Hi everyone, I hope you’re all ok. So there hasn’t been any births yet then?
This will sound weird but I keep thinking how weird it is that there’s a little human, fully formed, sat in our bellies and there just doesn’t seem like there’s enough room. It doesn’t seem possible, I think we imagined it all lol
I have avoided induction so far. I have another induction date for tomorrow but I said I didn’t want it. I just thought it would be funny though as if I did go ahead she would probably arrive April Fool’s.
I just want her to hurry up and arrive now. I don’t want to be induced, I just want for this last bit to go smoothly and as normally as possible.
Our trust has suspended all home births here too. So even if my health was perfect, I wouldn’t be able to have one anyway. My sister had planned on another home birth too, so I felt really sad for her that she probably won’t be able to have that now. Although, it kind of annoyed me a little, how she responded to that news. Perhaps it’s me misreading text, but she said, after I tried to reassure her about a hospital birth, that she didn’t care how nice the hospital and staff are because she wants a home birth. She’s has this bee in her bonnet about everything being ‘perfect’, but doesn’t seem to realise that things rarely are. Pregnancy and birth are so unpredictable at times, that’s why I have always wanted a home birth but haven’t once made firm plans in my head for one because things can pan out differently. I said to her at least she’s got a few months to prepare herself if things are still like this when she’s due. At least it isn’t all smacking her in the face days or a couple of weeks before she’s due. Like many, that’s what I’m dealing with. I was sad about not being able to have a home birth, yet again. Now even if my health was miraculously fine I still wouldn’t be able to have one because of the current situation. I’m having not only to have a hospital birth which I haven’t ever liked, but be back and forth to the hospital every other day when I’m terrified of hospitals at the best of times, and when I have GAD and health anxiety, and all this is happening. I have to rely on public transport which is another risk. Then they’re going on about induction which has always frightened me. And now, like that isn’t enough, I’m being told to prepare to birth without my husband (or anyone, because I don’t have a backup plan), just in case he has symptoms at the time.
I think it’s fair to say none of us imagined, when we found out we were expecting, that we would be facing such a frightening situation and right immediately before we’re due. Which gives you zero time to prepare, mentally or otherwise. So yeah, my response to her was at least you have time to prepare and wrap your head around it, at least for you this hasn’t been sprung upon you with the birth imminent. At least you have time to organise a backup birth partner, and other stuff like that. Sorry. It pisses me off, but perhaps I ought to be more sympathetic
