CD1 12 June 2012

[Taurus8484]

I have heard a lot of people talking about naturopath therapy. Havent used it myself but it could be good for your PCO. No harm in trying.

And accupunture if your up for it.

 

[Shellvz]

CD22 Tests results:

DHEA-sulphate 1.5 (1.8-7.8)
FSH 6.4 (1.5-9.0)
LH 3.9 (<15)
Oestradiol 395 (200-790)
Progesterone 32.1 (>30.0)

So I AM ovulating Yay!

But hubby has been declared sterile by sperm analysis. Zero sperm - which we all find quite odd.

Dr referred us to fertility specialist for further testing.

 

[Taurus8484]

Morning luv,

So some great news and some not so good news.....

All your tests look fantastic, they really do.

Hubby's not so good. Dont know what to say Shell except Im sorry and big hugs to you and hubby because Im guessing he aint feeling great at the moment. So absolutely no sperm at all??? Does seem a bit odd.

One of my best girlfriends had the same thing. She was normal but hubby's testicals didnt drop until he was 12 basically making him sterile.

He started to take Menevit and it increased his sperm count enough after using for 4 months for them to get some sperm to use in IVF. They now have 2 beautiful 3 year old twin girls.
I know you said that you didnt want to do IVF, but just a story to show you there is hope.

When are you seeing Fertility Specialist??

 

[Shellvz]

Morning luv,

So some great news and some not so good news.....

All your tests look fantastic, they really do.

Hubby's not so good. Dont know what to say Shell except Im sorry and big hugs to you and hubby because Im guessing he aint feeling great at the moment. So absolutely no sperm at all??? Does seem a bit odd.

One of my best girlfriends had the same thing. She was normal but hubby's testicals didnt drop until he was 12 basically making him sterile.

He started to take Menevit and it increased his sperm count enough after using for 4 months for them to get some sperm to use in IVF. They now have 2 beautiful 3 year old twin girls.
I know you said that you didnt want to do IVF, but just a story to show you there is hope.

When are you seeing Fertility Specialist??

Just made an appointment - earliest they can see us is Dec 10th at 11:30am.

Yep - zero sperm... I have started researching it online.

We are wondering if it was caused by 2 things: he had mumps as a child (which can cause sterility) and he had an operation on one testicle as a child/teen as it kept retracting into his groin.

He wondered if he only had one testicle working so was prepared to hear the words low sperm count but not zero.

The specialist we have been referred to is at an IVF Melbourne clinic in our suburb. I am still processing the information and trying to see where Dan is at with it all. He seems quite defeated.

We have just started a liver detox. I read that it was a good thing to do for health and to improve fertility. As my iron was so high the lady at the Health food store recommended I do it anyway.

I see you got your HCG results - 202.5... I am assuming this is good?

 

[Taurus8484]

Thats what girlfriends hubby had. Testicles were up in his groin and didnt drop until late in life.

Oh honey, I know what Rochelle went through with Glenn. He was absolutely devasted and blamed himself and Rochelle had to keep reassuring him that it wasnt his fault, its just life. I really wish I could give you a hug. Really do.

Dont know what to say Shell. I feel bad that here I am praying this bean sticks and your praying that there is hope.

Im going to stay with you through this journey, stick by your side........we are going to beat this no sperm bullshit together and get you knocked up!!!!

 

[Taurus8484]

Yeah its a good, normal average level. Have more bloods done on Saturday so thats the real test if they are doubling.

 

[Shellvz]

Thats what girlfriends hubby had. Testicles were up in his groin and didnt drop until late in life.

Oh honey, I know what Rochelle went through with Glenn. He was absolutely devasted and blamed himself and Rochelle had to keep reassuring him that it wasnt his fault, its just life. I really wish I could give you a hug. Really do.

Dont know what to say Shell. I feel bad that here I am praying this bean sticks and your praying that there is hope.

Im going to stay with you through this journey, stick by your side........we are going to beat this no sperm bullshit together and get you knocked up!!!!

Thanks Donna

 

[Taurus8484]

Im on Leave as of tonight and going to holiday home tomorrow morning for 2 weeks, but I will log on and check as soon as I go into town and get a signal.

 

[Shellvz]

Im on Leave as of tonight and going to holiday home tomorrow morning for 2 weeks, but I will log on and check as soon as I go into town and get a signal.

Have a great holiday

May little one stay put and grow strong and healthy!!!!!

 

[TrAndyy]

How are you going Taurus?

Today is CD8 for me. I will start testing with opk in 2 more days for LH surge.

Still trying to get on top of my disappointment from not falling pregnant yet. I know it can take time but it is frustrating none the less.

 

[Shellvz]

Hey Donna,

Hope that you are enjoying your holidays. How are you going?

Thinking of you and praying for your little one xx

 

[Taurus8484]

Hi luv. Enjoying holiday. It's been great. Got second bloodshed done at hcg was 1215 so doubling every 39 hours so all good so far.

Hope your well?

 

[Shellvz]

Hi luv. Enjoying holiday. It's been great. Got second bloodshed done at hcg was 1215 so doubling every 39 hours so all good so far.

Hope your well?

Hey Donna,

I have been thinking of you.. Glad to hear you are enjoying your holiday and HCG levels are going strong. I am so happy for you both. May this baby stay put till its due date!

I am going okay. Going to Ballarat for the weekend (after work tonight) to stay at in-law's place. Good to get away

Still feel fragile - can get teary very easily and swing between wanting to believe that we will conceive to feeling it is all too hard and should just accept and give up. Been having lots of really good talks with Hubby and atleast we know where we both stand and feel.

The fact is I love my husband and choose him. If I had known he was sterile before we married I still would have married him. I probably wouldn't have charted and gone through a year of ttc... Would have saved myself alot of frustration and heartache! However, we didn't know and now that we do we will see FS in Dec and see where we stand and what we could do going forward.

Still believing God for a miracle and that we will parent one day - despite zero sperm - I know God is able!

 

[Taurus8484]

Hey Shell,

Gosh, its been awhile, back to work How are you??? How is hubby??? Have you thought about options that the FS might give you???

 

[Shellvz]

Hey Shell,

Gosh, its been awhile, back to work How are you??? How is hubby??? Have you thought about options that the FS might give you???

Hey Donna,

Welcome back So glad to see your baby growing nicely inside

How are you feeling?

AF started this morning - punctual as normal - I was disappointed even though I knew she was coming. My temp yesterday morning was low so knew it was on schedule.

I think I am doing ok yet cry at all occasions and easily. I think there is a deeper layer of grief trying to escape and I may need to draw aside and have a good old fashioned howl - just for my sanity.

My husband and I have been talking through our options. We have ruled out most things except IUI or ICSI. We have decided that we don't want a baby for a baby's sake. If we can't have our biological children then we are done.

So that rules out adoption, foster-care, donor egg, donor sperm & donor embryo's. We can't afford IVF so that is already ruled out.

Once they run the tests on DH then we shall know if there are any sperm in the testes and if IUI is an option. If so, we will have a go. If not, we are done.

It has been a lot to absorb and process and we both find ourselves in denial and disbelief - till my period shows and it reaffirms to me that we need a miracle or medical assistance.

 

[Taurus8484]

Yeah Im going okay thanks apart from the nausea and vomiting at least once a day. The vomiting I can handle because once it happens its over with, the constant nausea is pretty horrible. And expecting to see blood everytime I go to the toilet still. Still living in fear

Sounds like you have talked through everything and are okay with your decisions.

Have you thought about maybe talking to a counsellor??? It is a huge situation to be dealt with and maybe talking to someone will guide you through???

 

[Shellvz]

I hope the morning sickness passes quickly - though they do say it is a good sign

I know it is difficult to do - but you need to believe that this pregnancy is a stand alone pregnancy and won't necessarily follow the path of the others. It has been different from the start and your levels have never been this high. Keep praying over your baby and believe that you will not meet this little one until its due date next year!

I am sure the FS will refer us to a counsellor to discuss our options. Being at the Monash IVF clinic I am prepared to be advised of all the options all over again anyway.

 

[Taurus8484]

Monash IVF Clinic has a wonderful reputation. Im sure it will turn out okay Shell. Try and stay positive. I know its hard to do, I have to kept telling myself to as well.

Remember, Im on this journey with you too xx

 

[Shellvz]

Thanks Donna

It helps to know I am not alone...

 

[Shellvz]

Today I finally have my appointment with ENT Surgeon. Waited two months to see him and I am sick

Laryngitis & bronchitis I think. Still I refuse to reschedule as I need my ear fixed. I hate vertigo!

Not yet sure how I will communicate. Hoping that as I rest my voice this morning I can speak during appointment.