im sorry i havent been on much, ive had pretty much a bad week, been stuck resting so cudnt get to a computer and cant get on here with my fone, alot of my stiches split over the weekend and ive been in agony, i foned the number i was given to ring and all i was told was to rest and keep them clean and let my mw see them wen she was cuming 2 days later, wen my mw finally came they were infected and i the tear had teared even more even though i was resting. got antibiotics now and feeling a bit lost as my oh has to pretty much do everything from lifting to getting stuff as im in agony, at least i can still hold my little man and feed him etc.
sorry its late but here it is
so monday 1st august i was admitted to hospital for induction, at 11pm i was given a pessary called propess and was told it wud take anything from 12 hrs to 24hrs to work and was told to try and sleep, 5am i was woken up by mild contractions every 10 mins, they were getting stronger and stronger by 10am i was crying standing at a window (as it was sooooo hot) but being told i wasnt having them, at this point my oh was allowed back in and he wwent and had a word with sumone who came back with a ctg and they found i was actually having them every 3 mins and i was rushed up stairs to delivary suite.
i was settled in and given gas and air amd paracetamol (do they dish these out like sweets or sumthing) they checked to see if i was dilated and i was 3cm, i was told my waters were bulging and cud they break them, so i agreed and it was such a relief but my oh and mil sed they thort they were in a swimming pool paddling as there was alot, but it was all green so i had to have a dr cum check the baby heart monitir every so often as his heart rate was below 110 the whole time,
as the contractions got worse i was offered an epidual straight away evn though my bp was constantly above 170/100 but i was in pain. the guy who did it was lovely, the only thing was at first i cud still feel the contractions at the top of my left leg, it hadnt blocked that bit.
by 6 oclock i was screaming in agony as i cud feel every contraction and had 5 top ups of epidual but i was told if it wasnt working now it wasnt going to work at all, then all i remember is 3 drs rushing in and telling me i had to get on my side and have an internel to take sum blood from the babies head as he was in soo much distress, i started to panic as nothing was being explained to me and it took my oh a while to get me out of the panic attack but they carried on taking the blood from baby while he did,
we had to wait half an hr for the results to cum back and they sed 3 were normal and 3 were bad so they were taking any chances and they wanted him out sooner rather than later so they upped the synotocin drip (sp?) at this point i was told i was 8cm, but i felt the urge to push and was screaming at them i wanted to push, they kept saying no,
i begged them to check me agian and shaw enough i had gone from 8cm to 10cm in the space of 5mins, and i was told to push, i dont really remember much from the hour and a half i was actually pushing for except i was panicing alot as it hurt and i was getting very tired, my bp was still sky high and babies hb was very low,
i did make everyone laugh though as towards the end i must of bin high on the g and a as i told the dr who was looking after me that i would pay her to get him out and then shouted at my oh to get his wallet out lol, and all i was screaming was i wanna go home lol, and apprantly i didnt screamed when i had a contraction i mooed lol
after an hour and a half of pushing they told me his head was stuck, they cud see his hair and everything but he wasnt shiftinng and he was getting very distressed as was i, so the desision was made for forseps and epitosmy (sp?) both were not in my birth plan but i wanted him out now.
the forseps took literally 2 mins to get him out but i was badly cut and teared from it, but my little squeeker is well worth the pain, he was born at 8.55pm weighing 8lb 5oz, they sey the labout started at 12pm and it was 8 hrs 55 mins with me pushing for 1 hour and 35 mins
they put him on my chest but for 30 seconds as they wanted to give him some oxygen, and they contunied to work on me, i think i was given the injection for the placenta i cant remember but all remember was looking across the room at my oh crying holding jaycob which was the magical highlite of my life ever, my boys.
i stayed in hospital for 3 days as jaycob refused to feed or suckle at all, they sed he had swollowed too much meconuim and it was on his lungs, we are still having probs with his feeding now but he is getting better, but i think today he is having a growth spurt as he is feeding every 2 hrs insted of 3, and hes been awake for 5 hrs but he just lays there and stares bless him.
my stiches are painful though and i cant wait for them to heal as then i can do more with jaycob, my pnd licked in with a bang on day 2 but my mw assures me that due to the trauma and me being in so much pain i will bond with him and it does take time, at the min im just feeling like sumone is going to walk in the door thank me for baby sitting and go home, dont get me wrong i love himto pieces im just strugglering, i am ever so thankful for my oh he has shocked me at how hes just taken charge with everything.
sorry for the long post i will catch up with everyone soon, well done to all those who are bf i tryed but he just wouldnt suckle, those with sticthes i do feel ur pain, and britt im so sorry to hear about kinley she is gawgus.
the pics below are from the digital camera, most of the ones we got are on my oh's fone so i wil upload sum better ones wen i get a chance 2.
emee x x x
shouldnt laugh really, it almost went up her nose yesterday!!!
She doesnt want me to have any more antib's for now so i took the option to wait a week and see her again so she can see any improvement as have seen a different Dr every time up till now. If not, then its back to the hospiatl for me 
