I am feeling quite despairing now. I woke up at 1am because I was pain free!!!
I think sweep today has given me false hope. I really don't know what to think!!
I don't actually mind if baby is over but feel depressed for several reasons-
1. DH finishes pat leave on Friday and is on night shifts next week !!!
2. Really really don't want IV syntocin for my induction. I'm now feeling this could still be a possibility
3. I haven't told anyone in my family about the induction as I don't want them to be sitting around waiting for outcomes the moment I am admitted. I may tell my mum tomorrow as I think she is getting nervous that NhS may leave me to languish and risks to baby etc... (She mixes with sorts of people who condemn nHS all the time).
I get irritated with my dad as I believe he has his own religious agenda around planning for the circumcision if LO is a boy. We will be circumsicing if boy but of course I have other things to think about like will baby be healthy etc. if he knows when induction is he will start estimating date for ceremony and that will irritate me...
If MIL knows about induction she will prob drive down that day and will phone every hr so decided not to tell her...
But at same time I think all these people will also be worried about me and baby and I feel guilty for not giving more info. MIl been phoning my mum for updates as she feels left in dark by DH and I.
So basically feeling under pressure about who to tell what to... I feel the uncertainty is aggravating others and that this is indirectly effecting me if you know what I mean!!!
Sorry for rant..
LAuren- wishing you well re induction. Please keep us updated... I don't think it will make a huge difference that you are going in a couple of days earlier to avoid a birthdate. I'm sure result will be worth it. I have you in my thoughts
I'm so curious about Teabellla. I assume she has delivered!!!!
Labour : dust: to everyone
Xxx