Right my update, Yesterday we were given the talk about how if my mam got any worse then it was discussed with her lung specialist of many years and the leading consultant in the intensive care unit that it would be far too dangerous to put her back on life support (i guess because she would become dependent on the ventilator, however i am so oblivious to everything that i actually didnt know you could die when your on a ventilator, i'm not the brightest of people lol) well they said that if she got any worse they didnt think it was fair for her to have to suffer anymore, and yesterday she had such a bad day she was irritated all day and night because she had seriously itchy feet i dont know why maybe the meds caused it? so becoming irritated and anxious etc sent her breathing haywire, there were so many points in the day we had to tell her to slow her breathing down because she was getting all restless and breathing rapidly. Well after the talk about not wanting her to suffer anymore. I got back home and i cried for about 3 hours i just couldnt stop, it took me the whole 3 hours to think positive. I went to see her today and she was sat up with a little oxygen mask on and she turned round and said oh there moving me to the respiratory ward today....so i was left very confused why they gave us that talk yesterday but on the other hand moving to respitory ward she doesnt have all the lines hanging out all over her body, shes on a smaller oxygen mask and sometimes just breathing tubes up her nose. She is going to recieve rehand for the panicing and anxiousness. And she wont be leaving until she is 100% but obviously she is well enough to come out of 24 hour one on one care, It is so hard to believe just 2 days ago she was in a coma, its a big step in the right direction, although they did tell her today that if she had to go in a coma for a 3rd time then she wouldnt make it but we cross that bridge if we get to it, i really hope not, such a relief even though she could still be in hospital for weeks as long as she doesnt have a relapse and end up back there things should be fine xxx