Lol oh my ....so desided I go and brush my teath before bedy times,...had a run in with the unexpected....iv dooshed my head on a facking toothbrush...of all things...I actually cracked myself with a toothbrush...how on earth?
So I have drank wayyyyyyyyy too much...still have some left...hmmmmm it's Friday right? Well stuff it...I'm going to finish this bottle .
It's gonna hurt in the morning anyways so why stop now right?lol
So I'm sort of talking tomyself right ow...but technically not if you get me.
I saw an email from my friend tonight barbs...! "The so called friend"
Update ladies......she's supposed to be my Bessie mate ...but i think she sent me a evil text about my due date.pha! What ev!
Anyways....she's asking how I am and that she misses me...I feel so upset with her...she totes ignored me when I saw her in town.
Think it's finally time to meet with her and get this off my chest....seence as I'm in the mood for upsetting folk! Lol...
Not that I want to hurt anyone (unlike her)
But she needs to know how I feel about her NOT being there for me when I lost my baby.facking great right?...
I love her too bits...she needed me at a time and I was there no questions asked...
Even the flat she lives in is the place I helped her to get...she's got a great job (stunning moddel) ...all bc I helped back to a brighter place in life...long story short I helped her through a very shite place...with a bf who was a d&ck! To her!....she had no confidence no hope and I got her through it,..where was she when I lost my baby? ......instead she was,on the end of a immature cruel joke of a text ...asking if my baby had been born yet? And that's putting it nicely.
I haven't even seen her properly in 10 months now....I can't be the one who makes our relationship work all th time...like 50/50 would be nice.
Oooops I have written a vent and a half here ...Lol...
So anyways...she emails me tonight...nat? We're are you love? Are you ok?...you seem to have left planet earth? (Why can't you text me? Bc I will recognise the number you left an crappy text on?)
WHAT THE FUCK.?........so your Board now yeah? Need a friend again yeah?.......
What to do......???
Option 1....... Forget the past...be the good friend I have always been....
Option 2...I have suddenly gone blind...didn't see your email.
Option 3 email got lost in my spam?
Option 4 I don't check my emails any more lol (I have a new account now)
Option 5 Tell her how I feel about the "two way efforts made in friendships"
So I think I have basically answerd my own question...luckily I am not the bitter kind...we'll within reaso anyway lol....I will have this out with her...in the nicest way possible and ...firstly get sober first.lol
I will email her on Monday and very cleverly get out of her why she texted me that crap in the first place.and then remind her that she can't just drop me like a tonne of brick when she feels like and pick me back up again when it's suits her,
Good plan.
So I think I may go round two with the tooth brush and actually get some teath clean before bed...we'll when I've finished my drink anyway lol...
Music update....beautifull south...nice chill down album...know it ?
xxx.
....I'm never normally like this...I can't believe I have drank sooo much....I would have thought I would have been some sort of cheap date here lol...a light lightweight even...
