why even go there and make things worse?
you're letting yourself go through all of this stuff, you know.
I think he already made the point very clearly that he doesn't want to be with you..yet you hold on to him.
Sorry it didnt work out the way you want to but as I said tons of times before, STAND UP FOR YOURSELF, you're letting this happen right now.
Love yourself first, then start loving others.
ITA with both of these posts. You've been telling him through your actions that you don't respect yourself and don't expect him to respect you or treat you right, so why would he start respecting or treating you right? People treat you the way you allow them to treat you. Start demanding respect from him. Please note that I'm NOT saying go back to him, I think you need to cut contact with him completely, but if you have to have any contact with him, make him treat you right, insist on being treated with the respect that you deserve. You can make the choice right now to start respecting yourself and insisting that others treat you right as well but you have to stick to it.
Honey, you deserve so much more than what you're getting from him. Please stop torturing yourself. Cut all the ties you have with him. Stop seeing him. Move on with your life. I know it hurts, believe me, I know it hurts a lot. When my XDB dumped me I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. months later when I found out the girl he started seeing a week after he dumped me and had been talking to while he was with me, she was pregnant before he dumped me... I felt like my heart was being torn out of my chest all over again. I still get angry sometimes over how he treated me and the friendships I lost because of him. But, I moved on. I didn't think I would ever love anyone again, I didn't think I would ever feel like myself again, but I do. You CAN get over this, you deserve to get over this. It's not easy but you can do it and you can go on with life and meet someone better who will treat you like the princess you are. It'll probably take a lot of tears and anger to get to that point but that's okay, just don't keep letting him screw you over. It's pretty obvious that it's tearing you up, please stop adding to that by torturing yourself.