'd find out whether I'm pregnant or not. He told me that for the first time, he really hopes I'm pregnant. He said he really wanted another child. I broke down and cried. This is the first time it hasn't been just me hoping for that positive; now we're in it together and I can stop feeling guilty and selfish for putting my own needs in front of his - it would tear me up sometimes. Wow, I'm crying just writing this now.
gives me some hope for all of us 
